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Lakas mang-inggit nung 2 classmates ko (well both close friends din), eh di sila na sweet. :P

Moving on, di pa ko makatulog sa sobrang busog. Well mabuti na to kesa last year. Last year, may trangkaso ako nung New Year's eve at di man lang ako kumain nung Media Noche. Ang malala, may sore throat pa ko. Watta loser. Andami kong namimiss actually eh, gaya nung pagpe-prepare namin ni nanay ng mga lulutuin pati na yung kukumpletuhin naming 13 fruits. Then pati na yung pagsisimba namin tapos bago yung damit ko, tsaka pag-uwi andaming handa. May mga family friends din kaming bumibisita and nakiki-Media Noche. Pati na rin yung pagtambay namin sa labas ng bahay and manunuod ng fireworks. Hay, nakakamiss lang. ;|

Tik Tok

It's the last day of 2012 and feeling ko wala akong nagawang productive during the break. Tulog-kain-gala-internet lang ata ginawa ko. Ayun, I'm planning to make a year-end post kaso tinatamad pa ko and I can't organize my thoughts well. Medyo nakalimutan ko na rin yung mga ganap ng 1st half ng 2012.

May mga bagay na di nangyayari gaya ng inaasahan natin. May iba rin nana di mo aakalaing may ganung mangyayari pala. May mga taong darating at aalis din. Kung sakin lang, parang wala namang nangyaring super special ngayong 2012. Maliban na lang siguro dun sa mga near life and death na ganap ko sa buhay (di yung nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan ha!), pero habang nagsusulat ako at iniisa-isa yung mga alaala ko, andami ko rin palang natutunan, at nagawang kabulastugan. Ika nga nila, it's just a part of growing up.

Ang tanda ko na pala. Dati rati, di ko alam kung anong susunod sa 2009 (akala ko 20010, 20011), tapos di ko rin maimagine na college na ko. Feeling ko tuloy di ako nagmamature, isip bata pa rin ata ako. Lalo na kapag kasama ko mga HS classmates ko, feeling ko talaga di ako nag-iisa na na-stuck sa pagkabata.

Last week ko pa iniisip kung pano ko gagawin yung year-end keme ko, pati si JH eh naisipan ding gumawa ng ganun. Seryoso, walang kakwenta-kwenta na naman tong post ko na to. Basta may maipost lang ng December 31. Uhh, miss ko na sina Nanay and Lola. :(

Holiday rundown

Since isa akong napakalaking tamad, iso-sort ko nalang yung topics keme dito :))

Acads:

Seryoso, nakakapagod! Partida 1 month and 1/2 pa lang yan? Buti na lang may Christmas break! Sana may Valentines Day break din! :)

Advo Christmas Party:

Seryoso, sa byahe ako super napagod. Papunta and pauwi, grabe yung dinanas ko (exagge yung grabe ha!). Maria Clara-Morayta-Ortigas-Buendia-Pansol. tapos nagtext si Joshua na sa Morayta daw sya. Malas naman, nagkita pa sana kami. Kaso nakakainis, nagpapaload sakin? Wow, ano kami? Magjowa? Ngek! fast forward! Sa byahe, di ako ma-kalma kasi gagabihin na ako then wala pa akong nabibiling food. Good thing eh updated ako sa ganap ni JH kaya sya na lang inutusan ko. Tapos nung di sya makontak ng madla, ako pa tumatawag. Haynako, call center na akez. Super forward! Pagdating sa venue, medyo nahirapan ako mag-blend sa mga tao. Ewan ko ba? Since may nararamdaman ako sa katawan ko, hormonal imbalance to malamang. Buti na lang eh di ako nag-iisa sa pakiramdam na yun at nag-bonding kami ni Pinsan Marione sa rooftop. Pagbaba namin, wala ng food. Kdie. Halos di ako makasingit as videoke, pila-pila eh. 

Tapos nung may inuman na, uminom na ko para lang may magawa ako sa buhay ko. Lame. Nung games na, ayun nagkandahilo-hilo ako. Tapos may games din samin na outgoing na super tagal kaya inabot kami ng madaling araw. Tss. So ayun nga, nag-swimming na lang ako after with Cindy and Sports tapos may pare-pare session na naman dun sa gilid pero di na ko sumali. Grabe, para akong biik na hinahatak papunta dun kaso ayoko. Hello? Tinatanong pa ba yun? Ayoko sumali kasi andun si JH. Eh baka sabunin ako. Pag minamalas ka nga nman, ako pa unang challenge. Iki-kiss daw ako ni JH. SERYOSO KAYO? Eh syempre conservative ako kaya ayoko. Eh pano kung na-push yun? Jusko, baka nilunod ko na sarili ko on the spot. Pinuntahan pa nya ako sa kinauupuan ko ha. He knows me very well, syempre bilang andami ko na naikwento sa kanya. Kaya nung sinabi ko na "No, JH. You know me", di na nya tinuloy. Pero seryoso number2, iba yung tono ng pagkakasabi nya ng "game". 

Juskupo! Moving on, tinanong ako ni Cindy kung okey lang ako. Well, wala naman akong problema, sanay na ko pag may kalokohan ang barkada kaya napagpapasensyahan. Pero si JH syempre iniisip ko kaya kinausap ko sya. Chill lang naman na usapan, tropa-tropa. Di nga lang napatagal kasi kinorner sya ni Cielo at hanggang nag-inuman na sila hanggang umaga. Samantalang ako, bantay sarado ni Cindy. HAHA. Syempre 19 pa lang ako tapos 21 na sya, halos papasa na syang guardian maliban sa editor ko :))

Nung umaga na, certified bangenge na sya. HAHA. Ume-english na eh tapos iba-iba na facial expressions nya. Nakakatuwa lang. Haha. Naloka ako nung sinabi nya na "Lhea, kakanta pa tayo ng boyband!". naalala pa nya yun? Eh tagal na namin napag-usapan yun ha. Tapos meron pang "Kita mo, kahit lasing na ko nakakanta ko pa yan ng maayos", "Ngayon lang ako nalasing ulit after 1st year", "Aware pa naman ako sa mga ginagawa ko", "Masaya naman. Bawal ba maging masaya?" :)

Nag-split na kami nung maliligo na sya at maliligo na rin ako. After nun, dumiretso ako sa kubo para manuod ng Inuyasha tapos nakatulog ako habang nakasandal si pinsan Marione. Nung nagising ako, andun na si Cindy then lumipat na ko sa girls room with pamangkin Aaron. Paggising ko, exchange gift na! Eh naiwan ko pala yung regalo ko kay Marione! FAIL! :P Binigay ko na rin gift ko  kay Cindy and Sports boys. Umakyat kaming lahat sa rooftop then picture na with the whole advo. 30 pala kami eksakto! Nung medyo nagkakagulo ang people, binigay ko na yung gift. Ayun, masaya naman sya. tapos may picture pa kami na parang bigayan lang ng diploma! HAHAHA.

Nung umalis na yung 1st batch, tumambay muna ako sa may billiards (2nd floor) then nag-videoke with Buts and Jerome. Nung huli, magka-duet na kami ni JH plus rap session pa. Moving on, umuwi na yung 2nd batch then gumala pa kami ng calamba. As usual, kami na naman magkasama. then picture picture dun sa bantayog ni Rizal then SM Calamba. Dami na naman naming napag-usapan pati na mga cake. Since matagal ang food sa chowking, pumila kami para sa cake. Tapos nung pauwi, hinatid nya kami sa sakayan ng bus. Then 2 hours byahe namin. Nakatulog na ko ha, tapos nagising ako, Makati na. tapos nag-jeep pa kami ni rogie. KFINE.

Christmas Shopping

Anlaki ng gastos ko SWEAR! Aabot ata sa 5K. Tepok ako neto. Kaya namumuhay ako ng tipid after christmas. HAHA

Christmas Gala.

Ilang beses na rin ako gumala. Una with Ate Reich, Don, Janice then Bro Franz. Di na ko napagod eh no.

Advices.

Puro love lang naman inaadvice sakin eh. Isa raw akong napakalaking bobo. Sabi nga ni Catherine "matalino ka nga sa academics, bobo ka naman sa love". HAHAHA. Thank you friends! :P Since super vinavalue ko ang sinasabi ng ibang tao, parang gusto ko na gumawa ng aklat. HAHA. Syempre iba pa rin pag may advices. Mahirap maging impulsive, dapat pinag-iisipan lahat ng bagay.

Reminiscing Christmas with Lola and Nanay.

Miss ko na sila. Miss ko na yung simpleng Nochue Buena namin. Magsisimba, tapos uuwi ng bahay na may pancit, sinakol, suman and cake. tapos anlamig pa ng simoy ng hangin. Aww. naiiyak ako. Di na mauulit yun kahit kelan. Naiinggit ako sa mga bata na kasama pa nila nanay nila, sana i-treasure nila yung mga moments na magkakasama sila kasi di mo alam kung hanggang kelan kayo magkasama. Partida super tinreasure ko moments namin pero ang hirap pa rin pala. 

OC attack. 

Since 2 na lang kami ni Ate, malinis na ang bahay. Yuhooo! :D

Katamaran

Di ako pumunta kina Tita Flor. Tinamad ako eh!

----Di man lang pala ako nakapagsimba -_____-

On decisions, parenting, and trust

I come up of making this blog post because of Cindy's recent column in FEU Advocate. But take note, this aint a hate post to the writer but I'll be tackling a certain topic that was mentioned there. So to understand what Im talking about, kindly read Cindy's column, okey? :)

Her column was about our school's high school superstar who's reported to change his colors from green-and-gold to blue and white. Well, if you're familiar to UAAP, you'll probably get this. The kid actually expressed earlier that he would like to stay with FEU because of "loyalty" then few weeks later, a news erupted that he's set to change his path from Morayta to Loyola. At first (well up to now) I don't believe those reports that he's Katipunan-bound. I was like "Hello? I cant imagine him wearing those colors. And besides, it's just an issue!" The next day, his dad told the media that his son is set to play for his current's school rival for college. Few reports have circulated and then the kid already opened his side and said that he has to make a decision, and beside's he's still in high school.

Bottomline, parent's decision vs son's decision. Based on Cindy's column "It was reported that he had already signed a contract with our University but then again, another deal was made by his father, who actually has the right to do it since his son is not yet 18 years old." If I were JMP (the kid), I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided. Sorry if it sounds rebellious but his father must respect on what JMP wants. Yes, he's just 17 years old and still a minor, but it doesn't mean that he would be taking over his son's decision especially in his career. Even a 6-year-old kid already knows what he wanted to be in the future, why can't he trust his son who will be turning 18 soon? Am I to diagnose them with Impaired Parenting? Just kidding. Sorry for making this a big issue but I can't let this pass. Where's the freedom here? (Im talking about freedom in having what you want in life) If I were JMP, I would stand for what I want. Later on, I might regret for letting the chance to slip away on my hands. Let's face it, JMP will be in a win-win situation. He'll be a part of the country's top university and well known basketball team, then who knows? He might be knows as this generation's superstar. But in his high school alma mater, he'll be remembered as someone who doesn't keep his words and a person who doesn't know what loyalty is.

