http://www.candymag.com/all-access/here-s-to-all-the-girls-who-had-the-courage-to-say-how-they-really-feel-a201-20170220
This article brought me back to that day that I confessed to my guy friend. It wasn't "love" that I confessed but rather my "liking" for him and for being true to myself. Bruh, it wasn't easy. My confession took a lot of time of thinking when to confess, how, where, and if he already knows that I like him or not. It wasn't peer pressure, but letting off some emotional pressure on myself before I embark to a journey towards my dream. I humbly received the rejection and I'm happy that I got my message clear accross.
Looking back, I did regretted a bit and thought of what ifs. But now, I dont regret my choice and the confession I made is considered as my personal badge for being BRAVE. Even if I confessed or not, we will surely grow apart due to time and space (location?) but the friendship and the times spent with each other will always be a valuable part of our lives.
I'm happy that I made a bold move at a young age but mature enough to let that season pass me by. A month to go and it's already been four years since I've done it. Ah, the good times, I guess :)
Showing posts with label fourth year. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fourth year. Show all posts
Monday, February 20, 2017
Friday, October 11, 2013
Looking back and forth
Another night of reminiscing past memories. :D
Actually, nagsimula lang to nung nahanap ko yung 2011 planner and memo block ko. Tawang-tawa ako sa mga nasulat ko dun. Di ko maimagine yung mga iniisip ko nun. Parang desidido na ko mag-jowa nun ha! (Good thing di ko pinush! Di ko maimagine buhay ko ngayon kung nagka-jowa ako! My goodness!)
After that, nakita ko naman sa drawer ko yung Nokia expressmusic phone ko. The last time na ginamit ko yun eh nung March pa (nung ninakaw yung BB Curve ko). Pero matagal-tagal ko ring ginamit yung Nokia ko nung 4th yr. From July to December ko ginamit yung Nokia phone ko alongside my BB Curve (na Smart yung sim).
Since gumana na yung phone ko, naisipan kong magbasa ng texts. Well, di ko na naisipang basahin yung 2011 texts ko bilang walang kwenta lang naman yung mga naiwang texts dun, puro si Joshua lang :D Nung sa 2012 naman, puro haggard days ko, tapos mga GM ng Mayor namin, plus editors and Sporthos na puro tungkol sa covers. Sa lahat ng texts na nandun, andami kong tawa sa mga chikahan namin ni JH lalo na yung usapang PBA at Chris Tiu. Kainis, kinokontra ako sa pagfa-fangirl ko kay Chris (pati kay Terrence!). Haha. Pero mas madalas pala naming pagkwentuhan nun yung acads. Hoho. Acads forevs!
Feeling ko tuloy ang petiks nung buhay ko noong fourth year, kasi kahit na stressed ako, parang hindi ako nagre-reklamo. Actually, tuwang-tuwa pa ko nagkkwento about sa duty ko na nagpa-anak ako. HAHAHA. Isipin mo, yung katext ko eh matutulog na, ako eh nagsisimula pa lang araw ko (bilang graveyard duty ako). Tapos sa umaga pag-uwi ko, magkkwento ako about sa duty, yung kausap ko naman papasok na ng school. :D
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Habang nanunuod ako ng TV kanina, sabi nila eh 20,000 words yung average na sinasabi ng mga babae. Kung sa iba eh 20K, kamusta naman kaya sakin? Tapos naging aware tuloy ako sa words na sinasabi ko. Since ilang araw na akong walang kausap sa bahay, ilang words lang kaya nasasabi ko? HAHAHA. Sa araw na to, i dont think kung naka-1000 words ako. :D
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Point blank
(another random post with a very nonsense title)
Since I was looking for some photos I missed to upload last time, I decided to check all folders in my hard drive. But at one point, I came across a picture taken with a friend last year. After I was fascinated how healthy I looked like a year ago, it was then I realized that it was a rare photo I had with that person. After staring at it by more than 5 seconds, I abruptly said to myself, "Bagay nga pala talaga kami." Hahahaha.
Well, that person was frequently mentioned here in my blog, just check for my tags. Hoho. Any, I admit that we look good together (yeah, we look good together because we have the same height and almost close skin complexion) but we're really friends. Actually, baka friends to the superlative form pa yata dapat, mga more than friends, ganun. :D
Hahaha, okaay, I know it's really a very lame realization or whatever. But everything that I saw in my hard drive really put a smile on my face. Gahd, time runs so fast. And at least, I had some photos when I still look healthy, blooming, haggard, sleepless, etc. :D
Okay, good night :D
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tapatan 2013
And I'm going to tell him that I like him.
There's no turning back, I need to do it now. At first, I have no plans of telling him about it. But there's an internal struggle that I must release. Any, I wouldn't ask him anything, I'll just tell him that I like him. That's all.
Ever since, I never asked someone to like me back. I think it's pathetic and not nice to look at. Well, might be a case-to-case basis. Last October, I was able to settle my issues with Joshua, umm, as well as his issues too. I told him that I really like him, but I want to get rid of it because I want to move on. But one of the reasons why I'm still stucked because I still have a lot of unanswered questions. After our serious talk, I finally understood everything. And just like old friends, we tease each other about our craziness. That's it, no dramas and all chuchus.
This time, it'll be different. I'll be confronting someone whom I consider as one of my closest guy friends in college. My partner-in-cover, my instant companion, and an elder brother that I consult with some serious matters. This second sem, I always think twice whether to tell him about it or not. But whenever my friends teases me, I feel like he already knows about it, and he did! I always prayed that he wont act awkward whenever Im around because it'll definitely hard for me to approach him. Knowing that our sections are tag-teams, we will surely be inseparable during our covers. But few months ago, I started to act strangely whenever he's around. Like when he enters or exits the office, I try not to look or notice him. And I rarely talk to him whenever we're inside the office. IDK, maybe my hormones are just acting up. Lately, aside from acting strange, I felt something gushing in my blood. Some kind of energy, neurons, or whatever you call it that makes me feel,.... jealous. HAHAHA, you read it right! I know it's really bad, but that's what I feel. I dont tell anyone about it, and I always try to swallow it up, and ignore it as much as I can. HAHAHAHA. Braaaave! LOL
Moving on, I'll just tell about it then.... ding! Okey, move on! hahahaha
There's no turning back, I need to do it now. At first, I have no plans of telling him about it. But there's an internal struggle that I must release. Any, I wouldn't ask him anything, I'll just tell him that I like him. That's all.
Ever since, I never asked someone to like me back. I think it's pathetic and not nice to look at. Well, might be a case-to-case basis. Last October, I was able to settle my issues with Joshua, umm, as well as his issues too. I told him that I really like him, but I want to get rid of it because I want to move on. But one of the reasons why I'm still stucked because I still have a lot of unanswered questions. After our serious talk, I finally understood everything. And just like old friends, we tease each other about our craziness. That's it, no dramas and all chuchus.
This time, it'll be different. I'll be confronting someone whom I consider as one of my closest guy friends in college. My partner-in-cover, my instant companion, and an elder brother that I consult with some serious matters. This second sem, I always think twice whether to tell him about it or not. But whenever my friends teases me, I feel like he already knows about it, and he did! I always prayed that he wont act awkward whenever Im around because it'll definitely hard for me to approach him. Knowing that our sections are tag-teams, we will surely be inseparable during our covers. But few months ago, I started to act strangely whenever he's around. Like when he enters or exits the office, I try not to look or notice him. And I rarely talk to him whenever we're inside the office. IDK, maybe my hormones are just acting up. Lately, aside from acting strange, I felt something gushing in my blood. Some kind of energy, neurons, or whatever you call it that makes me feel,.... jealous. HAHAHA, you read it right! I know it's really bad, but that's what I feel. I dont tell anyone about it, and I always try to swallow it up, and ignore it as much as I can. HAHAHAHA. Braaaave! LOL
Moving on, I'll just tell about it then.... ding! Okey, move on! hahahaha
Monday, January 7, 2013
#ICAPSLOCKMOPARAINTENSE
These past few days, di ko maintindihan sarili ko. Ewan ko ba kung anong nangyayari sakin? Signs of aging na ba to or what?
Earlier, asa duty ako sa QI. I seem so okay naman pero nung dumating ako ng FEU, I don't know what happened. Bigla na lang akong nagbehave na parang wala sa sarili, KJ. 6pm ako dumating sa school tapos mga 6:20 lumabas ako sa EB pav at natulog. Sakto nagising ako eh 7:30 na then bumalik nung andun na si Janice. Asa office nun ang Sports (cindy, rogie, rj), Photos (armen, marione), EB (jerome, etc). Low-pitched pa naman boses ko kanina tapos sabay sabi na "Tara, uwi na tayo (Janice). Mata-traffic pa tayo" sabay labas. So nagmukhang nag-walk out ako, na kung ide-describe ni Jerome ay "storm-out exit." Actually I don't mean to do that "storm-out exit" thing, kaso feeling ko I'm in an awkward situation na di ko maintindihan. Since asa labas na ko, diretso CR na lang ako nun. And napagtanto ko na ang bobey ko for leaving the office like that. Ano na naman ba pumasok sa utak ko? Kumu-quota na ko sa pagiging bobey. Bumalik lang ako ng FEU para may makasamang mag-milk tea sa Moonleaf. Tapos nung inaaya na ako ni Don, ayoko pang sumama. "What's going on, Lhea?" tanong ni Facebook. Nung pauwi na, ganun pa rin ako, walang pagbabago.
pagdating ng apartment, napahiga na lang ako. Super blanko utak ko. Ewan ko ba? Napa-facebook na lang ako sabay nood ng 2012. I even texted Joshua pa pala, telling that I'm not okay (well, as if he really cares, or wala na namang load since single na naman ang lalaki). Si Jerome lang talaga yung naglakas-loob na nagtanong sakin tungkol dun sa ganap ko kanina. Hayy. I even shared some hints in Twitter that Im not okay. Minsan kasi pag nasanay na yung ibang tao na lagi kang okay, di na rin nila namamalayan kung kelan ka hindi. It happens to me all the time. Sometimes I really hate people na nandadamay ng kabadtripan nila sa mga taong walang alam. Well in my case, I'm having this internal struggles that i cant even explain.
Super pili lang ata mga nakausap ko ng medyo matino tonight. Yung iba, one-liner reply lang, yung iba trip ko lang replyan, may mga importante lang talaga, etc. Nagtext si JH dahil dun sa 2012 at resmet nya, na nireplyan ko lang ng isang nursing-related thing, si Ate Chin na iniisip na baka hormonal imbalance lang ang ganap ko, at si tito June Ace na gusto kong makausap kasi andami ko ng utang sa kanya :)))
May mga bagay pa akong ayaw ko pang i-share dito kasi baka matingnang rason kung bakit ako nagkakaganito (which is, di ko alam kung related ba o hindi).
Hayy, sana hormonal imbalance lang to, sana normal lang to. Siguro stress lang o kung ano pa man. hayy.
Earlier, asa duty ako sa QI. I seem so okay naman pero nung dumating ako ng FEU, I don't know what happened. Bigla na lang akong nagbehave na parang wala sa sarili, KJ. 6pm ako dumating sa school tapos mga 6:20 lumabas ako sa EB pav at natulog. Sakto nagising ako eh 7:30 na then bumalik nung andun na si Janice. Asa office nun ang Sports (cindy, rogie, rj), Photos (armen, marione), EB (jerome, etc). Low-pitched pa naman boses ko kanina tapos sabay sabi na "Tara, uwi na tayo (Janice). Mata-traffic pa tayo" sabay labas. So nagmukhang nag-walk out ako, na kung ide-describe ni Jerome ay "storm-out exit." Actually I don't mean to do that "storm-out exit" thing, kaso feeling ko I'm in an awkward situation na di ko maintindihan. Since asa labas na ko, diretso CR na lang ako nun. And napagtanto ko na ang bobey ko for leaving the office like that. Ano na naman ba pumasok sa utak ko? Kumu-quota na ko sa pagiging bobey. Bumalik lang ako ng FEU para may makasamang mag-milk tea sa Moonleaf. Tapos nung inaaya na ako ni Don, ayoko pang sumama. "What's going on, Lhea?" tanong ni Facebook. Nung pauwi na, ganun pa rin ako, walang pagbabago.
pagdating ng apartment, napahiga na lang ako. Super blanko utak ko. Ewan ko ba? Napa-facebook na lang ako sabay nood ng 2012. I even texted Joshua pa pala, telling that I'm not okay (well, as if he really cares, or wala na namang load since single na naman ang lalaki). Si Jerome lang talaga yung naglakas-loob na nagtanong sakin tungkol dun sa ganap ko kanina. Hayy. I even shared some hints in Twitter that Im not okay. Minsan kasi pag nasanay na yung ibang tao na lagi kang okay, di na rin nila namamalayan kung kelan ka hindi. It happens to me all the time. Sometimes I really hate people na nandadamay ng kabadtripan nila sa mga taong walang alam. Well in my case, I'm having this internal struggles that i cant even explain.
Super pili lang ata mga nakausap ko ng medyo matino tonight. Yung iba, one-liner reply lang, yung iba trip ko lang replyan, may mga importante lang talaga, etc. Nagtext si JH dahil dun sa 2012 at resmet nya, na nireplyan ko lang ng isang nursing-related thing, si Ate Chin na iniisip na baka hormonal imbalance lang ang ganap ko, at si tito June Ace na gusto kong makausap kasi andami ko ng utang sa kanya :)))
May mga bagay pa akong ayaw ko pang i-share dito kasi baka matingnang rason kung bakit ako nagkakaganito (which is, di ko alam kung related ba o hindi).
Hayy, sana hormonal imbalance lang to, sana normal lang to. Siguro stress lang o kung ano pa man. hayy.
Friday, January 4, 2013
When awkwardness strikes
Kung kelan matutulog na ko, dun na naman ako nagka-urge mag-blog. Anyway, fast post lang kasi ayokong ma-BV til tomorrow and I still have a lot of work to do.
I hate myself for having this awkward feeling sa taong super dalas ko kasama. Well, he already knows about "it", so since kanina yung 1st time na nagkita kami ngayong pasukan, nagaganap na naman yung peg ko nung November na "walang-pansinan-kasi-wala-naman-akong-sasabihin" or yung "so-ano-naman-kung-andyan-ka?-so-kelangan-may-sasabihin-ako?". Ayan na naman tayo sa pride or pagiging overthinker ko. HAHA, kaya natalo kami sa Advolympics kasi masyado kaming nag-iisip sa isang petty na bagay. Moving on, pinansin ko lang sya dun sa haircut nya (MADAYA!), tapos after nun, puro indirect convo na.
Feeling ko nagiging scripted na galaw ko. Im too conscious of my actions. Hello? may huhuli ba sakin kung tatawa ako ng malakas? Since di ko na rin gusto yung ganap eh kinausap ko na si Don at inaya ko sya sa quad. Isang factor kaya nagiging awkward ako ay dahil sa pang-aasar nung mga kasamahan ko. It's okay na magloko-loko pero wag naman yung andyan yung tao. Tama si Don na kapag over na, kelangan eh kausapin mo na yung taong concerned para matapos na. Im not comfortable anymore. And besides, since he knows about it, baka may maisip sya. Ugh, im overthinking again! Stop it Lhea.
Pwede pang lumala tong awkwardness sa loob ko since I wont be seen in action sa school for almost 5 days. Asa school lang ako every Wed (free day nya) and Thursday (6pm naman labas nya). So wala talaga akong oras to fix this awkwardness. Ayokong mauwi sa impaired friendship to, pero.... Ugh, ang hirap ikwento dito sa blog eh. BASTA!
I hate myself for having this awkward feeling sa taong super dalas ko kasama. Well, he already knows about "it", so since kanina yung 1st time na nagkita kami ngayong pasukan, nagaganap na naman yung peg ko nung November na "walang-pansinan-kasi-wala-naman-akong-sasabihin" or yung "so-ano-naman-kung-andyan-ka?-so-kelangan-may-sasabihin-ako?". Ayan na naman tayo sa pride or pagiging overthinker ko. HAHA, kaya natalo kami sa Advolympics kasi masyado kaming nag-iisip sa isang petty na bagay. Moving on, pinansin ko lang sya dun sa haircut nya (MADAYA!), tapos after nun, puro indirect convo na.
Feeling ko nagiging scripted na galaw ko. Im too conscious of my actions. Hello? may huhuli ba sakin kung tatawa ako ng malakas? Since di ko na rin gusto yung ganap eh kinausap ko na si Don at inaya ko sya sa quad. Isang factor kaya nagiging awkward ako ay dahil sa pang-aasar nung mga kasamahan ko. It's okay na magloko-loko pero wag naman yung andyan yung tao. Tama si Don na kapag over na, kelangan eh kausapin mo na yung taong concerned para matapos na. Im not comfortable anymore. And besides, since he knows about it, baka may maisip sya. Ugh, im overthinking again! Stop it Lhea.
Pwede pang lumala tong awkwardness sa loob ko since I wont be seen in action sa school for almost 5 days. Asa school lang ako every Wed (free day nya) and Thursday (6pm naman labas nya). So wala talaga akong oras to fix this awkwardness. Ayokong mauwi sa impaired friendship to, pero.... Ugh, ang hirap ikwento dito sa blog eh. BASTA!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Page 1 of 365 1/4 days
Lakas mang-inggit nung 2 classmates ko (well both close friends din), eh di sila na sweet. :P
Moving on, di pa ko makatulog sa sobrang busog. Well mabuti na to kesa last year. Last year, may trangkaso ako nung New Year's eve at di man lang ako kumain nung Media Noche. Ang malala, may sore throat pa ko. Watta loser. Andami kong namimiss actually eh, gaya nung pagpe-prepare namin ni nanay ng mga lulutuin pati na yung kukumpletuhin naming 13 fruits. Then pati na yung pagsisimba namin tapos bago yung damit ko, tsaka pag-uwi andaming handa. May mga family friends din kaming bumibisita and nakiki-Media Noche. Pati na rin yung pagtambay namin sa labas ng bahay and manunuod ng fireworks. Hay, nakakamiss lang. ;|
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Tik Tok
It's the last day of 2012 and feeling ko wala akong nagawang productive during the break. Tulog-kain-gala-internet lang ata ginawa ko. Ayun, I'm planning to make a year-end post kaso tinatamad pa ko and I can't organize my thoughts well. Medyo nakalimutan ko na rin yung mga ganap ng 1st half ng 2012.
May mga bagay na di nangyayari gaya ng inaasahan natin. May iba rin nana di mo aakalaing may ganung mangyayari pala. May mga taong darating at aalis din. Kung sakin lang, parang wala namang nangyaring super special ngayong 2012. Maliban na lang siguro dun sa mga near life and death na ganap ko sa buhay (di yung nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan ha!), pero habang nagsusulat ako at iniisa-isa yung mga alaala ko, andami ko rin palang natutunan, at nagawang kabulastugan. Ika nga nila, it's just a part of growing up.
Ang tanda ko na pala. Dati rati, di ko alam kung anong susunod sa 2009 (akala ko 20010, 20011), tapos di ko rin maimagine na college na ko. Feeling ko tuloy di ako nagmamature, isip bata pa rin ata ako. Lalo na kapag kasama ko mga HS classmates ko, feeling ko talaga di ako nag-iisa na na-stuck sa pagkabata.
Last week ko pa iniisip kung pano ko gagawin yung year-end keme ko, pati si JH eh naisipan ding gumawa ng ganun. Seryoso, walang kakwenta-kwenta na naman tong post ko na to. Basta may maipost lang ng December 31. Uhh, miss ko na sina Nanay and Lola. :(
May mga bagay na di nangyayari gaya ng inaasahan natin. May iba rin nana di mo aakalaing may ganung mangyayari pala. May mga taong darating at aalis din. Kung sakin lang, parang wala namang nangyaring super special ngayong 2012. Maliban na lang siguro dun sa mga near life and death na ganap ko sa buhay (di yung nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan ha!), pero habang nagsusulat ako at iniisa-isa yung mga alaala ko, andami ko rin palang natutunan, at nagawang kabulastugan. Ika nga nila, it's just a part of growing up.
Ang tanda ko na pala. Dati rati, di ko alam kung anong susunod sa 2009 (akala ko 20010, 20011), tapos di ko rin maimagine na college na ko. Feeling ko tuloy di ako nagmamature, isip bata pa rin ata ako. Lalo na kapag kasama ko mga HS classmates ko, feeling ko talaga di ako nag-iisa na na-stuck sa pagkabata.
Last week ko pa iniisip kung pano ko gagawin yung year-end keme ko, pati si JH eh naisipan ding gumawa ng ganun. Seryoso, walang kakwenta-kwenta na naman tong post ko na to. Basta may maipost lang ng December 31. Uhh, miss ko na sina Nanay and Lola. :(
Monday, December 24, 2012
Holiday rundown
Since isa akong napakalaking tamad, iso-sort ko nalang yung topics keme dito :))
Acads:
Seryoso, nakakapagod! Partida 1 month and 1/2 pa lang yan? Buti na lang may Christmas break! Sana may Valentines Day break din! :)
Advo Christmas Party:
Seryoso, sa byahe ako super napagod. Papunta and pauwi, grabe yung dinanas ko (exagge yung grabe ha!). Maria Clara-Morayta-Ortigas-Buendia-Pansol. tapos nagtext si Joshua na sa Morayta daw sya. Malas naman, nagkita pa sana kami. Kaso nakakainis, nagpapaload sakin? Wow, ano kami? Magjowa? Ngek! fast forward! Sa byahe, di ako ma-kalma kasi gagabihin na ako then wala pa akong nabibiling food. Good thing eh updated ako sa ganap ni JH kaya sya na lang inutusan ko. Tapos nung di sya makontak ng madla, ako pa tumatawag. Haynako, call center na akez. Super forward! Pagdating sa venue, medyo nahirapan ako mag-blend sa mga tao. Ewan ko ba? Since may nararamdaman ako sa katawan ko, hormonal imbalance to malamang. Buti na lang eh di ako nag-iisa sa pakiramdam na yun at nag-bonding kami ni Pinsan Marione sa rooftop. Pagbaba namin, wala ng food. Kdie. Halos di ako makasingit as videoke, pila-pila eh.