At an early age, kids must be involved in family's decision making though it's just a petty matter or not. In this case, kids can practice how to man their lives and speak up their mind to their parents, as well as developing their mental maturity. I admit that I was raised as someone like this. At 5, my grandma asked me about the new boarding house that she wants to put up, and I said yes. So after that, I gave her reasons why it is a big yes for me. And as the time goes on, Lola- together with Nanay, Mommy and even my Dad- always ask me about my stand about a certain issue and my reaction on their decisions. Well Im proud that they do consider my point and respect it wholeheartedly. Their trust in me we're immeasurable. Maybe because I turned out to be a young woman who knows what she wants, what she stands and believes in, and someone who'll kick every bad people's butts if they'll plan to mess up with the things I planned. In return to what I did for them, they support me all the way because they know that I know what is right for me. They still do their obligations as parents-- to remind me about the things that I might have forgot and continue to empower me whenever I feel down. I hope that all parents were like them. I might not have the perfect family, but I have the perfect people who raised me as a complete person. Take note, all my life, Mommy and Papa we're not by my side while growing up, but still, they have a large percentage when it comes to parenting. It was Nanay and Lola who mainly supervised me all the way.

Sometimes, we have to be rebellious when our 'rents we're holding our necks too tight. We're not dogs, we're humans, and we have our own will. As children, don't be afraid to speak out your mind, who knows, you have the best-est decision that your parents haven't heard in their whole life. Yes, be positive! Your parents won't eat you alive when you have to utter something. No matter what, it's our parents' obligation to stick with us through good and difficult times then give the proper guidance we need. "Proper guidance." They don't have to declare Martial Law anyway. They will give us the understanding and the support that they need. As their children, we must give back to them, like respecting and loving them, be a good son/daughter, do well in school (and in life too!), and demonstrate to them that we're capable in standing up to our decisions. For me, the greatest tool for a harmonious relationship of parents and children is communication. Okay, you can supply the most appropriate adjective for communication :P I mean, how will the two parties know about each others' wants if they wont talk and communicate? Makes sense right? So going back to my argument in the second paragraph that "I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided," I will still stick to it. But, before my dad do it, we must talk about it hundreds of times, but if we won't agree to what I have decided, I'll do everything to convince him and lay his 1000% support before I let him speak for me.

Sorry again for being such a weird thinker, I just want to express my thoughts here. We're born free and we are the highest form of animals, so why they suppress us? Not a rebellious daughter here, just a free and modern day thinker ;)

Go for it

"Go for it" na siguro ang pinaka-overused na sinasabi sakin ng mga friends ko. Well, pagdating sa lovelife ang kaso.

So this blog knows everything when it comes to my love-este-crush life. Yeah, I actually like someone from my org, and you guys already know who he is. We're actually close buds and we share each others' secrets and other stuffs.

Recently, he posted a status in his Facebook "chemical engineering board exam results <3". So, without any malice, I immediately liked it (though he posted it 9 mins ago before I cliked the "like" button, and no one has yet liked it). Then after few minutes, he deleted it. And by that action, I pondered why he erased it. The next day, yun na lang ang iniisip ko. Andami kong naisip, super dami like.... ah basta, akin na lang yun. I even asked my groupmates about his action and they gave me a lot of scenarios. HAY.

Nung hapon, I was shocked na magccover din pala sya ng Track and Field (na iccover ko rin!). Pagdating dun, I had a chance to ask him about that, pero pa-joke naman. Ang hirap kasi ikwento dito. Pero ayun, he just laughed na parang wala lang. Well, gaya nga ng sabi ni Chelsea, "baka dahil sa may pinagsamahan sila". May ugali kasi ako na pag may sasabihin ako, pinapahulaan ko pa sa kanya. Ang gulo diba? Example: May sasabihin ako sayo. Hulaan mo :) Parang ganun. Kasi kilala naman din nya ako eh. Nung mga nakaraan nga eh, halos wala na akong ikkwento kasi alam na nya. Haha, galing!

Seriously, selosa po ako. HAHAHAHA. Di halata. Kung pwede nga lang bakuran sya, gagawin ko na. Lol. Ang hirap pala pag friend mo yung gusto mo. Oh well, mas nauna ko sya maging crush kesa maging friend. Kaso after team building, mas nanaig yung friendship. Ngayon kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. Pag nagka-gf sya, pwede na mag Dec.21 anytime, handa na ako! LOL.

I know na focus muna sya sa studies nya, and Im happy to hear that. Haha, may sinabi pa sya kaso di pwede i-share. Char. Sorry for acting this way, ganito lang siguro yung feeling ng ga-graduate na tapos wala pang ganap sa lovelife mula pumasok ng FEU. Feeling ko parang end of the world na, NBSB pa rin ako. Pressure ba? LOL.

Lately, nagiging conscious na ako sa mga galaw ko, though gusto kong maging natural lang kasi awkward din yun sa parte ko. Una, isa akong napaka-annoying na tao, madaldal na, maingay pa, tapos magulo at makulit din. Sinong hindi maiinis at maiirita sakin. Minsan kasi ayoko ng taong naka-simangot at tahimik. Feeling ko mahahawa ako sa pagiging lowbat nilang tao. Like yesterday, dumating ako sa venue na tahimik sya tapos nakatingin lang sa kawalan. So ayun, kinukulit ko sya. Ganun lang.

Tsaka ramdam ko, there's something wrong with me. Yung mga galaw ko kasi, lakas makapang-friendzone. yung friendzone na ako yung nangfi-friendzone at ako yung nafi-friendzone kasi very tropa ako gumalaw. parang ganun. Di rin kasi ako malambing eh. Kay Nanay at Lola lang ako ganun. Sa iba, hindi na. :D Siguro, yung masasabi kong lambing eh yung akbay, sandal ulo, tsaka pag-aayos ng bangs nya. HAHAHA. ganun lang. Di rin kasi ako cuddly na tao. Di ako mahilig mang-hug tapos di rin ako malambing magsalita, uhh, minsan malambing din. Depende sa sitwasyon. :)

Ang hirap kasi kumempet sa taong di marunong magreciprocate sayo. Sabi ng mga groupmates ko, kemehin (landiin) ko raw. Eh pasensya kayo day, di ako marunong gumanun. HAHA. Well, poor me ba? Lol. Di kaya. Babaeng torpe po ako gaya ng sinasabi ni Donabels (Don Carlo). HAHAHAHA. Eh ito namang lolo nyo, di ata marunong kumempet! Aba, nagsama na kami. Buti pa malalandi, nakakakahanap ng kasing lalandi nila o naaattract sa malalandi. Eh ako naman ayoko sa mga malalandi eh. :D Moving on, di ko alam kung manhid ba sya o hindi. Well, baka yung friendship namin yung mga-hold back sa kanya. Eh tropa nga kasi kami eh.

Yung iba kong friends, iba naman din advice nila, like "I-feel mo lang muna ang mga moment nyo na ganyan", "Di pa nya alam kung ano gusto nya", "baka di nyo pa time ngayon", "Darating din kayo dyan, hintayin mo lang". Ang tanong, kelan pa? pag gumraduate na ako? Wow, do I sound like desperada sa lovelife? Di naman uy! grabe kayo ha. Ganito lang kasi yung feeling ng magkakahiwalay na kayo ng tao, ilang months na lang eh. Mamimiss ko yung mga times na nagccover kami ng magkasama, magdi-dinner ng magkasabay, chismisan sa byahe, magkasamang naglalakad, magme-merienda sa hepalane or tayuman, magpapasama sa bookstore o sa pag-iikot ng campus. hay, ramdam ko na yung feeling ni Dairen dati.

Basta! Come what may. bahala na si batman! :D

NBSB talks :)

Last night, I was with Dairen, Beatty and Don. Yeah, the so-called NBSB bonding. I really enjoy the company of my fellow NBSB since they usually share their not-so-good experiences with their keme. And as the one who's next in line (ahem, soon to be alum), they also see themselves in me. HAHA. Mega relate?

When it comes to Beatty and Dairen, they have a contrasting personalities. Beatty: fierce artist. Dairen: soft-spoken writer. Beatty always tell me to do like this and like that. Something different. Nuff said. While Dairen will just give you some advices that is different from Beatty. Basta, ganun yun!

Since I got to bond with Beatty once every week, last night was the time to share some of my "keme stories" with Dairen. She knows who's the person concerned. Ayun, I learned a lot from her past experiences. Of course relate ako kasi nga NBSB kami. But Im happy that I got to listen from their stories. Sabi nga ni Dairen "I dont want you to learn the hard way". :3

Tapos ako naman, andami kong kwento kay Sib Dairen about kay JH. Well, iba naman din kasi talaga kami nina Sib and her keme. Tropang-tropa lang talaga kami ni Ji Hoo. Kaya may malisya kasi gusto ko sya, and madalas kami magkasama (pero pag kami ni Don magkasama, super waley! HAHA). Sabi nga ni Sib "kaya kayo laging magkasama or nagkkwento sya kasi comfortable na sya sayo" (which I think is soo true). Yes, we talk about our past kemes and related stuffs, pero kwentuhang just for fun and entertainment lang. Ako lang kasi talaga may hanash magkwento haluan mo pa ng nursing brutality and jargons ko :)

JH: Hoping ka pa ba?
Me; Noooo. Paki-stab to death nga yung bwisit na yun sa Tuesday!

Another quotable quote from Dairen. "Sabi ko kay June Ace, ieeenjoy ko na lang to kasi graduating na ako. kaso ayun..."

HAHAHA. Since malapit na ako sa finish line, i was thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay JH na bet ko sya o hindi? Well, sabi nung ibang friends ko, alam na raw nya (feel lang nila). Eh baka kasi mas tumagilid pa pag nagsalita ako. I'll just let destiny do its magic. tsaka ayoko paka-stress, ineenjoy ko na lang tong last sem ko :) Gusto kong gawing memorable to :)

@Sib: Thanks sa pagpapatuloy sakin. Sorry di kita pinatulog sa sobrang daldal mo. Feeling ko talaga eh mababawasan na ang circle natin, marami ng nagmamahal. HAHAHA. Last man standing kaya ako sating lahat? Wag naman! :))

Aside

This evening, nakumpleto ang "Don's Angels", with me, Yon, and Beatty. So usually pag magkakasama kami, puro asaran o lokohan lang. And this time, ako ang puntirya nila lalo na ni Beatty Lyn. HAHAHA

It started nung paalis na kami ng office para mag-merienda sa R. Papa. Sabi ni Beatty, mang-invite pa ako, so nang-invite naman ako ng mga iba pang friends namin. Eh syempre tropa, puro malisya na naman kina Yon and Beatty bilang nasa loob si JH at iniisip nila na sasama samin. Nung paalis na kami, lumabas si JH and nakisabay samin til LB. Magre-research pa raw sya sa library kaya separate yung ways namin.

Pagdating ng Hepalane, edi ako ang bida ng tuksuhan. The last time na nag-usap kami ni Beatty, sa Starbucks P.Noval pa.

Me: Beatty, I learned a lot from you since nung last tayo nagkita.

Beatty: eh ano ginagawa mo?

Me: Ayun, di ko pinapansin pag pumapasok ng office. Tapos di  magpapansinan, hintayan kung sino unang magsasalita, then pag nagpasama sya/ako sa labas, dun pa kami magdadaldalan.

Beatty; Ba yan Lhea! Very wrong ka!

Me: 2 weeks ko na ginagawa yan eh.