Tapos nung may inuman na, uminom na ko para lang may magawa ako sa buhay ko. Lame. Nung games na, ayun nagkandahilo-hilo ako. Tapos may games din samin na outgoing na super tagal kaya inabot kami ng madaling araw. Tss. So ayun nga, nag-swimming na lang ako after with Cindy and Sports tapos may pare-pare session na naman dun sa gilid pero di na ko sumali. Grabe, para akong biik na hinahatak papunta dun kaso ayoko. Hello? Tinatanong pa ba yun? Ayoko sumali kasi andun si JH. Eh baka sabunin ako. Pag minamalas ka nga nman, ako pa unang challenge. Iki-kiss daw ako ni JH. SERYOSO KAYO? Eh syempre conservative ako kaya ayoko. Eh pano kung na-push yun? Jusko, baka nilunod ko na sarili ko on the spot. Pinuntahan pa nya ako sa kinauupuan ko ha. He knows me very well, syempre bilang andami ko na naikwento sa kanya. Kaya nung sinabi ko na "No, JH. You know me", di na nya tinuloy. Pero seryoso number2, iba yung tono ng pagkakasabi nya ng "game".
Juskupo! Moving on, tinanong ako ni Cindy kung okey lang ako. Well, wala naman akong problema, sanay na ko pag may kalokohan ang barkada kaya napagpapasensyahan. Pero si JH syempre iniisip ko kaya kinausap ko sya. Chill lang naman na usapan, tropa-tropa. Di nga lang napatagal kasi kinorner sya ni Cielo at hanggang nag-inuman na sila hanggang umaga. Samantalang ako, bantay sarado ni Cindy. HAHA. Syempre 19 pa lang ako tapos 21 na sya, halos papasa na syang guardian maliban sa editor ko :))
Nung umaga na, certified bangenge na sya. HAHA. Ume-english na eh tapos iba-iba na facial expressions nya. Nakakatuwa lang. Haha. Naloka ako nung sinabi nya na "Lhea, kakanta pa tayo ng boyband!". naalala pa nya yun? Eh tagal na namin napag-usapan yun ha. Tapos meron pang "Kita mo, kahit lasing na ko nakakanta ko pa yan ng maayos", "Ngayon lang ako nalasing ulit after 1st year", "Aware pa naman ako sa mga ginagawa ko", "Masaya naman. Bawal ba maging masaya?" :)
Nag-split na kami nung maliligo na sya at maliligo na rin ako. After nun, dumiretso ako sa kubo para manuod ng Inuyasha tapos nakatulog ako habang nakasandal si pinsan Marione. Nung nagising ako, andun na si Cindy then lumipat na ko sa girls room with pamangkin Aaron. Paggising ko, exchange gift na! Eh naiwan ko pala yung regalo ko kay Marione! FAIL! :P Binigay ko na rin gift ko kay Cindy and Sports boys. Umakyat kaming lahat sa rooftop then picture na with the whole advo. 30 pala kami eksakto! Nung medyo nagkakagulo ang people, binigay ko na yung gift. Ayun, masaya naman sya. tapos may picture pa kami na parang bigayan lang ng diploma! HAHAHA.
Nung umalis na yung 1st batch, tumambay muna ako sa may billiards (2nd floor) then nag-videoke with Buts and Jerome. Nung huli, magka-duet na kami ni JH plus rap session pa. Moving on, umuwi na yung 2nd batch then gumala pa kami ng calamba. As usual, kami na naman magkasama. then picture picture dun sa bantayog ni Rizal then SM Calamba. Dami na naman naming napag-usapan pati na mga cake. Since matagal ang food sa chowking, pumila kami para sa cake. Tapos nung pauwi, hinatid nya kami sa sakayan ng bus. Then 2 hours byahe namin. Nakatulog na ko ha, tapos nagising ako, Makati na. tapos nag-jeep pa kami ni rogie. KFINE.
Christmas Shopping
Anlaki ng gastos ko SWEAR! Aabot ata sa 5K. Tepok ako neto. Kaya namumuhay ako ng tipid after christmas. HAHA
Christmas Gala.
Ilang beses na rin ako gumala. Una with Ate Reich, Don, Janice then Bro Franz. Di na ko napagod eh no.
Advices.
Puro love lang naman inaadvice sakin eh. Isa raw akong napakalaking bobo. Sabi nga ni Catherine "matalino ka nga sa academics, bobo ka naman sa love". HAHAHA. Thank you friends! :P Since super vinavalue ko ang sinasabi ng ibang tao, parang gusto ko na gumawa ng aklat. HAHA. Syempre iba pa rin pag may advices. Mahirap maging impulsive, dapat pinag-iisipan lahat ng bagay.
Reminiscing Christmas with Lola and Nanay.
Miss ko na sila. Miss ko na yung simpleng Nochue Buena namin. Magsisimba, tapos uuwi ng bahay na may pancit, sinakol, suman and cake. tapos anlamig pa ng simoy ng hangin. Aww. naiiyak ako. Di na mauulit yun kahit kelan. Naiinggit ako sa mga bata na kasama pa nila nanay nila, sana i-treasure nila yung mga moments na magkakasama sila kasi di mo alam kung hanggang kelan kayo magkasama. Partida super tinreasure ko moments namin pero ang hirap pa rin pala.
OC attack.
Since 2 na lang kami ni Ate, malinis na ang bahay. Yuhooo! :D
Katamaran
Di ako pumunta kina Tita Flor. Tinamad ako eh!
----Di man lang pala ako nakapagsimba -_____-
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Go for it
"Go for it" na siguro ang pinaka-overused na sinasabi sakin ng mga friends ko. Well, pagdating sa lovelife ang kaso.
So this blog knows everything when it comes to my love-este-crush life. Yeah, I actually like someone from my org, and you guys already know who he is. We're actually close buds and we share each others' secrets and other stuffs.
Recently, he posted a status in his Facebook "chemical engineering board exam results <3". So, without any malice, I immediately liked it (though he posted it 9 mins ago before I cliked the "like" button, and no one has yet liked it). Then after few minutes, he deleted it. And by that action, I pondered why he erased it. The next day, yun na lang ang iniisip ko. Andami kong naisip, super dami like.... ah basta, akin na lang yun. I even asked my groupmates about his action and they gave me a lot of scenarios. HAY.
Nung hapon, I was shocked na magccover din pala sya ng Track and Field (na iccover ko rin!). Pagdating dun, I had a chance to ask him about that, pero pa-joke naman. Ang hirap kasi ikwento dito. Pero ayun, he just laughed na parang wala lang. Well, gaya nga ng sabi ni Chelsea, "baka dahil sa may pinagsamahan sila". May ugali kasi ako na pag may sasabihin ako, pinapahulaan ko pa sa kanya. Ang gulo diba? Example: May sasabihin ako sayo. Hulaan mo :) Parang ganun. Kasi kilala naman din nya ako eh. Nung mga nakaraan nga eh, halos wala na akong ikkwento kasi alam na nya. Haha, galing!
Seriously, selosa po ako. HAHAHAHA. Di halata. Kung pwede nga lang bakuran sya, gagawin ko na. Lol. Ang hirap pala pag friend mo yung gusto mo. Oh well, mas nauna ko sya maging crush kesa maging friend. Kaso after team building, mas nanaig yung friendship. Ngayon kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. Pag nagka-gf sya, pwede na mag Dec.21 anytime, handa na ako! LOL.
I know na focus muna sya sa studies nya, and Im happy to hear that. Haha, may sinabi pa sya kaso di pwede i-share. Char. Sorry for acting this way, ganito lang siguro yung feeling ng ga-graduate na tapos wala pang ganap sa lovelife mula pumasok ng FEU. Feeling ko parang end of the world na, NBSB pa rin ako. Pressure ba? LOL.
Lately, nagiging conscious na ako sa mga galaw ko, though gusto kong maging natural lang kasi awkward din yun sa parte ko. Una, isa akong napaka-annoying na tao, madaldal na, maingay pa, tapos magulo at makulit din. Sinong hindi maiinis at maiirita sakin. Minsan kasi ayoko ng taong naka-simangot at tahimik. Feeling ko mahahawa ako sa pagiging lowbat nilang tao. Like yesterday, dumating ako sa venue na tahimik sya tapos nakatingin lang sa kawalan. So ayun, kinukulit ko sya. Ganun lang.
Tsaka ramdam ko, there's something wrong with me. Yung mga galaw ko kasi, lakas makapang-friendzone. yung friendzone na ako yung nangfi-friendzone at ako yung nafi-friendzone kasi very tropa ako gumalaw. parang ganun. Di rin kasi ako malambing eh. Kay Nanay at Lola lang ako ganun. Sa iba, hindi na. :D Siguro, yung masasabi kong lambing eh yung akbay, sandal ulo, tsaka pag-aayos ng bangs nya. HAHAHA. ganun lang. Di rin kasi ako cuddly na tao. Di ako mahilig mang-hug tapos di rin ako malambing magsalita, uhh, minsan malambing din. Depende sa sitwasyon. :)
Ang hirap kasi kumempet sa taong di marunong magreciprocate sayo. Sabi ng mga groupmates ko, kemehin (landiin) ko raw. Eh pasensya kayo day, di ako marunong gumanun. HAHA. Well, poor me ba? Lol. Di kaya. Babaeng torpe po ako gaya ng sinasabi ni Donabels (Don Carlo). HAHAHAHA. Eh ito namang lolo nyo, di ata marunong kumempet! Aba, nagsama na kami. Buti pa malalandi, nakakakahanap ng kasing lalandi nila o naaattract sa malalandi. Eh ako naman ayoko sa mga malalandi eh. :D Moving on, di ko alam kung manhid ba sya o hindi. Well, baka yung friendship namin yung mga-hold back sa kanya. Eh tropa nga kasi kami eh.
Yung iba kong friends, iba naman din advice nila, like "I-feel mo lang muna ang mga moment nyo na ganyan", "Di pa nya alam kung ano gusto nya", "baka di nyo pa time ngayon", "Darating din kayo dyan, hintayin mo lang". Ang tanong, kelan pa? pag gumraduate na ako? Wow, do I sound like desperada sa lovelife? Di naman uy! grabe kayo ha. Ganito lang kasi yung feeling ng magkakahiwalay na kayo ng tao, ilang months na lang eh. Mamimiss ko yung mga times na nagccover kami ng magkasama, magdi-dinner ng magkasabay, chismisan sa byahe, magkasamang naglalakad, magme-merienda sa hepalane or tayuman, magpapasama sa bookstore o sa pag-iikot ng campus. hay, ramdam ko na yung feeling ni Dairen dati.
Basta! Come what may. bahala na si batman! :D
So this blog knows everything when it comes to my love-este-crush life. Yeah, I actually like someone from my org, and you guys already know who he is. We're actually close buds and we share each others' secrets and other stuffs.
Recently, he posted a status in his Facebook "chemical engineering board exam results <3". So, without any malice, I immediately liked it (though he posted it 9 mins ago before I cliked the "like" button, and no one has yet liked it). Then after few minutes, he deleted it. And by that action, I pondered why he erased it. The next day, yun na lang ang iniisip ko. Andami kong naisip, super dami like.... ah basta, akin na lang yun. I even asked my groupmates about his action and they gave me a lot of scenarios. HAY.
Nung hapon, I was shocked na magccover din pala sya ng Track and Field (na iccover ko rin!). Pagdating dun, I had a chance to ask him about that, pero pa-joke naman. Ang hirap kasi ikwento dito. Pero ayun, he just laughed na parang wala lang. Well, gaya nga ng sabi ni Chelsea, "baka dahil sa may pinagsamahan sila". May ugali kasi ako na pag may sasabihin ako, pinapahulaan ko pa sa kanya. Ang gulo diba? Example: May sasabihin ako sayo. Hulaan mo :) Parang ganun. Kasi kilala naman din nya ako eh. Nung mga nakaraan nga eh, halos wala na akong ikkwento kasi alam na nya. Haha, galing!
Seriously, selosa po ako. HAHAHAHA. Di halata. Kung pwede nga lang bakuran sya, gagawin ko na. Lol. Ang hirap pala pag friend mo yung gusto mo. Oh well, mas nauna ko sya maging crush kesa maging friend. Kaso after team building, mas nanaig yung friendship. Ngayon kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. Pag nagka-gf sya, pwede na mag Dec.21 anytime, handa na ako! LOL.
I know na focus muna sya sa studies nya, and Im happy to hear that. Haha, may sinabi pa sya kaso di pwede i-share. Char. Sorry for acting this way, ganito lang siguro yung feeling ng ga-graduate na tapos wala pang ganap sa lovelife mula pumasok ng FEU. Feeling ko parang end of the world na, NBSB pa rin ako. Pressure ba? LOL.
Lately, nagiging conscious na ako sa mga galaw ko, though gusto kong maging natural lang kasi awkward din yun sa parte ko. Una, isa akong napaka-annoying na tao, madaldal na, maingay pa, tapos magulo at makulit din. Sinong hindi maiinis at maiirita sakin. Minsan kasi ayoko ng taong naka-simangot at tahimik. Feeling ko mahahawa ako sa pagiging lowbat nilang tao. Like yesterday, dumating ako sa venue na tahimik sya tapos nakatingin lang sa kawalan. So ayun, kinukulit ko sya. Ganun lang.
Tsaka ramdam ko, there's something wrong with me. Yung mga galaw ko kasi, lakas makapang-friendzone. yung friendzone na ako yung nangfi-friendzone at ako yung nafi-friendzone kasi very tropa ako gumalaw. parang ganun. Di rin kasi ako malambing eh. Kay Nanay at Lola lang ako ganun. Sa iba, hindi na. :D Siguro, yung masasabi kong lambing eh yung akbay, sandal ulo, tsaka pag-aayos ng bangs nya. HAHAHA. ganun lang. Di rin kasi ako cuddly na tao. Di ako mahilig mang-hug tapos di rin ako malambing magsalita, uhh, minsan malambing din. Depende sa sitwasyon. :)
Ang hirap kasi kumempet sa taong di marunong magreciprocate sayo. Sabi ng mga groupmates ko, kemehin (landiin) ko raw. Eh pasensya kayo day, di ako marunong gumanun. HAHA. Well, poor me ba? Lol. Di kaya. Babaeng torpe po ako gaya ng sinasabi ni Donabels (Don Carlo). HAHAHAHA. Eh ito namang lolo nyo, di ata marunong kumempet! Aba, nagsama na kami. Buti pa malalandi, nakakakahanap ng kasing lalandi nila o naaattract sa malalandi. Eh ako naman ayoko sa mga malalandi eh. :D Moving on, di ko alam kung manhid ba sya o hindi. Well, baka yung friendship namin yung mga-hold back sa kanya. Eh tropa nga kasi kami eh.
Yung iba kong friends, iba naman din advice nila, like "I-feel mo lang muna ang mga moment nyo na ganyan", "Di pa nya alam kung ano gusto nya", "baka di nyo pa time ngayon", "Darating din kayo dyan, hintayin mo lang". Ang tanong, kelan pa? pag gumraduate na ako? Wow, do I sound like desperada sa lovelife? Di naman uy! grabe kayo ha. Ganito lang kasi yung feeling ng magkakahiwalay na kayo ng tao, ilang months na lang eh. Mamimiss ko yung mga times na nagccover kami ng magkasama, magdi-dinner ng magkasabay, chismisan sa byahe, magkasamang naglalakad, magme-merienda sa hepalane or tayuman, magpapasama sa bookstore o sa pag-iikot ng campus. hay, ramdam ko na yung feeling ni Dairen dati.
Basta! Come what may. bahala na si batman! :D
Saturday, December 1, 2012
NBSB talks :)
Last night, I was with Dairen, Beatty and Don. Yeah, the so-called NBSB bonding. I really enjoy the company of my fellow NBSB since they usually share their not-so-good experiences with their keme. And as the one who's next in line (ahem, soon to be alum), they also see themselves in me. HAHA. Mega relate?
When it comes to Beatty and Dairen, they have a contrasting personalities. Beatty: fierce artist. Dairen: soft-spoken writer. Beatty always tell me to do like this and like that. Something different. Nuff said. While Dairen will just give you some advices that is different from Beatty. Basta, ganun yun!
Since I got to bond with Beatty once every week, last night was the time to share some of my "keme stories" with Dairen. She knows who's the person concerned. Ayun, I learned a lot from her past experiences. Of course relate ako kasi nga NBSB kami. But Im happy that I got to listen from their stories. Sabi nga ni Dairen "I dont want you to learn the hard way". :3
Tapos ako naman, andami kong kwento kay Sib Dairen about kay JH. Well, iba naman din kasi talaga kami nina Sib and her keme. Tropang-tropa lang talaga kami ni Ji Hoo. Kaya may malisya kasi gusto ko sya, and madalas kami magkasama (pero pag kami ni Don magkasama, super waley! HAHA). Sabi nga ni Sib "kaya kayo laging magkasama or nagkkwento sya kasi comfortable na sya sayo" (which I think is soo true). Yes, we talk about our past kemes and related stuffs, pero kwentuhang just for fun and entertainment lang. Ako lang kasi talaga may hanash magkwento haluan mo pa ng nursing brutality and jargons ko :)
JH: Hoping ka pa ba?
Me; Noooo. Paki-stab to death nga yung bwisit na yun sa Tuesday!
Another quotable quote from Dairen. "Sabi ko kay June Ace, ieeenjoy ko na lang to kasi graduating na ako. kaso ayun..."
HAHAHA. Since malapit na ako sa finish line, i was thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay JH na bet ko sya o hindi? Well, sabi nung ibang friends ko, alam na raw nya (feel lang nila). Eh baka kasi mas tumagilid pa pag nagsalita ako. I'll just let destiny do its magic. tsaka ayoko paka-stress, ineenjoy ko na lang tong last sem ko :) Gusto kong gawing memorable to :)
@Sib: Thanks sa pagpapatuloy sakin. Sorry di kita pinatulog sa sobrang daldal mo. Feeling ko talaga eh mababawasan na ang circle natin, marami ng nagmamahal. HAHAHA. Last man standing kaya ako sating lahat? Wag naman! :))
When it comes to Beatty and Dairen, they have a contrasting personalities. Beatty: fierce artist. Dairen: soft-spoken writer. Beatty always tell me to do like this and like that. Something different. Nuff said. While Dairen will just give you some advices that is different from Beatty. Basta, ganun yun!
Since I got to bond with Beatty once every week, last night was the time to share some of my "keme stories" with Dairen. She knows who's the person concerned. Ayun, I learned a lot from her past experiences. Of course relate ako kasi nga NBSB kami. But Im happy that I got to listen from their stories. Sabi nga ni Dairen "I dont want you to learn the hard way". :3
Tapos ako naman, andami kong kwento kay Sib Dairen about kay JH. Well, iba naman din kasi talaga kami nina Sib and her keme. Tropang-tropa lang talaga kami ni Ji Hoo. Kaya may malisya kasi gusto ko sya, and madalas kami magkasama (pero pag kami ni Don magkasama, super waley! HAHA). Sabi nga ni Sib "kaya kayo laging magkasama or nagkkwento sya kasi comfortable na sya sayo" (which I think is soo true). Yes, we talk about our past kemes and related stuffs, pero kwentuhang just for fun and entertainment lang. Ako lang kasi talaga may hanash magkwento haluan mo pa ng nursing brutality and jargons ko :)
JH: Hoping ka pa ba?
Me; Noooo. Paki-stab to death nga yung bwisit na yun sa Tuesday!
Another quotable quote from Dairen. "Sabi ko kay June Ace, ieeenjoy ko na lang to kasi graduating na ako. kaso ayun..."
HAHAHA. Since malapit na ako sa finish line, i was thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay JH na bet ko sya o hindi? Well, sabi nung ibang friends ko, alam na raw nya (feel lang nila). Eh baka kasi mas tumagilid pa pag nagsalita ako. I'll just let destiny do its magic. tsaka ayoko paka-stress, ineenjoy ko na lang tong last sem ko :) Gusto kong gawing memorable to :)
@Sib: Thanks sa pagpapatuloy sakin. Sorry di kita pinatulog sa sobrang daldal mo. Feeling ko talaga eh mababawasan na ang circle natin, marami ng nagmamahal. HAHAHA. Last man standing kaya ako sating lahat? Wag naman! :))
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Aside
This evening, nakumpleto ang "Don's Angels", with me, Yon, and Beatty. So usually pag magkakasama kami, puro asaran o lokohan lang. And this time, ako ang puntirya nila lalo na ni Beatty Lyn. HAHAHA
It started nung paalis na kami ng office para mag-merienda sa R. Papa. Sabi ni Beatty, mang-invite pa ako, so nang-invite naman ako ng mga iba pang friends namin. Eh syempre tropa, puro malisya na naman kina Yon and Beatty bilang nasa loob si JH at iniisip nila na sasama samin. Nung paalis na kami, lumabas si JH and nakisabay samin til LB. Magre-research pa raw sya sa library kaya separate yung ways namin.