B: Hello? Eh parang iniiwasan mo na yung tao eh! Di ko sinabing tuluy-tuloy, dapat paminsan-minsan lang. Kinareer mo naman?

M: oo, kinareer ko. Sabi mo kasi eh.

B: Hahaha, Nako Lhea wag ganyan, darating yung araw na di na talaga kayo mag-uusap.

M: Ay ganun ba? Aww, sige. Mali pala ako.

B: hay, nakikita ko talaga sarili ko sayo Lhea.

---Kitams, may coach ako o! :) HAHA. Kailangan sumunod sa nakakatanda :)) Ika nga ni Lola "Eksperyensyado na" :)

So, pagbalik ko ng office, di na ko nang-iisnob. Haha, di naman kasi snob yun, nagtitimpi lang ako na di sya pansinin, or di ako dapat ang maunang pumansin sa kanya. Pati si Beatty eh nakakahalata na di kami nagpapansinan.

Moving on, before uwian nagpicture-an kami sa bagong Pavilion. Yeay! Buti na lang maganda ang ilaw! :) Pansin ko yung mga the moves nina Don, Beatty, Yon. HAHAHA. Kayo talaga gumagawa ng paraan eh.

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Nung pag-uwi ko, nagka-text kami about long weekend and work. Nakakaloka lang kasi mas busy pa sya sakin! Hay, di ko tuloy alam kung mas toxic ang Fine Arts kesa sa Nursing.

Since thesis mode si JH ngayon, andami nyang dalang libro. Ayun, mga 1:30, nagtext sya na nakita raw nya ang Cuyo sa Phil. Tourism book na hiniram nya and ang ganda raw, sarap daw puntahan. HAHA, Kfine. Edi sama na lang sya pag umuwi ako after graduation nya (which is RN na ako nun in god's will!) tapos with Advo friends din. Naiimagine ko ang kaguluhan sa bahay--eh nagsama-sama mga taga Advo eh (Okey lang, ako lang naman ata magiging tao sa bahay pag-uwi ko ng province).

Okey, i need to sleep na! LONG WEEKEND! :))

Of Milk Tea and Sisterly Bonding

And I declare Thursday morning as our official Milk Tea bonding time with Ate Rej. :))

Im a big fan of milk tea and frappe kaya madalas ako tumambay dito sa Moonleaf Tea Shop. Usually, Advo friends ko kasama ko, pero ngayon sinasama ko na rin mga groupmates ko :)

Since enjoy na enjoy namin ni Ate ang wifi dito, tahimik lang kaming dalawa and busy doing our own business. Me, busy with my paperworks, at sya, busy sa pag-iInstagram and paglalaro sa ipad nya. All of a sudden, biglang nagsalita si Ate.

Ate Rej: Lhea, kung magkakaboyfriend ka, mag-eenjoy ba kayo sa ganito lang? Yung magkasama kayo pero tahimik lang. Tapos pareho kayong may ginagawa sa lapto nyo.
Me: Umm, okey lang. Ayoko naman kasi ng madaldal na kasama minsan.
Ate Rej: Ay ako rin!
Me: Pero ate ha, napaisip ako dun! Parang gusto ko lang yung "Tara. Samahan mo ko" :D
Ate Rej: Ako rin eh, napaisip ako. Di ko maimagine na tahimik ka sa napaka-habang oras. Nakakapanibago yun!
Me: HAHAHA

Actually, kaya ako tahimik kasi kelangan kong tapusin ang article ko today. HAHA. Tsaka medyo masama rin pakiramdam ko. Oh well. :)

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Minsan talaga tahimik ako. Sa bahay lang yata ako ganito eh. :D

Crumble

And at the middle of reviewing for my NCM quiz for tomorrow, I just felt the urge to burst what I feel here in my blog. Actually, Im having mood swings since monday night. Ugh, hormonal imbalance.

Last Monday, JH accompanied me to C and E to buy my NCLEX reviewer. The last time we went there was when we bought his History book. Since it was already 6:30pm and I still have my duty at 9pm, we had our dinner at KFC. It's just a normal dinner with a friend but what made that dinner awkward was the mirror in front of us! (KFINE, hirap na ko mag-english! lechugas naman.) And another thing is, magkatabi kami. Di kasi ako sanay na pag dalawa lang kami ng kahit sinong kasama ko eh tabi kami, sanay ako sa magkaharap lang. Then, pag nag-uusap kami, sa salamin na lang kami nakatingin. Medyo matagal-tagal din kasi bago nai-serve yung food kaya mahaba pa yung time namin mag-usap.

Recently, I noticed na di kami magka-chika ng madalas pag nasa office pero pag nasa labas, super daldal. Well, siguro ganun lang talaga.

Pero kasi Im having this kind of dilemma from sembreak up until now. IDK. Iniisip ko na siguro kagaya lang to ng mga crush ko before, etc. Then I dont want to ruin our friendship since he's one of my closest guy friends sa org na napagkkwentuhan ko ng halos lahat. Tapos issue pa yung status nyang "I hate that I miss you" plus sabay pa yung pang-aasar ni Yon. -____-

As of this post, kakatapos lang namin mag-usap sa phone regarding dun sa isang tanong nya. Haynako Lhea, ayan tayo sa lovelife eh. Nakakarelate ako kay Dairen, oh my!"

@Dairen; "IAS-IARFA. So much for the girls I know who once dreamed of finding their Mr. Right in that institute." --hahaha, IN-IARFA. Chos. Pero relate much ako sib. HAHAHAHA. Bakit kasi andaming candidates sa IARFA? HA?

---Lhea, tulog na te. itulog mo na yan. makikita mo naman sya bukas.

Of rants and sudden burst of critical thinking

Last Sunday, I just grabbed Slam Magazine's latest ish where Terrence Romeo's name was on the cover. Actually, I wasn't planning to buy magazines since my rack's already full. HAHA. It was Justine who told me that Romeo's featured there, and since I'm an ex-Juliet (I'll just tell you the story later), I was kinda interested  on what's there.

As I browsed the magazine, I first came across June Mar Fajardo's article, read some lines there then proceed on the TR article. The moment I saw the first 2 pages, which contain his picture and a huge title, I was like "Wow, nagpa-interview sya dito tapos samin eh picture lang, ayaw pa na." I turned on the next page and kinda shocked that the article's writer and I share the same fate of not being replied by Romeo. "Really? Di rin sya nag-reply? Nakakahiya naman ganung ugali. You already agreed on the interview tapos biglang waley?" Then, the writer just interviewed key people that could say something about the 20-year old combo guard, which include Coach Bert, Coach Magtulis, and Mike Tolomia. I really liked the angle of the story. It's like it indirectly answered Romeo's ball-keeping attitude (Sorry, I really can't say bwakaw, or ball-hogger). Actually, it's kinda hard topic, that I, myself, can't even ask other people that "Is Romeo a selfish ball distributor? (Uhh? magulo Lhea. Where's the sense?)

Going back, Coach Bert is a person that will honestly tell you what's wrong on this kid since he's aware that TR has this thing called "shoulder fake-head fake-with hair swaying move-plus-I-can-do-this-all-by-myself-and-shoot-the-ball-without-sharing-to-my-teammates disease. Sorry for being harsh guys especially to some of his fans that might be able to read this. TR has an incredible talent, I know we all agree. He's also hardworking when it comes to taking time to practice his shooting (Someone from R.Papa told me this before and I have seen him before practicing even in the dark. Yeah, srsly). But he has to learn that he doesn't have to carry the burden single-handedly. There are 4 other guys, waiting for the ball he's going to distribute and facilitate, that will take that magical shot. And there's also a concept of 24-seconds that will let you plan and get that right timing to bury that dagger into your opponent's throat, and not throwing the ball freely like the one's in the arcade.

On the other hand, as a schoolmate, Im happy on what he achieved this year, especially being a part of the Mythical 5. Being one takes a lot hardwork from the start of the season til the end. We've seen how FEU rose above the seven other schools with that 4-0 record. That's already something. He was a hero in every game that he played, with long-dropping triples, defense-slashing drives, cat-quick hands that swiped every ball off an opponent, a sprinter-like fastbreaks and his signature shoulder fake-head fake-then- stepback jumpers that can make any girl go crazy seeing his nearly angelic face, lazy eyes and Son Goku-like hairstyle that he nourished for more that 3 months. (Phew! that was looooong!) I can't imagine FEU sans Romeo during their crucial first three games in Season 73. As some sports writers and Coach Bert said "It could have been 0-3, not 3-0." But how about FEU without RR Garcia? Well, more unimaginable (for me). Garcia suffered from an ankle injury from a practice before the season. With that incident, Garcia had a lesser time on court and gave Romeo more time to take charge as one of the veterans. As some UAAP fanatics observed, TR and RR doesn't seem to have that balanced pH, in short, chemistry. Whenever they are on the floor together (IDK who assumes the 1 and 2), they simply don't pass the ball on each other. (Guuuuuys? This is not an arcaaade). I have seen it a lot of times already, even last year. Well, it's just this time that it's more evident. But there are those times that when they share it, it  was like a nuclear bomb that can wreck the whole arena. During FEU vs NU Game (Sept 2), Garcia dished the ball on Romeo in the left wing, then shoots a triple that gave them a 2-point edge. Well, that game might not be counted as a win (Hello Technical Committee!), but it's SOMETHING. Something that not everyone witnessed. Another one was their KO game against DLSU. FEU was 7 points behind the Taft-based team and 38 seconds' left in the game clock. Everyone from the Morayta side wished for a miracle, until Garcia passed the ball on Romeo and knocked a triple, then Garcia stole the ball from DLSU's possession and dropped a three pointer that left the other team in a one-point advantage with 30 secs left. Yes, six points in 8 seconds. Magical, doesn't it? Yet, it was a sorry loss for FEU since it was the first time they were kicked out of the Final 4 in 5 years. Oops, I still have another one in my sleeves! Well, this time, FEU won their first cardiac game in the season. Less than 20 seconds left in the fourth quarter, UST's possession, and up by 1 point. The Tigers need to shoot that one last shot to run away their first game. Jeric Fortuna carefully dribbles the ball, inspecting the area and switches his attention to his coach, waiting for his signal to drive the ball. As his attention focused on his mentor, he forgot what he has in his right hand. It was the perfect timing for Romeo to swipe the ball, pass it to the running Tolomia and to Garcia who was waiting to make the finishing touches. And the ball safely entered the ring with 7 seconds remaining. And FEU's up by 1! UST wasted no time and made a fast play with Mariano on the downtown and missed the big shot when the time expired.

Garcia's fate next year is still undetermined, whether he'll stay or embark a new journey in the pros. Whatever happens, it will be Romeo who is expected to take over the floor general title. But in that time, Romeo has to change, for the his own good and for the better of everyone. Talent? No doubts. Confidence? More improved this time around. So lemme switch on the other side of my rants. I know TR is a nice guy, well, according to Joshua. HAHA. But seriously, he's good. I've talked to him a lot of times already, have picture with him, etc. He also do some simple efforts to other people in his simple way (like texting someone to alleviate his/her feelings [im a living proof to that. haha]).