Pagdating ng Hepalane, edi ako ang bida ng tuksuhan. The last time na nag-usap kami ni Beatty, sa Starbucks P.Noval pa.
Me: Beatty, I learned a lot from you since nung last tayo nagkita.
Beatty: eh ano ginagawa mo?
Me: Ayun, di ko pinapansin pag pumapasok ng office. Tapos di magpapansinan, hintayan kung sino unang magsasalita, then pag nagpasama sya/ako sa labas, dun pa kami magdadaldalan.
Beatty; Ba yan Lhea! Very wrong ka!
Me: 2 weeks ko na ginagawa yan eh.
B: Hello? Eh parang iniiwasan mo na yung tao eh! Di ko sinabing tuluy-tuloy, dapat paminsan-minsan lang. Kinareer mo naman?
M: oo, kinareer ko. Sabi mo kasi eh.
B: Hahaha, Nako Lhea wag ganyan, darating yung araw na di na talaga kayo mag-uusap.
M: Ay ganun ba? Aww, sige. Mali pala ako.
B: hay, nakikita ko talaga sarili ko sayo Lhea.
---Kitams, may coach ako o! :) HAHA. Kailangan sumunod sa nakakatanda :)) Ika nga ni Lola "Eksperyensyado na" :)
So, pagbalik ko ng office, di na ko nang-iisnob. Haha, di naman kasi snob yun, nagtitimpi lang ako na di sya pansinin, or di ako dapat ang maunang pumansin sa kanya. Pati si Beatty eh nakakahalata na di kami nagpapansinan.
Moving on, before uwian nagpicture-an kami sa bagong Pavilion. Yeay! Buti na lang maganda ang ilaw! :) Pansin ko yung mga the moves nina Don, Beatty, Yon. HAHAHA. Kayo talaga gumagawa ng paraan eh.
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Nung pag-uwi ko, nagka-text kami about long weekend and work. Nakakaloka lang kasi mas busy pa sya sakin! Hay, di ko tuloy alam kung mas toxic ang Fine Arts kesa sa Nursing.
Since thesis mode si JH ngayon, andami nyang dalang libro. Ayun, mga 1:30, nagtext sya na nakita raw nya ang Cuyo sa Phil. Tourism book na hiniram nya and ang ganda raw, sarap daw puntahan. HAHA, Kfine. Edi sama na lang sya pag umuwi ako after graduation nya (which is RN na ako nun in god's will!) tapos with Advo friends din. Naiimagine ko ang kaguluhan sa bahay--eh nagsama-sama mga taga Advo eh (Okey lang, ako lang naman ata magiging tao sa bahay pag-uwi ko ng province).
Okey, i need to sleep na! LONG WEEKEND! :))
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Of Milk Tea and Sisterly Bonding
And I declare Thursday morning as our official Milk Tea bonding time with Ate Rej. :))
Im a big fan of milk tea and frappe kaya madalas ako tumambay dito sa Moonleaf Tea Shop. Usually, Advo friends ko kasama ko, pero ngayon sinasama ko na rin mga groupmates ko :)
Since enjoy na enjoy namin ni Ate ang wifi dito, tahimik lang kaming dalawa and busy doing our own business. Me, busy with my paperworks, at sya, busy sa pag-iInstagram and paglalaro sa ipad nya. All of a sudden, biglang nagsalita si Ate.
Ate Rej: Lhea, kung magkakaboyfriend ka, mag-eenjoy ba kayo sa ganito lang? Yung magkasama kayo pero tahimik lang. Tapos pareho kayong may ginagawa sa lapto nyo.
Me: Umm, okey lang. Ayoko naman kasi ng madaldal na kasama minsan.
Ate Rej: Ay ako rin!
Me: Pero ate ha, napaisip ako dun! Parang gusto ko lang yung "Tara. Samahan mo ko" :D
Ate Rej: Ako rin eh, napaisip ako. Di ko maimagine na tahimik ka sa napaka-habang oras. Nakakapanibago yun!
Me: HAHAHA
Actually, kaya ako tahimik kasi kelangan kong tapusin ang article ko today. HAHA. Tsaka medyo masama rin pakiramdam ko. Oh well. :)
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Minsan talaga tahimik ako. Sa bahay lang yata ako ganito eh. :D
Im a big fan of milk tea and frappe kaya madalas ako tumambay dito sa Moonleaf Tea Shop. Usually, Advo friends ko kasama ko, pero ngayon sinasama ko na rin mga groupmates ko :)
Since enjoy na enjoy namin ni Ate ang wifi dito, tahimik lang kaming dalawa and busy doing our own business. Me, busy with my paperworks, at sya, busy sa pag-iInstagram and paglalaro sa ipad nya. All of a sudden, biglang nagsalita si Ate.
Ate Rej: Lhea, kung magkakaboyfriend ka, mag-eenjoy ba kayo sa ganito lang? Yung magkasama kayo pero tahimik lang. Tapos pareho kayong may ginagawa sa lapto nyo.
Me: Umm, okey lang. Ayoko naman kasi ng madaldal na kasama minsan.
Ate Rej: Ay ako rin!
Me: Pero ate ha, napaisip ako dun! Parang gusto ko lang yung "Tara. Samahan mo ko" :D
Ate Rej: Ako rin eh, napaisip ako. Di ko maimagine na tahimik ka sa napaka-habang oras. Nakakapanibago yun!
Me: HAHAHA
Actually, kaya ako tahimik kasi kelangan kong tapusin ang article ko today. HAHA. Tsaka medyo masama rin pakiramdam ko. Oh well. :)
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Minsan talaga tahimik ako. Sa bahay lang yata ako ganito eh. :D
Crumble
And at the middle of reviewing for my NCM quiz for tomorrow, I just felt the urge to burst what I feel here in my blog. Actually, Im having mood swings since monday night. Ugh, hormonal imbalance.
Last Monday, JH accompanied me to C and E to buy my NCLEX reviewer. The last time we went there was when we bought his History book. Since it was already 6:30pm and I still have my duty at 9pm, we had our dinner at KFC. It's just a normal dinner with a friend but what made that dinner awkward was the mirror in front of us! (KFINE, hirap na ko mag-english! lechugas naman.) And another thing is, magkatabi kami. Di kasi ako sanay na pag dalawa lang kami ng kahit sinong kasama ko eh tabi kami, sanay ako sa magkaharap lang. Then, pag nag-uusap kami, sa salamin na lang kami nakatingin. Medyo matagal-tagal din kasi bago nai-serve yung food kaya mahaba pa yung time namin mag-usap.
Recently, I noticed na di kami magka-chika ng madalas pag nasa office pero pag nasa labas, super daldal. Well, siguro ganun lang talaga.
Pero kasi Im having this kind of dilemma from sembreak up until now. IDK. Iniisip ko na siguro kagaya lang to ng mga crush ko before, etc. Then I dont want to ruin our friendship since he's one of my closest guy friends sa org na napagkkwentuhan ko ng halos lahat. Tapos issue pa yung status nyang "I hate that I miss you" plus sabay pa yung pang-aasar ni Yon. -____-
As of this post, kakatapos lang namin mag-usap sa phone regarding dun sa isang tanong nya. Haynako Lhea, ayan tayo sa lovelife eh. Nakakarelate ako kay Dairen, oh my!"
@Dairen; "IAS-IARFA. So much for the girls I know who once dreamed of finding their Mr. Right in that institute." --hahaha, IN-IARFA. Chos. Pero relate much ako sib. HAHAHAHA. Bakit kasi andaming candidates sa IARFA? HA?
Last Monday, JH accompanied me to C and E to buy my NCLEX reviewer. The last time we went there was when we bought his History book. Since it was already 6:30pm and I still have my duty at 9pm, we had our dinner at KFC. It's just a normal dinner with a friend but what made that dinner awkward was the mirror in front of us! (KFINE, hirap na ko mag-english! lechugas naman.) And another thing is, magkatabi kami. Di kasi ako sanay na pag dalawa lang kami ng kahit sinong kasama ko eh tabi kami, sanay ako sa magkaharap lang. Then, pag nag-uusap kami, sa salamin na lang kami nakatingin. Medyo matagal-tagal din kasi bago nai-serve yung food kaya mahaba pa yung time namin mag-usap.
Recently, I noticed na di kami magka-chika ng madalas pag nasa office pero pag nasa labas, super daldal. Well, siguro ganun lang talaga.
Pero kasi Im having this kind of dilemma from sembreak up until now. IDK. Iniisip ko na siguro kagaya lang to ng mga crush ko before, etc. Then I dont want to ruin our friendship since he's one of my closest guy friends sa org na napagkkwentuhan ko ng halos lahat. Tapos issue pa yung status nyang "I hate that I miss you" plus sabay pa yung pang-aasar ni Yon. -____-
As of this post, kakatapos lang namin mag-usap sa phone regarding dun sa isang tanong nya. Haynako Lhea, ayan tayo sa lovelife eh. Nakakarelate ako kay Dairen, oh my!"
@Dairen; "IAS-IARFA. So much for the girls I know who once dreamed of finding their Mr. Right in that institute." --hahaha, IN-IARFA. Chos. Pero relate much ako sib. HAHAHAHA. Bakit kasi andaming candidates sa IARFA? HA?
---Lhea, tulog na te. itulog mo na yan. makikita mo naman sya bukas.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Of rants and sudden burst of critical thinking
Last Sunday, I just grabbed Slam Magazine's latest ish where Terrence Romeo's name was on the cover. Actually, I wasn't planning to buy magazines since my rack's already full. HAHA. It was Justine who told me that Romeo's featured there, and since I'm an ex-Juliet (I'll just tell you the story later), I was kinda interested on what's there.
As I browsed the magazine, I first came across June Mar Fajardo's article, read some lines there then proceed on the TR article. The moment I saw the first 2 pages, which contain his picture and a huge title, I was like "Wow, nagpa-interview sya dito tapos samin eh picture lang, ayaw pa na." I turned on the next page and kinda shocked that the article's writer and I share the same fate of not being replied by Romeo. "Really? Di rin sya nag-reply? Nakakahiya naman ganung ugali. You already agreed on the interview tapos biglang waley?" Then, the writer just interviewed key people that could say something about the 20-year old combo guard, which include Coach Bert, Coach Magtulis, and Mike Tolomia. I really liked the angle of the story. It's like it indirectly answered Romeo's ball-keeping attitude (Sorry, I really can't say bwakaw, or ball-hogger). Actually, it's kinda hard topic, that I, myself, can't even ask other people that "Is Romeo a selfish ball distributor? (Uhh? magulo Lhea. Where's the sense?)