Actually, I've been texting him since last month for my work-related assignment (thanks to JE for his number) and he doesn't reply. Joshua already warned me that recently, he's not into interviews (Actually, it's just for a photoshoot!). Then last sembreak, I had some few trips to R.Papa Gym, hoping to catch him there and talk about the shoot. But unluckily, I wasn't able to see even a shadow of him. Last Friday, I went back to the gym with Armen and Justine. Good thing, I met Coach Jo and told him why I'm looking for the kid. We patiently waited outside, hoping to talk to him that time around but we just wasted our time. I went back to the campus and met Russel and Mac. So I talked to them and ask where can I find TR. RE offered me to join them going to their Dean's office since TR's currently enrolling, and finally get a chance to meet him after 1 month of searching him. Side story: I cant help but laugh when we reached EB 8th floor. A lot of young girls are screaming when they saw the 2 tall guys I'm with, haha. So I just waited on the side and called by RE "Lhea, tara pasok na tayo. Nasa loob sya" "Uy, di ako pwede dyan, IN ako eh. Sabihan mo na lang sya" Then he entered the room and returned after 3 minutes. "Hintayin mo na lang daw sya sa gym after. Text mo nalang sya." Me: "Uy, seryoso yan ha. Sabihin mo mag-reply sya. Kung hindi, iiscalpelin ko sya, now na." And he terribly laughed while cameras are clicking at the background. After that, I went back in the office and after 30 minutes, someone saw TR outside. So I hurriedly called Justine to run after  him then he just said "Enrolment eh, busy ako". And the moment I hear it from Justine, I just bowed my head and said, I give up. But wait, I still have other pending papers! haha :)

Usapang K

K is for keme, kempet, kemps, etc. --Keri na? At yan ang ieeexpect mo sa blog kong ito.

SRSLY, matagal na akong walang kempet. Siguro ang pinakahuling matinong kempet ko eh si Joshua pa, pero that was like ages ago na. HAHA. After him, mga dumaang kempet lang na nagpapalipad hangin. Tapos may isa pa na nagse-seryoso na talaga kaso sorry, di ko sya bet eh, "the girl who cant be moved' pa ang peg ko nun.

Moving on, dalawang kempet lang ang ita-tackle ko dito bilang sila ang pinaka-recent. PAUNAWA: Meron bang attorney o judge dito? Kung wala, okeygopushforit tayo.

First: He's a good friend of mine na matagal ko ng crush. Medyo lumamlam nga lang ang ilaw nya sakin nung nagka-kempet ako at after few days eh nagka-kempet na rin sya. Pero aaminin ko, crush ko pa rin sya. :) Come October at waley na akong kempet nun, gusto ko pa rin sya (di ko pa alam na may kempet sya nun).

I admit, mababaw na pagka-crush lang yun nun kasi nga madalas kami magkasama, in and out of school (okaaay, may idea na kung sino!). Di ko rin maalala kung paano kami nagkasundo ng taong to. The last thing I remember eh yung Welcome Freshmen pa na umabsent ako sa 1st day ko sa Rizal then magkasama kaming nag-iikot sa quadrangle.

Last night, nagbabasa ako ng entries ko ng january, and may napansin ako na usapan namin ni older brother about sa kanya.Kasi itong si older brother, may pinapakiusap sakin na medyo di ako sigurado kasi nahihiya ako. Then umabot pa sa tipong pati posts sa FB eh pinag-uusapan namin and kiber lang ako kasi wala kaming communication.

Come May 2012, HORRAY! He's back! At first he was asking me about something na connected sa kanya. I was really hoping na he would come back until nag-tweet etong si crazy friend tungkol sa pagbabalik nya. So balik dating buhay na naman kami, more bondings and more chikahan.

Everything changed nung early September when our older brother left. Parang that prompted him to speak and share his own part or story. That was also the first time I saw him crying. And I was like "uyy! wag kang umiyak! di kita pinapaiyak ha!". I think, anlaking part ng traffic nun na makapag-kwento sya ng super tagal.

I admit na madaldal ako pero I dont ask some sensitive questions right away. I respect their privacy. Pero minsanm di mo inaasahan na yung gusto mong malaman, sila na lang magkkwento sayo. Sa part ko, natutuwa ako na they trust me kasi syempre di madaling magkwento diba?

After few more days and weeks, mas napaparami na ng kwento, mas diverse na ang usapan and minsan sya na rin ang nag-oopen ng topic, tsaka yung mga bagay na bigla nyang maaalala. Honestly, I still act normal around him pero pag wala sya and friends ko lang kasama ko, mukha akong may epilepsy :D

Nitong last week na lang ng October medyo nagka-something. Di naman sya something na may quotations, pero iba lang kasi. Medyo di ko iniisip, not until the "cuddle time" thing came tapos yung sa Batangas pa! HAHA. Recently, sinamahan ko sya sa institute namin para mag-enrol sa isang subject nya. Habang nasa pila, kinwento nya sakin yung hardships nya, makuha lang ang subject na yun. Final na yung IN kasi punuan sa ITHM, kung san pumila sya from AM to PM tapos waley ganap. Nagshare din sya kung paano nya pinaglaban yung subject na yun sa parents nya. Clap clap lang talaga reaction ko. I know na he's doing his best para ma-achieve yung goal nya and alam kong kaya nya yun.

Complete package na sya eh, matalino, mabait, kwela, masipag, dedicated sa ginagawa nya, goal-oriented, talented, and marunong makisama. Isa lang ang medyo di ko bet-- maaga sya matulog. :P 12am tulog nya, ako naman 1am! Pero ayun, I like him as a friend. I really treasure him as one of my closest guy friends na comfortable akong magkwento ng mga ganap and hanash ko sa buhay. :)

Second: isang tao na kapangalan ni former kempet! hahaha, SMALL WORLD. It all started with BBM, and then yung simpleng banat and the rest is... nevermind. Balak ko talaga syang i-basted agad, kaso iniisip ko, sayang tsaka para may makausap din ako paminsan-minsan. Nung una, di talaga ako comfortable kasi bumabaliktad sikmura ko kapag magkausap kami sa bbm. EK! Ganun talaga!

Tapos nung medyo pumo-porma na sya ng "lhea ko", mas di ako naging comfortable. Natutuwa ako sa mga korning bagay, pero meron ding hindi. Sorry, masstereotype ko sya as someone na "player" kaya ayoko ring makipagclose masyado. Though I know he would be a good friend.

Sabi ko nga, imposible namang magka-gusto ako sa kanya kasi may gusto naman akong iba eh. Pero kapag naging something to, baka maungusan pa nya yung isa. HAHA. Which is ayokong mangyari.

Comment: Okey naman sya, keri lang. I cant comment more on him kasi di ko pa sya ganun ka-kilala. and di naman kasi sya nagpapakilala eh. Yung ayoko sa kanya, mabagal magreply, tapos binabasa lang bbm ko ng wlang reply. honestly, ayoko ng lame na kausap (lame sya). HAHA. Ayun!

---YES? May duty pa ako later tapos nagbblog pa ako then ka-BBM ko si Cindy then katext ko naman kanina si Ji Hoo. HAHA. Si Ji Hoo na maaga matulog (cant blame him though, he needs rest).

Good night! Sorry sa isang napaka-walang kwentang entry! Di ko pa masulatan yung diary ko kasi di ko pa tapos yung salaysay ko dun about sa October 12 na ganap ko :)

Cuddle time XD

--as popularized by Ji Hoo (just ask me if you dont know him)

Recently, madalas kaming magkatext (though tonight eh waley, pasukan na eh) bilang sembreak :) I admit, i'm a Miss Know-it-All (pag writer ka, may ganyan kang mentality. Akala mo lahat ng words, alam mo), pero mas napatunayan kong well deserve ko pala ang pagiging Auditor ng Bobey Soc na founded ng batch namin sa Adbokeyt! :)

Me: Uy, miss ka na ng plates mo!
JH: haha, ayoko na sa kanila.
Me; haha. :) Bat di ka pa tulog?
JH: Wala. Sawa na sa unan. Hahaha XD
Me: Ha? bakit naman? Di ko gets!
JH: Cuddle time! XD
Me: Ek? matutulog ka na?
JH: Walaaaa XD

Siguro narealize ni JH yung kabobeyan ko. Kinain ako ng buo eh! :)

So kinabukasan, nasa bus kami papuntang Batangas with Ate Reich, Ate Lora, and Ate Criz. Then I randomly asked Ate Reich kung ano yung meaning ng cuddle time. And she said, "Lambing", "hug", parang ganun. Then I said to myself, "Gosh, ang bobey ko. Yun ba yun? Akala ko matutulog na. Parang meme!". And the three of them laughed so hard! Grabe, ganun ako ka-bobey! Kaya pala ganun reply ni JH sakin.

Nung gabi ring yun, I told JH that I misunderstood his 'cuddle time" reply, and he just said HAHA and talked about another topic. EPIC!

Moving on, nung sumunod na gabi, I always tease him the 'cuddle time" thing until he told me something that made me think deep. At di kinaya ng powers ko kaya kino-coach ako ni Ate Criz. Nanay Lora told me "Di pa nya alam kung anong gusto nya. Wag ka munang umasa." Tapos si Ate Criz kase, imba mga one-liner nya eh, sakto nasa beach kami nun. :)))

Kanina, meeting ng Sports, nakwento ko sya sa mga co-staffers ko. Then and unang nagreact eh ang June Ace reinvention na si Justine. "Ate Lhea, iba yan ha! Ang meaning ng cuddle time saming mga lalaki, lambingan, lampungan. Parang ganun. Basta ganun yun! (laughs)". So parang may something lang talaga ata dun sa cuddle time na yun. SRLSY. Pero ayokong umasa teh ha!

And just recently, medyo lumuwag na yung passages ng utak, at cardio-respiratory system ko kay Joshua. Tapos may isang Joshua  na naman sa buhay ko. Joshua Sar** sya. tapos Joshua Sarinas naman yung isa. BUHAY NGA NAMAN! Pero pag nakikita ko name ni Joshua2 sa bbm ko, si Joshua1 yung naiisip ko and parang ineexpect kong nagreply (eh magkahawig pa naman!)

Honestly, kinakabahan ako dito kay Joshua2 na to eh. Iba pakiramdam ko, parang takot ako sa maaaring ganap. HAHAHA. I mean di ko naman sya gusto eh, kaya hinahayaan ko lang sya. Tsaka mahirap na, may nabanngit na sakin na something yung friend ko. hahahaha Kay Joshua1 kasi, best of friends kami eh, so parang ang problema dun, ni-risk lang namin friendship namin (may closure na kami so ayos na!). kay JH naman, comfortable ako sa kanya. Well, lagi kaming magkasama sa school and sa labas ng school tapos makwento sya sakin and tropang tropa kami. Medyo nag-aalala lang ako kasi feeling ko alam na nyang bet ko sya (buong org na nga nakakaalam, tapos sya di nya alam? Naka-anesthesia lang?) :D

Final 1st semester

Sabihin ko man na kalmado, positive and chill ako these past few days, pero tonight, kinakabahan na ako para bukas.

Lemme assess 1st semester

• Busy sa research. Trust me, di kami makaka-1.25 kung di namin pinaghirapan yun. We failed 4 times and yet tumayo kami more than 5 times.
• Skipped NOL sessions. Bagong balita ba yan?
• Skipped NCI-NCA classes. Ang alam ko, once lang ako nawala sa NCA, pero 3 or 4 times ata sa NCI.
• Better grades in NCM concepts 2 and 4. Yes, di na sya palakol o buntis gaya nung 1st sem last year.
• A lot more sensitive because of Elective. Oh yeaah! Yan ang subject na lagi akong pinapaiyak.
• Ngarag sa duty lalo na sa NRMF. Swear, basag bungo ko sa medicine computation.
• Coverage. As usual, pasok na pasok sa sked ko. HAHA. Kaso ngarag ako kasi laging article ko ang nattsambang hinihintay para maiprint na ang dyaryo. After game, pasa agad.
• Lumuluwag na turnilyo sa RLE. HAHAHA. Isa pa yan eh! Nagkaroon ako ng "slump" keme.
• Late na pagdating ni LOVELIFE (edit:CRUSHLIFE!). Ngayong sem lang na to ako nawalan ng lovelife. 1st year 1st sem: Zeke. 2nd year 1st sem: TR. 3rd year 1st sem: Joshua. 4th year 1st sem: ???.. Well, pwede na ring si (deleted 2017) bilang madalas kaming magkasama ulit. HAHAHA. Joke lang. Pero si Joshua talaga eh. Pasulpot-sulpot sya. Pero dumarating sya sa panahong down ako tapos pag nagkausap kami, biglang shoot up ang grades/quizzes/exams ko gaya ng hina-highblood na tao! Yun pala yun eh. Kaso late na talaga sya bumalik ng medyo matagal. Ayun lang.

What went wrong?

• Yung paasa na grade sa Elective. grabe, may CI akong napa-comment bigla ah. Kasi si Mam ambaba magbigay ng grade tapos wala naman kaming inaatupag kundi lecture. mas mabuti pang nagssharing kami lagi.
• Yung NCA and NCI na di ko deserve. SRSLY? mas mataas pa sakin yung di pumapasok?
• NCM. Nakita ko 2 concept grades ko, pasok pa sa 2.25 yun. BAKIT 2.75 lang? parang di ako nag-aral ng matino ah!
• THESIS: masyadong nagfocus? pati ibang obligasyon nawala?
• 14 units. IKAKAMATAY KO TO!

Honestly, naiinggit ako sa mga nakakakuha ng line of 1 na GWA. Pero iba naman kaso ko sa kanila eh. NURSING ako. 14 UNITS ang subject ko. Anlaking difference diba? 

Gaya nga ng sabi ni Ate Chin. THINK POSITIVE! :)

Going up

Covering UAAP Basketball for 2 consecutive season's really amazing. You got to see basketball games a few inches away from you. You see scenes that can't be seen in television, like players talking or tapping their opponent, their facial expressions when they miss a shot or when they fell on the floor like a weak puppet.

I watched FEU's games last year, and honestly, I wasn't expecting that we're going to have our 2nd straight Finals appearance. But FEU pulled that season to an exciting and fantastic one, nailing those cardiac games and proving everyone that they'll definitely make it again, though in a roller-coaster ride to the top. 

That time, I was really scared that the Tamaraws would face Ateneo if they place 4th. Well, that would be suicidal for us. Luckily, UST bowed to NU in their final game and FEU won against DLSU. Before coming to semifinals, I was thinking that since Adamson stopped Ateneo's elims sweep, FEU would lose easily. Adamson also cancelled their classes that afternoon while FEU still carried on. I opted to cut my afternoon class to watch and support the team aside from doing my duty.

Some of the kids I met at the venue skipped their classes too just to catch the game that might be our last for that season. Yet, FEU ended it with a 10 point advantage. And the team's luck continued up to their rubber match and booked a round trip ticket again to the championships.

Again, FEU choked in their 2-game finals against their foes, Ateneo. I know it's hard to lose another crown again, but everyone must move on and improve their skills once again.

This year, FEU sparked in their opening game, with RR Garcia doing the magic again. The Tamaraws saw themselves at the top of the standing with 4-0. Not until NU halted it. The green and gold squad remained positive yet lost again to Ateneo at the end of the 1st round elims. The Tams showed everyone that they're really hungry for the gold when they trounced UST with 20 points, and then bowed again to Ateneo.

Their two loses against Ateneo's really a tough one, but their 2nd round match-up against NU was a very big blow to them. And then, DLSU made FEU's way to third spot blurred with Vosotros' baskets.

Come their rematch, Im confident that FEU would notch this, but seeing them play with crappy defense and kinda chaotic plays made me bow down and asked extra help from above. God heard my prayers and gave FEU a run to catch up with NU's score. The game reached overtime and FEU was up by 6 points, not until Parks made those terrific shots that shackled the Morayta-based cagers.

We left Araneta Coliseum with a pierced heart and unexplainable facial expression. We tried to keep the pain but we cant.

I know, rants and rages would not really help our squad right now. It's just disappointing to see that you're on top of the standings and now fighting for dear life at fourth. This doesn't mean that FEU's a weak team, it's just because of certain circumstances that caused them to be at that hanging spot. We almost had it all, but we let it slipped away.

That first match up was undeniably ours, but let's stop all these buzzes, it already happened. "bilog ang bola", right?

So let's just put our whole faith and support to them, I know that they need us. Even though we're going to face a lot of trials along the way, I know we'll definitely get there at the right time. 

IDC about my grammatical errors here, I just wanna voice out what I feel. :)

And I'm so back!

Hello there my dearest blog, ang baul ng aking very brilliant mind. LOL. So ayun nga, I'm so back na. Define pagbabalik. Nakakairita lang kasi puro Joshua-related na naman blog ko, uso mag-move on te!

Time check: 4:20. Wala pa akong tulog at wala pa akong NCP. Lechugas diba? Buti na lang wala kaming duty bukas, Case Pres and Post Quiz :)  Later ko na nga lang gagawin! Define katamaran diba?

Ang aga ko umalis kanina for duty, kasi balak kong tumambay muna sa Starbucks at gumawa ng NCP. Binayo kami ng ulan bandang Commonwealth, but di naman binaha dun sa may Regalado. Phew! Kasabay ko naman sina Chels and Muri nun. Then tumambay kami sa Starbucks hanggang 3pm :)

Rejoice! Di natuloy i-discharge yung patient ko. HIHI. Atleast naalagaan ko pa sya. LOL. :) So nag-VS ako, and sumama si Ana. Aba! Inunahan pa akong kamustahin si AJ! (Patient ko) Tapos eto namang si Aps eh kung anu-anong tinatanong kay AJ at dinadamay pa ko. Kaloka. Parang ike-case pres lang sa dami ng tanong. Chinika ko rin sya about acads. GOSH! May plan sya mag-MED! Parang bet ko rin eh! :)) Para classmates/seatmates kami! Kumusta naman yung surname nya diba? AJ Bago, tapos LJ Bagona naman ako. HAHAHA. Meant to be! On the other hand, tahimik sya at mahiyain pero parang naging comfortable naman din sya sakin after ko kausapin.

Moving on! Ayun, di ko akalain na last day ko na pala sa FEU-NRMF kanina. Since nganga kami after paperworks, todo Twitter naman ako. From Koko, You, Ate Isai, Zee, Ate Bien, andami ko ng naka-chat and natweet. Tapos nanghingi pa si Russel ng number ni Sir Ian. Hahaha.

Nung dinner naman, di ko naubos food ko, di ko kinaya yung Katsudon. Tapos usapang buhay and kalokohan naman kami ni Ate Rej. pagbalik ng duty, VS ulit and kinausap ko na naman si AJ. (READ: Nakita ko number nya sa chart!). GC pala sya! Sigurado matalino to. Actually, GC naman ako, di lang ganun kalakas pagka-GC ko :P

Lahat yata ng girls sa group namin, bet si AJ. Sorry, patient ko syaaa :)

Nung pauwi, nag-resume na naman yung banatan namin ni JA. HAHAHA. Nung pauwi naman ako, mag-isa na lang ako syempre. Naka-chat ko na naman si Mark Espiritu aka Maju kanina. 2 nights na kaming magka-chat at usapang thesis, cartooning at duty kami (buhay 4th yr indeed). Tapos kaloka pa mga hirit nya.

"Lhea, pa-share naman yung picture (fashion show) sabi ni (James) Soteco"
"Lhea, gawan mo raw si Soteco ng medical certificate"

Haha, napakabuting kaibigan indeed. Haha, at may pagsambit sa pangalan ni Soteco. (Note: Crush ko kasi yung barkada nilang si James Soteco, though akala ng mga taga-Advo eh si Mark ang crush ko. HAHAHA Example ng maling akala: Armen)

Shinare ko naman yung photo, tsaka mas nauna akong nagshare kesa dun sa message ni mark. then yung sa medCert naman, sabi ko "sana sinabi mo agad! may RX pad sana kanina eh! :P). Since di naman ako pwedeng mag falsify, inendorse ko na lang yung Recto. HAHAHA.

Nakakainis, galing akong duty sa Oct 3. Di bale, uuwi ako't maliligo ulit  para di ako bad hair day na manunuod. Malay natin andun si James! :P Pero pupunta talaga ako dun para sa mga friends ko (Pat, Yon, Rits, Mark, Anjo). tsaka di rin ako nakapanuod last year kaya babawi ako ngayon!

It's all about..

IDK if you're still checking on my blog or not. These past few days made me realize a lot of things, especially your so-called worth in my life.

One time, I found myself reading some thick nursing books. Super hopeless na ako to get a passing score in NCM-ABC concept kaya binasa ko na lahat ng libro na meron ako. Andami ko ng ginawa para mainspire lalo sa pag-aaral kasi halos sumuko na ako. And then I checked my facebook profile and I saw you. I browsed thru your photos and found a picture of you with that mala-toothpaste commercial smile .

No pun intended, you really have that wonderful smile that only few people would recognize. I mean, your smile can brighten anyone's day. So, I continued reading my book with your photo facing my direction. Parang yung dati lang, while reviewing, kausap kita and mino-motivate mo ko to study harder. Kung alam mo lang na isa sa mga nicknames mo sakin eh "Motivation". :)

You really did a great job to encourage me to study more. Di naman sa hindi ko inspirasyon sina Papa and Lola sa studies ko, parang may bagong force kasi na andyan sa likod ko para alalayan ako. Kahit nagka-keme ako ng sandali, it really didnt have a bad effect in my studies. Dapat nga maging thankful tayo kasi dahil sa happiness and heartbreak ko eh 2.2 ang GWA ko (lechugas na NCM lang, paniraaa!)

The next day, we took up that "shotgut exam" and I got a passing grade! Wow! May mga lumabas sa mga inaral ko! thank you lord. Even before, I know that Joshua can do wonders pagdating sa acads ko. Nung down ako sa RLE, after we talked the night before, halos perfect ako sa quiz and mataas nakuha ko sa bandaging. Kitams? :)

Come Saturday, I told Ate Chin what I really feel. This <3 of mine still belongs to him. Yes, I do have a lot of crushes, pero sya pa rin eh. Kahit na andami ng nangyari, di pa rin sya mawala sa trono nya.

Seeing a picture of him and his girl pierced what's between my 4th and 5th ICS. Yes, it really did hurt. Nakakabitter kasi eh. Aminin natin yan. I didn't had a chance to have a picture with him while watching last year's basketball finals. I thought magkikita pa kami kaso last na pala yun.

I tweeted "Sayang at di man lang tayo nagkaroon ng picture ng magkasama, wala tuloy nagpapaalala sakin kung gaano ako kasaya nung panahong yun na kasama kita". Totoo naman yun eh. Nakakabitter.