Going back, Coach Bert is a person that will honestly tell you what's wrong on this kid since he's aware that TR has this thing called "shoulder fake-head fake-with hair swaying move-plus-I-can-do-this-all-by-myself-and-shoot-the-ball-without-sharing-to-my-teammates disease. Sorry for being harsh guys especially to some of his fans that might be able to read this. TR has an incredible talent, I know we all agree. He's also hardworking when it comes to taking time to practice his shooting (Someone from R.Papa told me this before and I have seen him before practicing even in the dark. Yeah, srsly). But he has to learn that he doesn't have to carry the burden single-handedly. There are 4 other guys, waiting for the ball he's going to distribute and facilitate, that will take that magical shot. And there's also a concept of 24-seconds that will let you plan and get that right timing to bury that dagger into your opponent's throat, and not throwing the ball freely like the one's in the arcade.
On the other hand, as a schoolmate, Im happy on what he achieved this year, especially being a part of the Mythical 5. Being one takes a lot hardwork from the start of the season til the end. We've seen how FEU rose above the seven other schools with that 4-0 record. That's already something. He was a hero in every game that he played, with long-dropping triples, defense-slashing drives, cat-quick hands that swiped every ball off an opponent, a sprinter-like fastbreaks and his signature shoulder fake-head fake-then- stepback jumpers that can make any girl go crazy seeing his nearly angelic face, lazy eyes and Son Goku-like hairstyle that he nourished for more that 3 months. (Phew! that was looooong!) I can't imagine FEU sans Romeo during their crucial first three games in Season 73. As some sports writers and Coach Bert said "It could have been 0-3, not 3-0." But how about FEU without RR Garcia? Well, more unimaginable (for me). Garcia suffered from an ankle injury from a practice before the season. With that incident, Garcia had a lesser time on court and gave Romeo more time to take charge as one of the veterans. As some UAAP fanatics observed, TR and RR doesn't seem to have that balanced pH, in short, chemistry. Whenever they are on the floor together (IDK who assumes the 1 and 2), they simply don't pass the ball on each other. (Guuuuuys? This is not an arcaaade). I have seen it a lot of times already, even last year. Well, it's just this time that it's more evident. But there are those times that when they share it, it was like a nuclear bomb that can wreck the whole arena. During FEU vs NU Game (Sept 2), Garcia dished the ball on Romeo in the left wing, then shoots a triple that gave them a 2-point edge. Well, that game might not be counted as a win (Hello Technical Committee!), but it's SOMETHING. Something that not everyone witnessed. Another one was their KO game against DLSU. FEU was 7 points behind the Taft-based team and 38 seconds' left in the game clock. Everyone from the Morayta side wished for a miracle, until Garcia passed the ball on Romeo and knocked a triple, then Garcia stole the ball from DLSU's possession and dropped a three pointer that left the other team in a one-point advantage with 30 secs left. Yes, six points in 8 seconds. Magical, doesn't it? Yet, it was a sorry loss for FEU since it was the first time they were kicked out of the Final 4 in 5 years. Oops, I still have another one in my sleeves! Well, this time, FEU won their first cardiac game in the season. Less than 20 seconds left in the fourth quarter, UST's possession, and up by 1 point. The Tigers need to shoot that one last shot to run away their first game. Jeric Fortuna carefully dribbles the ball, inspecting the area and switches his attention to his coach, waiting for his signal to drive the ball. As his attention focused on his mentor, he forgot what he has in his right hand. It was the perfect timing for Romeo to swipe the ball, pass it to the running Tolomia and to Garcia who was waiting to make the finishing touches. And the ball safely entered the ring with 7 seconds remaining. And FEU's up by 1! UST wasted no time and made a fast play with Mariano on the downtown and missed the big shot when the time expired.
Garcia's fate next year is still undetermined, whether he'll stay or embark a new journey in the pros. Whatever happens, it will be Romeo who is expected to take over the floor general title. But in that time, Romeo has to change, for the his own good and for the better of everyone. Talent? No doubts. Confidence? More improved this time around. So lemme switch on the other side of my rants. I know TR is a nice guy, well, according to Joshua. HAHA. But seriously, he's good. I've talked to him a lot of times already, have picture with him, etc. He also do some simple efforts to other people in his simple way (like texting someone to alleviate his/her feelings [im a living proof to that. haha]).
Actually, I've been texting him since last month for my work-related assignment (thanks to JE for his number) and he doesn't reply. Joshua already warned me that recently, he's not into interviews (Actually, it's just for a photoshoot!). Then last sembreak, I had some few trips to R.Papa Gym, hoping to catch him there and talk about the shoot. But unluckily, I wasn't able to see even a shadow of him. Last Friday, I went back to the gym with Armen and Justine. Good thing, I met Coach Jo and told him why I'm looking for the kid. We patiently waited outside, hoping to talk to him that time around but we just wasted our time. I went back to the campus and met Russel and Mac. So I talked to them and ask where can I find TR. RE offered me to join them going to their Dean's office since TR's currently enrolling, and finally get a chance to meet him after 1 month of searching him. Side story: I cant help but laugh when we reached EB 8th floor. A lot of young girls are screaming when they saw the 2 tall guys I'm with, haha. So I just waited on the side and called by RE "Lhea, tara pasok na tayo. Nasa loob sya" "Uy, di ako pwede dyan, IN ako eh. Sabihan mo na lang sya" Then he entered the room and returned after 3 minutes. "Hintayin mo na lang daw sya sa gym after. Text mo nalang sya." Me: "Uy, seryoso yan ha. Sabihin mo mag-reply sya. Kung hindi, iiscalpelin ko sya, now na." And he terribly laughed while cameras are clicking at the background. After that, I went back in the office and after 30 minutes, someone saw TR outside. So I hurriedly called Justine to run after him then he just said "Enrolment eh, busy ako". And the moment I hear it from Justine, I just bowed my head and said, I give up. But wait, I still have other pending papers! haha :)
As I browsed the magazine, I first came across June Mar Fajardo's article, read some lines there then proceed on the TR article. The moment I saw the first 2 pages, which contain his picture and a huge title, I was like "Wow, nagpa-interview sya dito tapos samin eh picture lang, ayaw pa na." I turned on the next page and kinda shocked that the article's writer and I share the same fate of not being replied by Romeo. "Really? Di rin sya nag-reply? Nakakahiya naman ganung ugali. You already agreed on the interview tapos biglang waley?" Then, the writer just interviewed key people that could say something about the 20-year old combo guard, which include Coach Bert, Coach Magtulis, and Mike Tolomia. I really liked the angle of the story. It's like it indirectly answered Romeo's ball-keeping attitude (Sorry, I really can't say bwakaw, or ball-hogger). Actually, it's kinda hard topic, that I, myself, can't even ask other people that "Is Romeo a selfish ball distributor? (Uhh? magulo Lhea. Where's the sense?)
Going back, Coach Bert is a person that will honestly tell you what's wrong on this kid since he's aware that TR has this thing called "shoulder fake-head fake-with hair swaying move-plus-I-can-do-this-all-by-myself-and-shoot-the-ball-without-sharing-to-my-teammates disease. Sorry for being harsh guys especially to some of his fans that might be able to read this. TR has an incredible talent, I know we all agree. He's also hardworking when it comes to taking time to practice his shooting (Someone from R.Papa told me this before and I have seen him before practicing even in the dark. Yeah, srsly). But he has to learn that he doesn't have to carry the burden single-handedly. There are 4 other guys, waiting for the ball he's going to distribute and facilitate, that will take that magical shot. And there's also a concept of 24-seconds that will let you plan and get that right timing to bury that dagger into your opponent's throat, and not throwing the ball freely like the one's in the arcade.
On the other hand, as a schoolmate, Im happy on what he achieved this year, especially being a part of the Mythical 5. Being one takes a lot hardwork from the start of the season til the end. We've seen how FEU rose above the seven other schools with that 4-0 record. That's already something. He was a hero in every game that he played, with long-dropping triples, defense-slashing drives, cat-quick hands that swiped every ball off an opponent, a sprinter-like fastbreaks and his signature shoulder fake-head fake-then- stepback jumpers that can make any girl go crazy seeing his nearly angelic face, lazy eyes and Son Goku-like hairstyle that he nourished for more that 3 months. (Phew! that was looooong!) I can't imagine FEU sans Romeo during their crucial first three games in Season 73. As some sports writers and Coach Bert said "It could have been 0-3, not 3-0." But how about FEU without RR Garcia? Well, more unimaginable (for me). Garcia suffered from an ankle injury from a practice before the season. With that incident, Garcia had a lesser time on court and gave Romeo more time to take charge as one of the veterans. As some UAAP fanatics observed, TR and RR doesn't seem to have that balanced pH, in short, chemistry. Whenever they are on the floor together (IDK who assumes the 1 and 2), they simply don't pass the ball on each other. (Guuuuuys? This is not an arcaaade). I have seen it a lot of times already, even last year. Well, it's just this time that it's more evident. But there are those times that when they share it, it was like a nuclear bomb that can wreck the whole arena. During FEU vs NU Game (Sept 2), Garcia dished the ball on Romeo in the left wing, then shoots a triple that gave them a 2-point edge. Well, that game might not be counted as a win (Hello Technical Committee!), but it's SOMETHING. Something that not everyone witnessed. Another one was their KO game against DLSU. FEU was 7 points behind the Taft-based team and 38 seconds' left in the game clock. Everyone from the Morayta side wished for a miracle, until Garcia passed the ball on Romeo and knocked a triple, then Garcia stole the ball from DLSU's possession and dropped a three pointer that left the other team in a one-point advantage with 30 secs left. Yes, six points in 8 seconds. Magical, doesn't it? Yet, it was a sorry loss for FEU since it was the first time they were kicked out of the Final 4 in 5 years. Oops, I still have another one in my sleeves! Well, this time, FEU won their first cardiac game in the season. Less than 20 seconds left in the fourth quarter, UST's possession, and up by 1 point. The Tigers need to shoot that one last shot to run away their first game. Jeric Fortuna carefully dribbles the ball, inspecting the area and switches his attention to his coach, waiting for his signal to drive the ball. As his attention focused on his mentor, he forgot what he has in his right hand. It was the perfect timing for Romeo to swipe the ball, pass it to the running Tolomia and to Garcia who was waiting to make the finishing touches. And the ball safely entered the ring with 7 seconds remaining. And FEU's up by 1! UST wasted no time and made a fast play with Mariano on the downtown and missed the big shot when the time expired.
Garcia's fate next year is still undetermined, whether he'll stay or embark a new journey in the pros. Whatever happens, it will be Romeo who is expected to take over the floor general title. But in that time, Romeo has to change, for the his own good and for the better of everyone. Talent? No doubts. Confidence? More improved this time around. So lemme switch on the other side of my rants. I know TR is a nice guy, well, according to Joshua. HAHA. But seriously, he's good. I've talked to him a lot of times already, have picture with him, etc. He also do some simple efforts to other people in his simple way (like texting someone to alleviate his/her feelings [im a living proof to that. haha]).