Then kaninang umaga, nag-chat pa kami. Parang wala lang, parang acquaintances lang. So ganun na lang ba yun? Mas nalungkot lang ako actually eh. Masaya naman ako kahit na di nya ako kinakamusta, pero yung totoo eh miss ko na sya. Kaya ko na syang tiisin pag malayo sya, pero pag andyan na sya, sige Lhea, gora ka na, minsan lang yan.

Nakakahiya man pero finriendzone nya ako. Naguguluhan ako sa totoong rason eh, pero ang sinabi nya sakin " Ayokong matulad ka sa mga ex ko na nawala na lang. Alam kong dito tayo magtatagal". He also tagged me as his "best friend" and "ate".

Fine, I now accept the fact that we're just bound to be friends, maybe in our entire life. Pero ayoko lang maging kaibigan nya kapag may problema lang sya, pero pag masaya sya, nakakalimutan lang. Ano ako, CALAMITY FUND na laging andyan pag binabagyo ka? Friend mo naman ako sa lahat ng oras eh, pero hindi naman ako laging andito para saluhin ka sa kalungkutan mo.

Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako nasasaktan kapag nalalaman kong di ka naaappreciate nung gf mo. masakit sakin yun kasi bakit di nya kayang makita yung mga bagay na nakita ko sayo? tsaka sana wag mo akong babalikan kapag nagkakalabuan kayo ng gf mo at humihingi ka ng tulong sakin, kasi pati ako nahihirapan din. Remember, di ako tagasalo mo.

And lastly, siguro hanggang picture mo na lang ako. Yung tititigan ang picture mo na nakasalamin ka at nakangiti. Minsan, naimagine ko dati na aayusan kita ng buhok mo, yung ako yung pipili ng bibilhin mong damit (bilang dream kong maging stylist), at rarampa tayo! :P Imagination na lang siguro yun, di na magkakatotoo. Sa ngayon, kakausapin ko na lang picture mo lalo na kapag naiinis ako. Pero wag kang mag-alala, babalikan ko pa rin ang picture mo kapag gusto ko ng kukumpleto sa araw ko.

Dear Diary

Wonder why I'm not posting that often? It's because I turned back to the 'forever-reliable secret keeper' diary'. Well, you can’t blame me guys since gusto ko lang ng ibang avenue to voice out my rants in a silent way, na hindi mababasa ng kahit sino.

Actually, isa na ang diary ko sa pinaka-iingatan kong gamit, and kasama na rin ang lappy and phones ko syempre. My diary has a lot of stories to tell, not just my stories, but also my friends'. Minsan, dun ko na rin nilalagay yung mga reactions ko and realizations aside from my experiences. It really feels good to write since you're also enhancing your skills aside from telling stories through written form.

Sa diary, wala kang mao-offend na tao, since di naman nya mababasa eh, unless nabasa nya yun by accident, which is 0.1/100%. Super liit ng chances diba? I remember what Joshua told me when I shared that I have a diary "Diary ka na naman dyan, tapos mababasa ko din naman". Well, for everyone's info, Joshua's the perfect example of a person who  accidentally read what I wrote about him. Umm, a hate post actually. HAHA. And it was because of him that's why I shifted to writing in a journal. HAHA, you'll never read my diary again, unless you'll steal it. But I'll never let you live after touching my precious journal. HAHAHAHA. Creepy!

Im currently writing about what my friend and I talked about last Saturday. Super kelangan kong isulat yun kasi 1st time nyang magkwento sakin ng medyo seryoso. Seryoso naman sya kausap, pero mas seryoso yung topic. And medyo na-guilty ako ng konti coz I made him cry. Umm, cry in a different reason. Hehehe. Palusot.Com naman ako eh no.

Tapos last night, sinulat ko naman yung biglaang drinking sessions namin. As long as naaalala ko pa, sinulat ko na. Mahirap na't makalimutan ko diba? And! Wagas ako mag-english pag tipsy na, pero pag yung Group 33 kasama ko, tahimik ako. Bat ganun? Tapos meron kaming isinalang (SINALANG talaga? Ano yun? Kaldero?) sa hot seat bilang sya ang sentro ng tanungan at usapan. Ayun. Kung ano yung mga tinanong namin, secret na lang yun :P

BTW, may isa pa akong notebook na maliit. Reaction notebook ko naman yun. Kung may mga sudden reactions ako na di ko masabi, dun ko na lang sinusulat :)))))

--Dapat nung September 12 pa to eh :D

Absences

Yes, I'm very particular with my absences for this year. Actually, nung 3rd year-1st sem, once lang ako umabsent (Ethics, Humanities, Rizal, all in one day) dahil sa FEU-Adamson Semis Game 1. Ako kasi yung nag-volunteer na magcover nun bilang puro majors ang klase nina Tito Ace and Cindy. Pero, super dami naman ang absences ko sa NOL. HAHAHA. Diba sabi ko nga kanina eh "very particular" ako, eto tuloy, nililista ko mga absences ko.

NCM
1st day of classes pa lang eh wala na ko dito kasi tinamad ako bumangon. HAHA. Gandang rason diba? So natulog na lang talaga ako nun. :)

Elective
Same din with NCM. Dalawa lang kasi subject ko nung 1st day eh :)

NCI
Umabsent ako dito dahil sa FEU vs Adamson game last week. Eh kasi naman, di talaga ako manunuod. Eh kaso pagdating ko ng office, nag-aya si Armen, ayun absent na tuloy. Hirap talaga umayaw sa barkada :))

NCA
Absent ako nung Thursday! Almost 1:30 na kasi natapos yung media prep  namin for research, tapos nag-lunch pa kami ni Ate Reich kaya ayun, di na ko nakapasok.

Research
Sa lahat ng di ko papasukan, eto pa? Actually, sarap ng tulog ko kaya napabayaan ko to. Super kaba ko kasi may quiz yata kami. IM DEAD! Tapos di pa nagrereply yung Co-Leader ko, kaya feeling ko galit sila sakin. Waaaaah.

NOL
Kailangan pa bang isama to? Ayun, as usual eh lagi akong wala dito. Pero sorry na lang, 3 lang absent ko dito, out of 6 :))))


--Sorry na, napakatamad ko yatang bata. Di na ko papasobra ng absent dyan. SWEAR! :)

Dont pretend to know everything

Sorry guys, I'm not that good in expressing my thoughts through writing sometimes. I do better in speaking, but beware, my words are like bullets that would easily fire someone down.

When I hate (or dislike, etc) someone, I try to keep it to myself first, thinking that I might have judged him/her wrong. But when I cant take it anymore, I try to belt it out to someone who  doesn't have a minute idea about the person I'm talking about. It's not backstabbing, it's just letting anger to diminish.

Recently, I have this small notebook that doesn't seem to contain all my unsaid thoughts for the past weeks. Yes, I'm a talkative person, and every single person knows what I'm thinking since I usually tell it to them, but now, I'm trying to have my thoughts in private.

Some of my entries are all problems, but some are secrets, sudden realizations, or wild thoughts. Haha, I already gave a hint on what's in it! But anyway, why am I blogging this? Because I want people to know that there's still more beyond the real me. I don't mean that I have a devilish alter ego or what, but I am a type of person who thinks deep and yet blows hard.

And to that certain person, don't pretend to know everything. There's still more that you don't even know. Before doing such powerful actions, try to think deep. Just THINK. Open your eyes and explore the world that you think you already know. I do hate disrespect.  Respect begets respect, always remember that. And please, dont act like you're innocent, let's face it. Let your mouth do the talking.

Kinda, umm definitely, or maybe certainly

I was actually reading some articles in a known sports website and came across to an article made by an FEU correspondent. Since his article is about FEU (but of course!), I easily clicked to read it. And after that I was satisfied with the infos that I got, but not its composition.

I really have a keen eye on errors and corrections. It's a natural thing since I'm a writer and I need to check mine and our section's articles too. Tito June Ace was the one who taught me about these things, and up to now, I'm still learning from him.

The moment that I read the article all over again, I got to see some redundances, inconsistencies, missed letters and incomplete thoughts. At some point, he's also text speaking (like making "yung" to "ung"). He also didn't follow some basic rules in writing, like hyphens and commas. I was wondering whether his editor checked his work or not, or maybe they just let it that way, showing what the writer has originally typed.

Honestly, I'm kinda, umm definitely, or maybe certainly not happy. I don't require him to ask help from me or from anyone else, but before doing such write-up in a website like that, you need to make sure that every little thing that you put there must be correct. I hope he read some online articles first before he wrote, atleast he has the idea and the technique. I'm not a perfect writer, I have problems with grammar but I still make it to the point that I always read to enhance my writing and correct my errors.

There's still a room for improvements. This may be his first time to make such an article, umm, not really an article, but a kind of blog entry, so I guess I'll just let this pass. Not everyone can be good in 2 skills, someone might be good in reporting rather than writing or vice versa.

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Oh! Another info, I also tried to be a correspondent for that website. Actually, when I auditioned, we were asked to report and make our own script. Unluckily, I was not chosen. Haha, though I'm fond of talking, well,  reporting may not be for me. I think, I belong to public speaking or debating. HAHA. And aside from that, my spiel sounds like an article. The last time I made a script for sports reporting was during our Speech class in my sophomore year. But that was a different thing since my script was just plainly a report, not a play-by-play one. Haha, oh! Don't get me wrong guys. :)

Umm, maybe?

I had a dinner last night with two friends whom I missed to bond with. Well actually, we always see each other in school,  and almost everyday, haha. We really didn't planned to have a dinner together, but since we're leaving school late already, so we decided to eat in a nearby restaurant.

While waiting for our food, we took a lot pictures since I brought my camera and aside from that, we also reminisced our bondings before. So when our food arrived, friend number 1 served me the food first. And I was like "Aww, thank you! Hey! Pareho kayo ni Tito!", and then he asked why, so I told him that it was Tito who always serves me first. Hahaha. And this friend also did it again when we both asked for another extra rice. Haha.

And then, I remembered what my other girl friends told me, he's just like tito. Umm, well, they maybe a bit different since tito is a "simpatiko" and this friend is a "moody" one (as described by his close friend). Friend number 1 was my teammate last year and I thought I already knew him, but my 2 gf's told me "not that much". Well, they both told me that they had a little crush on friend1, umm, maybe because of how he treats his friends, or how he behaves around a small group of people.

Since I'm a "walang-hiya" kind of person, I immediately asked him if he's the same at home, so he told me "yes" since he's the youngest among the two. His brother usually cooks for them and he's the one who serves for them. And I was like "awww" and shared my own kwento too.

And then again, I came across of overthinking again. I think that Im a kind of person who always take both sides of the story. Haha, that's why Im a journalist, right? Well, to understand a certain thing, you must not hear or see only the side A, you need to consider also side B. I'm not just talking about fairness, its also about understanding for you to interpret certain things accurately. And through this, I think Im already evolving into a Nurse-Psychologist who's really interested on why people react or behave that way. And then I think, nawawala na ako sa topic :)))

Going back, why title Umm, maybe? Well look back, I have a lot of umm maybe parts in this blog. haha :D

Of disappointments

Last week seemed to be the most disappointing week of my life. Thing didn't go well especially in my academics. Yes, I got zero on my Medical Calculation practical quiz, and got 50 on the other one. I'm afraid that I might have a Revalida before the end of the sem.

What went wrong?

Well actually, I chose to sleep rather than to review. I prioritized my physiological need rather than the other one. I took things too lightly, maybe because I think it's easy. I don't usually fail in our skills lab, which seems to be my forte even before (exclude Health Assessment here). I think, maybe because of the type of practical exam why I failed. Well, I think so. I just need to bounce back next week. I dont wanna be late again or to have a failing grade. I will do my best this time. Swear!

I will also study my lessons on NCA, I will not take it for granted again. I'll prioritize my obligations well.
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Come Friday, everything's changed. I was really enthusiasted in our new concept in NCM which is Communicable Disease. Our professor described herself as a terror teacher, but I dont see her like that. Maybe she just wanted us to do our best and study more in her concept. She did asked a lot of questions during the start of classes, and me being the "best in recitation" kid (hahaha, no doubt!), I always raise my hand and answer her. She gets irritated when everytime she throws new questions, and no one raises their hands, except mine. :)

HAHA. I hope I'll have good grades in her concept :D

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And yes, I missed blogging here!

Boys will be BOYS

HAHA. Fine! Usapang boylet to guys :D So 2:40 na sa  watch ko at di pa ko natutulog. Napa-blog lang ako kasi gusto kong tumawa. HAHA, wala lang. Deh, gusto ko lang i-document yung mga keme sa buhay ko.

You know me guys, kung ayaw ko sa tao, FRIENDZONED, SIBLINGZONED and worse! STRANGERZONED! So kanina, nagtext sakin yung isang kakilala ko from FEU-FERN na nagco-college ngayon sa Adamson. Bale former Baby Tam sya and teammate nina Mike and Russel before. And another trivia, he also wore jersey #7 before TR. Hahaha. Sa kagustuhan ko mang ilagay dito yung naka-printscreen nyang text, kaso tinatamad na ko. Pinabasa ko na yun kay Ate Reich kanina and tawang-tawa sya.

Nagstart from Hello, Kumusta, hanggang sa paboritong linya ng mga boys na "baka may magalit" and sa punto na "anong gusto mo sa isang lalaki". I just played safe na lang kanina kasi alam ko na yung mga ganung flow ng usapan. HELLO? lahat ng binasted ko nung HS, ganun yung umpisa. Haha. Imma bitch, babe! Tapos nung sinabi ko na NBSB ako, (which is totoo naman), sabi nya sya na lang daw maging boyfriend ko and kemekemekemekeme..... Then may sinabi pa sya na gusto nya ng simple, na kaya mag-sacrifice, na maiintindihan yung pagiging maluho nya, na parang mag-asawa na yung turingan nila and so on.

Juskupo, AMBILIS DRE! Pero wala eh, basted. Sorry! Andami ko pang inexplain sa kanyang keme, na dapat mag-aral muna sya, kasi 4th year na rin sya and focus lang ako sa sarili ko and sa org/studies. May pahabol pa sya na di raw sya gwapo and so on, tapos haha lang reply ko kasi no comment ako. Pa-humble pa ang potek. Yan ang isa sa ayoko eh. Sinabihan ko rin sya na wala syang mapapala sa pagmamadali sa mga ganung bagay. Dapat pinaghihirapan and dapat ineeffort-an yung bawat liligawan (di ko naman sinasabing ako yun kasi wala syang pag-asa sakin OKEY!). Kaso mas naloka ako sa sinabi nya na EXPERT  daw sya dun (sa pagkuha ng babae ng mabilisan), kaya nagreply na lang ako ng "Oww, Yun pala yun". HAHAHA.

Galing ko ring bumasa ng lalaki ano. Uy! Basa ko na moves nyo mga tol. Sabi ko tuloy kanina "Lord, di naman ako kakarmahin sa ginawa kong to diba? Tsaka mas okey na tong single ako, atleast masaya naman ako." Haaayh, kailangan talaga nating magdesisyon sa mga bagay-bagay ng mabilisan minsan para di tayo magsisi sa huli.

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Then nitong gabi naman, nagchat sakin si Joshua. Nagkakagulo na naman sila nung GF nya. Seloso pala ampotek. HAHA. Napapa-tengene nga ako eh. Nagjo-joke pa  ko nung una kaso sabi nya seryoso daw sya. So ayun, bilang si very dependable friend and best-est love adviser na walang experience, inilabas ko na lahat ng talino ko sa love problem nya. Actually, napaka-petty lang nung problema nya. Sus!

Kasi raw yung gf nya tsaka yung ex-bf nya nagco-comment-an sa FB. Eh eto namang si former keme todo selos. Then, walang cp ngayon si gf kaya hirap sila magcontact. Katatapos nga lang daw nila mag-away tapos may misunderstanding na naman. Edi nanghingi sya ng advice kung bibigyan daw ba nya ng space si girl o hindi. Eh ang sabi ko HINDI, kasi may chances na umextra si ex-bf at matuloy yung iniisip ni Joshua na baka maakipag-break si girl.

Nung first part, medyo tumatawa ako at napapa-"karma's a bitch!" kaso never pa nagpatulong sakin tong si Joshua before  sa mga love life nya. And naloka ako kasi sakin pa sya nagtanong eh alam nyang wala akong naging experience sa lovelife (maliban na lang sa mga "almost there" episodes ng buhay ko). Im happy na rin na he appreciated what I've said. Maybe he realized na Im an indispensable friend. He can always ask help lalo na kung kaya ko naman. Di ako after sa paghihiwalay nila (in case na hindi magiging effective yung advise ko) kasi wala rin akong balak na umepal dahil masaya na ako sa estado ko, its just that gusto ko rin na makahanap sya ng matinong lovelife nya. Im happy na rin with Michael kasi na-beat nya yung distance nilang mag-jowa and whenever we talk, feel kong masaya sya. From a certified chickboy, nagbago na rin si BFF #3 :)

Ewan ko kung naiisip lang ako ni Joshua ngayon dahil may problema sya pero wafakels, okey lang yun. Role ko naman as a friend yun diba? Well, im an effective friend naman eh. May mapipiga ka pa rin sa utak ko kahit wala ka ng maisip at ubos na yung CSF mo :)))

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Bilang boys ang topic nung blog ko, naalala ko yung sinabi ng tita ko sakin. Bale kausap nya yung pinsan ko na 1st year ngayon sa IN (idol daw ako nung pinsan ko and ako raw yung example nila, hihi). Sabi nya kay Joy (pinsan ko) "Tignan mo si Ate Lhea mo, malapit na syang gumraduate, parang kelan lang diba? Gayahin mo sya na focus lang sa studies nya. Alam mo naman na busy din yan sa writing nya pero kaya pa rin nya. May mga crush-crush din yan si Ate mo, and may mga nagkakagusto rin sa kanya o nanliligaw pero di nya iniisip yun, kita mo  wala pa rin syang boyfriend ngayon kasi yung pag-aaral lang nya iniisip nya. Edi tuloy walang problema sina Papa, Lola and Mommy nya sa kanya".

halos pumalakpak yung tenga ko sa mga narinig ko kay Tita eh. Sinabi ko naman na NBSB ako and may mga kina-career din ako kaso di sya umaabot sa punto na pati studies ko apektado. Never pa naman nangyari na bumaba grades ko pag may keme ako, TUMATAAS pa nga eh. Kaso pag heartbroken ako, LAGOT ka, parang blood pressure na shumu-SHOOT UP yung grades ko. HAHA. Kahit paano, maganda naman yung epekto sakin. Ever since High school. HAHA. Pero mas effective pa rin pag walang jowa, atleast walang problema.

Iniisip ko, mabenta ata ako pag 1st sem. CHAROT! Or pag final year ko. Ewan ko nga kung bakit eh. hahaha. Di pwedeng wala akong keme. Pero meron naman, crush lang naman eh, INSPIRASYON :)

O sya, matutulog na ko. May sports meeting pa kami mamaya tapos hahagilapin pa namin yung thesis adviser namin.

GOOD NEWS! Baka wala na kaming lecture keme sa thesis! YEAHBAAAH! :)

Mema 2

So everyday, talagang tinitignan ko yung stats ng blog ko. HAHA, paboritong basahin yung FYI post ko. Creepy ulit, sana walang magsabi kay Mark nung blog ko. HUHU. Pero mostly eh Joshua-related naman yung mga posts ko (syempre yung dati), pero okey lang na mabasa nya, para informed naman sya sa mga pinagdaanan ko dati. Charot.

Yun lang :) Mema lang :))))

Use the word SANA in a sentence

These past few days, puro guys ang mga nakakasama ko, either sa school or sa bahay. Since nasa apartment sina Tito, Kuya Jay and Kuya Jade (Kuya Jay's classmate), sila ang nakakausap ko ng madalas.

Any, lagi naming napagkkwentuhan nina Kuya yung mga tipo namin. And honestly, parehong gusto nila ang mga mahihinhin, sweet at yung ka-opposite ko. HAHA. Sad but true. Tinatanong ko sila kung bakit ganun ang gusto nila (well, mahihiya pa ba ako sa kanila?), kahit sila di nila maexplain.

Yes, di ako malambing, sweet, tahimik, simple, and kung ano pa man. Feeling ko tuloy, "friend" material lang talaga ako. The forever friend, sister, adviser, ate, etc. Naisip ko, "hey! wala ba talagang nagkakagusto sakin kahit minsan?". Sorry, naiisip ko talaga yan. Do I sound desperada na ba? Di naman sa ganun. Di naman ako nagmamadali eh. The thought of being unattractive yung pumapasok sa utak ko. Parang ganun, yet I dont feel insecured sa ibang tao dahil naniniwala akong may kanya-kanya kaming ugali.

I have this friend na ka-age ko lang na laging nag-gGM. And nabanggit niya sa GM niya kanina na "Wala ng babaeng sweet, mabait, at paggising sa umaga ako agad ang itetext". Napagtanto ko na, eksaktong hindi talaga ako yun, di ko ugali yun. Kahit nung mga kapanahunan ni Joshua, super bihira ko syang tinetext ng good morning, at di rin ako sweet, minsan bini-bitch ko rin sya. Di pala talaga ako isang ideal girl material indeed.

May mga rants din akong naririnig mula sa mga guys pag pinag-uusapan nila ang mga babae. Sabi nung friend ko na I consider as a younger brother, parang di raw naapreciate ng mga babae yung mga efforts nila. Kahit ako di ko maeexplain yun. HAHA, speechless na ako dun.

So parang... ewan, basta ang gulo! Sabi nga nila, dapat daw eh maging sweet na raw ako mula ngayon. Ek? Di bagay sakin maging sweet! I have this tough girl-slash-jologs-kenkoy-sophisticated-strict looks and attitude. So it really doesn't match. Di rin ako mahinhin, kasi di bagay sa isang nurse maging mahinhin. HELLO! Emergency case, MAHINHIN pa ako? Eh sa buong nursing life ko puro TOXIC pasyente ko and I dont have time to practice those mahinhin walks and practices, chos. At ang pinaka, DI AKO TAHIMIK. Pinanganak akong madaldal and no one could ever change me to be tahimik.