Actually, I've been texting him since last month for my work-related assignment (thanks to JE for his number) and he doesn't reply. Joshua already warned me that recently, he's not into interviews (Actually, it's just for a photoshoot!). Then last sembreak, I had some few trips to R.Papa Gym, hoping to catch him there and talk about the shoot. But unluckily, I wasn't able to see even a shadow of him. Last Friday, I went back to the gym with Armen and Justine. Good thing, I met Coach Jo and told him why I'm looking for the kid. We patiently waited outside, hoping to talk to him that time around but we just wasted our time. I went back to the campus and met Russel and Mac. So I talked to them and ask where can I find TR. RE offered me to join them going to their Dean's office since TR's currently enrolling, and finally get a chance to meet him after 1 month of searching him. Side story: I cant help but laugh when we reached EB 8th floor. A lot of young girls are screaming when they saw the 2 tall guys I'm with, haha. So I just waited on the side and called by RE "Lhea, tara pasok na tayo. Nasa loob sya" "Uy, di ako pwede dyan, IN ako eh. Sabihan mo na lang sya" Then he entered the room and returned after 3 minutes. "Hintayin mo na lang daw sya sa gym after. Text mo nalang sya." Me: "Uy, seryoso yan ha. Sabihin mo mag-reply sya. Kung hindi, iiscalpelin ko sya, now na." And he terribly laughed while cameras are clicking at the background. After that, I went back in the office and after 30 minutes, someone saw TR outside. So I hurriedly called Justine to run after him then he just said "Enrolment eh, busy ako". And the moment I hear it from Justine, I just bowed my head and said, I give up. But wait, I still have other pending papers! haha :)
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Usapang K
K is for keme, kempet, kemps, etc. --Keri na? At yan ang ieeexpect mo sa blog kong ito.
SRSLY, matagal na akong walang kempet. Siguro ang pinakahuling matinong kempet ko eh si Joshua pa, pero that was like ages ago na. HAHA. After him, mga dumaang kempet lang na nagpapalipad hangin. Tapos may isa pa na nagse-seryoso na talaga kaso sorry, di ko sya bet eh, "the girl who cant be moved' pa ang peg ko nun.
Moving on, dalawang kempet lang ang ita-tackle ko dito bilang sila ang pinaka-recent. PAUNAWA: Meron bang attorney o judge dito? Kung wala, okeygopushforit tayo.
First: He's a good friend of mine na matagal ko ng crush. Medyo lumamlam nga lang ang ilaw nya sakin nung nagka-kempet ako at after few days eh nagka-kempet na rin sya. Pero aaminin ko, crush ko pa rin sya. :) Come October at waley na akong kempet nun, gusto ko pa rin sya (di ko pa alam na may kempet sya nun).
I admit, mababaw na pagka-crush lang yun nun kasi nga madalas kami magkasama, in and out of school (okaaay, may idea na kung sino!). Di ko rin maalala kung paano kami nagkasundo ng taong to. The last thing I remember eh yung Welcome Freshmen pa na umabsent ako sa 1st day ko sa Rizal then magkasama kaming nag-iikot sa quadrangle.
Last night, nagbabasa ako ng entries ko ng january, and may napansin ako na usapan namin ni older brother about sa kanya.Kasi itong si older brother, may pinapakiusap sakin na medyo di ako sigurado kasi nahihiya ako. Then umabot pa sa tipong pati posts sa FB eh pinag-uusapan namin and kiber lang ako kasi wala kaming communication.
Come May 2012, HORRAY! He's back! At first he was asking me about something na connected sa kanya. I was really hoping na he would come back until nag-tweet etong si crazy friend tungkol sa pagbabalik nya. So balik dating buhay na naman kami, more bondings and more chikahan.
Everything changed nung early September when our older brother left. Parang that prompted him to speak and share his own part or story. That was also the first time I saw him crying. And I was like "uyy! wag kang umiyak! di kita pinapaiyak ha!". I think, anlaking part ng traffic nun na makapag-kwento sya ng super tagal.
I admit na madaldal ako pero I dont ask some sensitive questions right away. I respect their privacy. Pero minsanm di mo inaasahan na yung gusto mong malaman, sila na lang magkkwento sayo. Sa part ko, natutuwa ako na they trust me kasi syempre di madaling magkwento diba?
After few more days and weeks, mas napaparami na ng kwento, mas diverse na ang usapan and minsan sya na rin ang nag-oopen ng topic, tsaka yung mga bagay na bigla nyang maaalala. Honestly, I still act normal around him pero pag wala sya and friends ko lang kasama ko, mukha akong may epilepsy :D
Nitong last week na lang ng October medyo nagka-something. Di naman sya something na may quotations, pero iba lang kasi. Medyo di ko iniisip, not until the "cuddle time" thing came tapos yung sa Batangas pa! HAHA. Recently, sinamahan ko sya sa institute namin para mag-enrol sa isang subject nya. Habang nasa pila, kinwento nya sakin yung hardships nya, makuha lang ang subject na yun. Final na yung IN kasi punuan sa ITHM, kung san pumila sya from AM to PM tapos waley ganap. Nagshare din sya kung paano nya pinaglaban yung subject na yun sa parents nya. Clap clap lang talaga reaction ko. I know na he's doing his best para ma-achieve yung goal nya and alam kong kaya nya yun.
Complete package na sya eh, matalino, mabait, kwela, masipag, dedicated sa ginagawa nya, goal-oriented, talented, and marunong makisama. Isa lang ang medyo di ko bet-- maaga sya matulog. :P 12am tulog nya, ako naman 1am! Pero ayun, I like him as a friend. I really treasure him as one of my closest guy friends na comfortable akong magkwento ng mga ganap and hanash ko sa buhay. :)
Second: isang tao na kapangalan ni former kempet! hahaha, SMALL WORLD. It all started with BBM, and then yung simpleng banat and the rest is... nevermind. Balak ko talaga syang i-basted agad, kaso iniisip ko, sayang tsaka para may makausap din ako paminsan-minsan. Nung una, di talaga ako comfortable kasi bumabaliktad sikmura ko kapag magkausap kami sa bbm. EK! Ganun talaga!
Tapos nung medyo pumo-porma na sya ng "lhea ko", mas di ako naging comfortable. Natutuwa ako sa mga korning bagay, pero meron ding hindi. Sorry, masstereotype ko sya as someone na "player" kaya ayoko ring makipagclose masyado. Though I know he would be a good friend.
Sabi ko nga, imposible namang magka-gusto ako sa kanya kasi may gusto naman akong iba eh. Pero kapag naging something to, baka maungusan pa nya yung isa. HAHA. Which is ayokong mangyari.
Comment: Okey naman sya, keri lang. I cant comment more on him kasi di ko pa sya ganun ka-kilala. and di naman kasi sya nagpapakilala eh. Yung ayoko sa kanya, mabagal magreply, tapos binabasa lang bbm ko ng wlang reply. honestly, ayoko ng lame na kausap (lame sya). HAHA. Ayun!
---YES? May duty pa ako later tapos nagbblog pa ako then ka-BBM ko si Cindy then katext ko naman kanina si Ji Hoo. HAHA. Si Ji Hoo na maaga matulog (cant blame him though, he needs rest).
Good night! Sorry sa isang napaka-walang kwentang entry! Di ko pa masulatan yung diary ko kasi di ko pa tapos yung salaysay ko dun about sa October 12 na ganap ko :)
SRSLY, matagal na akong walang kempet. Siguro ang pinakahuling matinong kempet ko eh si Joshua pa, pero that was like ages ago na. HAHA. After him, mga dumaang kempet lang na nagpapalipad hangin. Tapos may isa pa na nagse-seryoso na talaga kaso sorry, di ko sya bet eh, "the girl who cant be moved' pa ang peg ko nun.
Moving on, dalawang kempet lang ang ita-tackle ko dito bilang sila ang pinaka-recent. PAUNAWA: Meron bang attorney o judge dito? Kung wala, okeygopushforit tayo.
First: He's a good friend of mine na matagal ko ng crush. Medyo lumamlam nga lang ang ilaw nya sakin nung nagka-kempet ako at after few days eh nagka-kempet na rin sya. Pero aaminin ko, crush ko pa rin sya. :) Come October at waley na akong kempet nun, gusto ko pa rin sya (di ko pa alam na may kempet sya nun).
I admit, mababaw na pagka-crush lang yun nun kasi nga madalas kami magkasama, in and out of school (okaaay, may idea na kung sino!). Di ko rin maalala kung paano kami nagkasundo ng taong to. The last thing I remember eh yung Welcome Freshmen pa na umabsent ako sa 1st day ko sa Rizal then magkasama kaming nag-iikot sa quadrangle.
Last night, nagbabasa ako ng entries ko ng january, and may napansin ako na usapan namin ni older brother about sa kanya.Kasi itong si older brother, may pinapakiusap sakin na medyo di ako sigurado kasi nahihiya ako. Then umabot pa sa tipong pati posts sa FB eh pinag-uusapan namin and kiber lang ako kasi wala kaming communication.
Come May 2012, HORRAY! He's back! At first he was asking me about something na connected sa kanya. I was really hoping na he would come back until nag-tweet etong si crazy friend tungkol sa pagbabalik nya. So balik dating buhay na naman kami, more bondings and more chikahan.
Everything changed nung early September when our older brother left. Parang that prompted him to speak and share his own part or story. That was also the first time I saw him crying. And I was like "uyy! wag kang umiyak! di kita pinapaiyak ha!". I think, anlaking part ng traffic nun na makapag-kwento sya ng super tagal.
I admit na madaldal ako pero I dont ask some sensitive questions right away. I respect their privacy. Pero minsanm di mo inaasahan na yung gusto mong malaman, sila na lang magkkwento sayo. Sa part ko, natutuwa ako na they trust me kasi syempre di madaling magkwento diba?
After few more days and weeks, mas napaparami na ng kwento, mas diverse na ang usapan and minsan sya na rin ang nag-oopen ng topic, tsaka yung mga bagay na bigla nyang maaalala. Honestly, I still act normal around him pero pag wala sya and friends ko lang kasama ko, mukha akong may epilepsy :D
Nitong last week na lang ng October medyo nagka-something. Di naman sya something na may quotations, pero iba lang kasi. Medyo di ko iniisip, not until the "cuddle time" thing came tapos yung sa Batangas pa! HAHA. Recently, sinamahan ko sya sa institute namin para mag-enrol sa isang subject nya. Habang nasa pila, kinwento nya sakin yung hardships nya, makuha lang ang subject na yun. Final na yung IN kasi punuan sa ITHM, kung san pumila sya from AM to PM tapos waley ganap. Nagshare din sya kung paano nya pinaglaban yung subject na yun sa parents nya. Clap clap lang talaga reaction ko. I know na he's doing his best para ma-achieve yung goal nya and alam kong kaya nya yun.