In short, wala talaga, I dont really suit to a normal guy. Pero sana naman eh may kumaya sa personality ko. May nakapagsabi sakin dati (i forgot already) na "You have that strong personality na mismong mga lalaki eh maiintimidate sayo. They see you as an established person already. They cant beat or even match you kasi para ka ng great wall of china sa pagiging matatag". In a serious tone, am I that INTIMIDATING? Accomodating naman ako ah. I have few guy friends ngayong college and most of them are from Advo. Sa klase naman, yung mga groupmates ko lang but be weren't that close that I even tell them the whole story, yung mga bagay lang which concerns within the group or in our course lang.


--Narecover ko lang to sa drafts ko. Nung april pa ata to eh :D

My so-called WEAKNESS

After 2 months, heto ako at excited na excited nang magsulat ng Volleyball. HAHA, akala mo eh baguhan lang. To tell you honestly, eto talaga ang kahinaan ko, Volleyball. IDK kung bakit ganun, kasi yung combined article ko, na-overhaul nung Jan-Feb ish. Since then, I considered writing volleyball as my primary weakness.


Trivia: Volleyball yung pinaka-unang ginawan ko ng full-length article bilang homework namin kay Nanay Lora yun. Sa TV lang ako nagcover nun and.... wala talaga akong alam sa sport. Good thing, alam ni Nanay (Nanay Moeng) yung skills sa volleyball (batopkors! athlete kaya si nanay!). Hindi ko naisip nun na mahihirapan ako sa pagsusulat, basta ang naaalala ko, EXCITED AKO MAGSULAT.


Siguro, nasa volleyball na lahat ng 1st ko. 1st FLA, 1st cover (with Tita Cha), 1st SOLO COVER (with Sherra), 1st interview (Coach Nes). So kung iisipin, memorable talaga yung sport na to. Kaso, ewan ko, compared sa basketball, di ako matino magsulat sa sport na to. Ewan ko talaga, as in ewan...


Habang binabasa ko yung past articles ko, both BB and VB, nahihiya ako sa sarili ko, kasi mas okey pa yung dati kesa ngayon. Feeling ko tuloy hindi ako nag-improve. Sophomore (???) jinx ba ito?


Basta, magsusulat na ako. Tanggalin na ang negative vibes sa katawan and magsulat muli. :)

It's been a while :)

HA! Kumusta blogspot? Anyare? Anong ganap? KGOPUSHTHATBUTTON.

Ang baliw-baliwan ko lang diba? So ayun nga sabaw pa rin ako. Two consecutive days na akong nagccover. HAHA, ako na busy ngayong summer. Kaso, ewan ko, parang di ko bet magsulat or di pa pumapasok sa sistema ko na gumawa ng article. Dedbols ako neto kay Madam SE :)))

Ayun, bilang patapos na ang summer classes, feeling ko eh busy pa rin ako. Bakit kamo? Kasi nga... Busy ako :))) In some way, kelangan kong i-enjoy tong busy-busyhan peg ko. HALAAAA, last 2 sems ko na sa FEU teh!

Bilang ngayon pa lang eh pinagpaplanuhan ko na ang upcoming life ko after grad (GAGRADUATE AKO,K!), feeling ko eh busy pa rin ako. Siguro ako na yung taong excited gumraduate pero di ko kayang iwan ang FEU. If ever kasi na di ako aalis ng FEU, ganito ang ganap ko.

1. Magma-masteral ako sa IN. (Batopkors!)
2. Kukuha ng units for masscom.
3. Keme pa rin sa sports or uaap (let us not define keme as of the moment)
4. Magwwork sa FEU (haha, wala akong maisip)

And if ever na di ako mag-aaral ulit...

1. Will look for a media-related work (writing, etc. Sana naman sports related pa rin!) Pwede na rin sa mga teen magazines or Sports mag na rin (but before that, kelangan ko munang tapusin yung sophomore  jinx ko. K)
2. Work as a nurse sa Palawan (pero pwede naman ding sa Manila. Jusko, mamimiss ko buhay ko dito!)

Ngayon pa lang, puno na check list ko. Any, I dont wanna work agad as a nurse (pero syempre mag-eexam muna ako, kukuha ng BLS and IVT license ) kasi gusto ko munang maexperience yung ibang trabaho. Kumbaga, eto yung BAKASYON ko. Si papa naman kasi, gusto akong maging certified bum after college. Helooo? Magtatamad-tamaran ako for 2 years? NAMAN! Eh atat na akong gumastos ng sarili kong pera. HAHA, pera agad iniisip ko eh no.

Sa ngayon, marami na agad plano si Mommy para sakin and happy naman ako na atleast may sure job na ako. Pero sana kahit 2 years man lang eh makapagstay pa ako rito :)

Moving on, dahil sa masyado akong excited gumraduate.. ANAR na TE? Yan ba leader ng CASE PRESS at THESIS? San na yung gram staining kemper mo? Kumusta na yung pathophysio? EK? 9pm na! I must sleep na mamaya dahil 4am ako magigising tapos duty pa ng 6am- 2pm. Tapos  kung kelan pauwi na kami, dun pa dumarating yung pasyente! HAHA.

Share ko lang, ansaya ko last week sa duty, kasi 2 kami nung groupmate ko na nag-explain ng lahat ng keme dun sa Emergency Room. Napalaban kami sa english! RN-slash-CI-slash OB Gyne yung bisita namin from China :) Tapos nakapag-ECG twice! Yung una, kasama ko pa si Ana dun sa private ward. Tapos yung sunod naman, emergency case! So ako na lahat, from vital signs then ECG! Kelangan pala mabilis sa ER. ANd Im quite enjoying ER na rin. Dati kasi bet ko yung Delivery or Operating Room :) MAhilig ako sa madugo eh.

So guys, bye bye na. Ittry ko gumawa ng article tonight and kukumustahin ko muna mga staffers ko, este groupmates ko. HAHA. BYERS! :D

MEMA lang

So ayun nga, second night na akong nag-iisa sa bahay and it's now 4:45am in our clock. Since nag-iisa lang ako sa bahay, I have to make sure na vigilant ako lagi. Baka may pumasok bigla at *insert creepy or horrible situation here*. I know that Lola's really worried kasi ngayon lang ako naiwang mag-isa sa apartment lalo na't for 2 weeks.

And to keep me awake, nagbo-browse na lang ako ng old pics sa Facebook ko and nakikipagdaldalan na rin sa Twitter. And for tonight, si Kuya Mosh O. yung kakwentuhan at kakulitan ko. HIHI, crush ko yun eh, di lang pahalata, kunwari kumu-Kuya :)) He's really mabait, makulit and a man with a substance. Pwede ko na bang sabihin na kagaya ni Kuya Mosh ang ideal man ko? LOL again. :))) And while tweeting, nakikinig naman ako sa favorite late night-slash-early morning radio show ko, The Morning After sa RX 93.1. Cool sya kasi they're playing cool songs and halos lahat eh bago. So medyo updated na rin ako sa mga new songs ko. Last week, nakinig din ako dito and fun sya. DJ Alven is the man! Kanina, twice nabasa yung post ko, yung sa Facebook and sa Twitter. Binati pa yung Advo (ewan ko lang kung may taga-Advo pa na gising nun) :) Last week, binasa rin yung post ko. hihi. Nakakatuwa lang yung pagkakabasa ng name ko kanina, kung last week eh Lheajane Socrateees (slang syempre), kanina eh Lheajane Socrates (Soh-khreeyhts) :)))) COOL! Tapos kaloka pa yung @tweetnirizal, ni-like ko lang yung isang tweet nya na nakita ko lang sa news feed tapos nagtweet ssakin ng quote ni Socrates. HAHA. Define my night: COOL. :D

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Kahapon, napaka-pasaway ko lang. Pinapapunta ako ni Cindy ng 2pm, nagreply ako, then nakatulog ulit and dumating ng FEU ng 5:30 pm. HAHA. Ako na late diba? tapos nung pauwi, nagke-crave ako sa SISIG. :)))) Naglilihi teh?


Any, ilang araw pa akong magtitiis ng ganito. Later, pupunta ako kina Tita para bumisita :) KGOPUSH!

Backpacking with Ate Reich

Last Saturday, Ate Reich and I went to Tagaytay just to escape the city and to have fun :) We met at Recto Station as early as 8am and rode a bus to Tagaytay in Lawton. We kept on talking and sharing stories until I fell asleep (di ko tuloy nakita yung Imus :P) We arrived in Tagaytay past 10am, the bus dropped off passengers at Olivarez and rode a jeepney to Picnic Grove.

Since I was really hungry that I had headache already, we had our early lunch at a nearby resto. Then went straight to Picnic Grove and took lots of pictures. I missed that place and still reminds me of our roadtrip with Mommy, my cousins and most especially Nanay. We didn't tried zipline yet we walked around and explored the place. After that, we went to People's park in the Sky. Actually I've already been there before that's why I know the place. It was really cold while on the way yet it's cool since you gotta experience the breeze of the wind and made my hair messy. It was the highest part of Tagaytay so we've seen some fogs and enjoyed the cold air in spite of wearing summer attire (knitted sando and shorts), good thing I brought my favorite jacket with me. Going up to the park was a bit tiring and it took us almost 7 minutes to be up there, while going down took us only 4 minutes or less.We had an ample time there to sit down, relax, and continue all the talking. Seeing and feeling (yes! we felt the fogs' coolness with our flesh) the fogs was quite fun. And I was like a 5-year old kid saying "foooooooogs!" :)))) And the place down the PPS was really cool. It will remind you of Forks (Twilight) because of those trees which are similar of that of the film. Since mommy is planning to visit Tagaytay Highlands on June, probably we'll drop by the area, YEAY!

After People's park, we decided to go to Tierra de Maria Shrine in front Developmental Academy of the Philippines. It's a sacred place where you'll see a 50-feet tall statue of Our Lady of Manaoag. People from different places go there and pray for their adorations or wishes. Some things had changed in the place since I last June 2010. Ate and I bought rings with the crucifix in it. Unluckily, the ring that I was able to buy only fitted in my pinkie finger :)) Since we're hungry again, we went to Starbucks near Silang crossing and a beautiful view welcomed us again. It was a lot better if you want to see the volcano closer. The area was as cold as the PPS. To be able to have a better thermoregulation in our body, we had coffee and some bread to feed us. I had signature hot chocolate and my ever-favorite cinnamon swirl while looking at the beautiful scenic view. How I wish I could go  near the volcano's crater. I've been interested in geology since I was young. Well, I cant deny that since I have those set of books bought by my mom when I was only a year old then, kept by Nanay and Lola til 4 and discovered those treasures (I mean books) by myself (pakialamera :P). I spent my time lying on my bed with closed door and silence all over then concentrated with my reading. So when Ate and I talked about those stuff, and our geeky selves were unleashed :))

After we ate, we took some pictures and also roamed the place. Then we sneaked in a nearby family resto just to have those photo opts with the place. HAHA. The place was cool and relaxing and there came the fog again so it's cold again. Then, we waited for a bus at 6pm and we're back in Manila by 9pm. And I was sleeping all throughout the trip and Ate Reich, as always, was vigilant and widely awake :))

That was my first time to have a roadtrip by means of commuting. We really had fun :)

Enjoy!

in front of Picnic Grove

with Ate Reich

People's Park in the Sky

the breath-taking shot!

And Ate hugs Spongebob's haven

At Tierra de Maria

Taal's view at Starbucks Tagaytay. Much closer than PG

Very Glee?

Outside Starbucks Tagaytay. Much better picture with the volcano

At Leslie's resto :)