Complete package na sya eh, matalino, mabait, kwela, masipag, dedicated sa ginagawa nya, goal-oriented, talented, and marunong makisama. Isa lang ang medyo di ko bet-- maaga sya matulog. :P 12am tulog nya, ako naman 1am! Pero ayun, I like him as a friend. I really treasure him as one of my closest guy friends na comfortable akong magkwento ng mga ganap and hanash ko sa buhay. :)
Second: isang tao na kapangalan ni former kempet! hahaha, SMALL WORLD. It all started with BBM, and then yung simpleng banat and the rest is... nevermind. Balak ko talaga syang i-basted agad, kaso iniisip ko, sayang tsaka para may makausap din ako paminsan-minsan. Nung una, di talaga ako comfortable kasi bumabaliktad sikmura ko kapag magkausap kami sa bbm. EK! Ganun talaga!
Tapos nung medyo pumo-porma na sya ng "lhea ko", mas di ako naging comfortable. Natutuwa ako sa mga korning bagay, pero meron ding hindi. Sorry, masstereotype ko sya as someone na "player" kaya ayoko ring makipagclose masyado. Though I know he would be a good friend.
Sabi ko nga, imposible namang magka-gusto ako sa kanya kasi may gusto naman akong iba eh. Pero kapag naging something to, baka maungusan pa nya yung isa. HAHA. Which is ayokong mangyari.
Comment: Okey naman sya, keri lang. I cant comment more on him kasi di ko pa sya ganun ka-kilala. and di naman kasi sya nagpapakilala eh. Yung ayoko sa kanya, mabagal magreply, tapos binabasa lang bbm ko ng wlang reply. honestly, ayoko ng lame na kausap (lame sya). HAHA. Ayun!
---YES? May duty pa ako later tapos nagbblog pa ako then ka-BBM ko si Cindy then katext ko naman kanina si Ji Hoo. HAHA. Si Ji Hoo na maaga matulog (cant blame him though, he needs rest).
Good night! Sorry sa isang napaka-walang kwentang entry! Di ko pa masulatan yung diary ko kasi di ko pa tapos yung salaysay ko dun about sa October 12 na ganap ko :)
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Final 1st semester
Sabihin ko man na kalmado, positive and chill ako these past few days, pero tonight, kinakabahan na ako para bukas.
Lemme assess 1st semester
Lemme assess 1st semester
- Busy sa research. Trust me, di kami makaka-1.25 kung di namin pinaghirapan yun. We failed 4 times and yet tumayo kami more than 5 times.
- Skipped NOL sessions. Bagong balita ba yan?
- Skipped NCI-NCA classes. Ang alam ko, once lang ako nawala sa NCA, pero 3 or 4 times ata sa NCI.
- Better grades in NCM concepts 2 and 4. Yes, di na sya palakol o buntis gaya nung 1st sem last year.
- A lot more sensitive because of Elective. Oh yeaah! Yan ang subject na lagi akong pinapaiyak.
- Ngarag sa duty lalo na sa NRMF. Swear, basag bungo ko sa medicine computation.
- Coverage. As usual, pasok na pasok sa sked ko. HAHA. Kaso ngarag ako kasi laging article ko ang nattsambang hinihintay para maiprint na ang dyaryo. After game, pasa agad.
- Lumuluwag na turnilyo sa RLE. HAHAHA. Isa pa yan eh! Nagkaroon ako ng "slump" keme.
- Late na pagdating ni LOVELIFE (edit:CRUSHLIFE!). Ngayong sem lang na to ako nawalan ng lovelife. 1st year 1st sem: Zeke. 2nd year 1st sem: TR. 3rd year 1st sem: Joshua. 4th year 1st sem: ???.. Well, pwede na ring si (deleted 2017) bilang madalas kaming magkasama ulit. HAHAHA. Joke lang. Pero si Joshua talaga eh. Pasulpot-sulpot sya. Pero dumarating sya sa panahong down ako tapos pag nagkausap kami, biglang shoot up ang grades/quizzes/exams ko gaya ng hina-highblood na tao! Yun pala yun eh. Kaso late na talaga sya bumalik ng medyo matagal. Ayun lang.
What went wrong?
- Yung paasa na grade sa Elective. grabe, may CI akong napa-comment bigla ah. Kasi si Mam ambaba magbigay ng grade tapos wala naman kaming inaatupag kundi lecture. mas mabuti pang nagssharing kami lagi.
- Yung NCA and NCI na di ko deserve. SRSLY? mas mataas pa sakin yung di pumapasok?
- NCM. Nakita ko 2 concept grades ko, pasok pa sa 2.25 yun. BAKIT 2.75 lang? parang di ako nag-aral ng matino ah!
- THESIS: masyadong nagfocus? pati ibang obligasyon nawala?
- 14 units. IKAKAMATAY KO TO!
Honestly, naiinggit ako sa mga nakakakuha ng line of 1 na GWA. Pero iba naman kaso ko sa kanila eh. NURSING ako. 14 UNITS ang subject ko. Anlaking difference diba?
Gaya nga ng sabi ni Ate Chin. THINK POSITIVE! :)
Monday, September 17, 2012
It's all about..
IDK if you're still checking on my blog or not. These past few days made me realize a lot of things, especially your so-called worth in my life.
One time, I found myself reading some thick nursing books. Super hopeless na ako to get a passing score in NCM-ABC concept kaya binasa ko na lahat ng libro na meron ako. Andami ko ng ginawa para mainspire lalo sa pag-aaral kasi halos sumuko na ako. And then I checked my facebook profile and I saw you. I browsed thru your photos and found a picture of you with that mala-toothpaste commercial smile .
No pun intended, you really have that wonderful smile that only few people would recognize. I mean, your smile can brighten anyone's day. So, I continued reading my book with your photo facing my direction. Parang yung dati lang, while reviewing, kausap kita and mino-motivate mo ko to study harder. Kung alam mo lang na isa sa mga nicknames mo sakin eh "Motivation". :)
You really did a great job to encourage me to study more. Di naman sa hindi ko inspirasyon sina Papa and Lola sa studies ko, parang may bagong force kasi na andyan sa likod ko para alalayan ako. Kahit nagka-keme ako ng sandali, it really didnt have a bad effect in my studies. Dapat nga maging thankful tayo kasi dahil sa happiness and heartbreak ko eh 2.2 ang GWA ko (lechugas na NCM lang, paniraaa!)
The next day, we took up that "shotgut exam" and I got a passing grade! Wow! May mga lumabas sa mga inaral ko! thank you lord. Even before, I know that Joshua can do wonders pagdating sa acads ko. Nung down ako sa RLE, after we talked the night before, halos perfect ako sa quiz and mataas nakuha ko sa bandaging. Kitams? :)
Come Saturday, I told Ate Chin what I really feel. This <3 of mine still belongs to him. Yes, I do have a lot of crushes, pero sya pa rin eh. Kahit na andami ng nangyari, di pa rin sya mawala sa trono nya.
Seeing a picture of him and his girl pierced what's between my 4th and 5th ICS. Yes, it really did hurt. Nakakabitter kasi eh. Aminin natin yan. I didn't had a chance to have a picture with him while watching last year's basketball finals. I thought magkikita pa kami kaso last na pala yun.
I tweeted "Sayang at di man lang tayo nagkaroon ng picture ng magkasama, wala tuloy nagpapaalala sakin kung gaano ako kasaya nung panahong yun na kasama kita". Totoo naman yun eh. Nakakabitter.
Then kaninang umaga, nag-chat pa kami. Parang wala lang, parang acquaintances lang. So ganun na lang ba yun? Mas nalungkot lang ako actually eh. Masaya naman ako kahit na di nya ako kinakamusta, pero yung totoo eh miss ko na sya. Kaya ko na syang tiisin pag malayo sya, pero pag andyan na sya, sige Lhea, gora ka na, minsan lang yan.
Nakakahiya man pero finriendzone nya ako. Naguguluhan ako sa totoong rason eh, pero ang sinabi nya sakin " Ayokong matulad ka sa mga ex ko na nawala na lang. Alam kong dito tayo magtatagal". He also tagged me as his "best friend" and "ate".
Fine, I now accept the fact that we're just bound to be friends, maybe in our entire life. Pero ayoko lang maging kaibigan nya kapag may problema lang sya, pero pag masaya sya, nakakalimutan lang. Ano ako, CALAMITY FUND na laging andyan pag binabagyo ka? Friend mo naman ako sa lahat ng oras eh, pero hindi naman ako laging andito para saluhin ka sa kalungkutan mo.
Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako nasasaktan kapag nalalaman kong di ka naaappreciate nung gf mo. masakit sakin yun kasi bakit di nya kayang makita yung mga bagay na nakita ko sayo? tsaka sana wag mo akong babalikan kapag nagkakalabuan kayo ng gf mo at humihingi ka ng tulong sakin, kasi pati ako nahihirapan din. Remember, di ako tagasalo mo.
And lastly, siguro hanggang picture mo na lang ako. Yung tititigan ang picture mo na nakasalamin ka at nakangiti. Minsan, naimagine ko dati na aayusan kita ng buhok mo, yung ako yung pipili ng bibilhin mong damit (bilang dream kong maging stylist), at rarampa tayo! :P Imagination na lang siguro yun, di na magkakatotoo. Sa ngayon, kakausapin ko na lang picture mo lalo na kapag naiinis ako. Pero wag kang mag-alala, babalikan ko pa rin ang picture mo kapag gusto ko ng kukumpleto sa araw ko.
Friday, September 14, 2012
Dear Diary
Wonder why I'm not posting that often? It's because I turned back
to the 'forever-reliable secret keeper' diary'. Well, you can’t blame me guys
since gusto ko lang ng ibang avenue to voice out my rants in a silent way, na
hindi mababasa ng kahit sino.
Actually, isa na ang diary ko sa pinaka-iingatan kong gamit, and
kasama na rin ang lappy and phones ko syempre. My diary has a lot of stories to
tell, not just my stories, but also my friends'. Minsan, dun ko na rin
nilalagay yung mga reactions ko and realizations aside from my experiences. It
really feels good to write since you're also enhancing your skills aside from
telling stories through written form.
Sa diary, wala kang mao-offend na tao, since di naman nya mababasa
eh, unless nabasa nya yun by accident, which is 0.1/100%. Super liit ng
chances diba? I remember what Joshua told me when I shared that I have a diary
"Diary ka na naman dyan, tapos mababasa ko din naman". Well, for
everyone's info, Joshua's the perfect example of a person who accidentally read what I wrote about him. Umm,
a hate post actually. HAHA. And it was because of him that's why I shifted to
writing in a journal. HAHA, you'll never read my diary again, unless you'll
steal it. But I'll never let you live after touching my precious journal.
HAHAHAHA. Creepy!
Im currently writing about what my friend and I talked about last
Saturday. Super kelangan kong isulat yun kasi 1st time nyang magkwento sakin ng
medyo seryoso. Seryoso naman sya kausap, pero mas seryoso yung topic. And medyo
na-guilty ako ng konti coz I made him cry. Umm, cry in a different reason.
Hehehe. Palusot.Com naman ako eh no.
Tapos last night, sinulat ko naman yung biglaang drinking sessions
namin. As long as naaalala ko pa, sinulat ko na. Mahirap na't makalimutan ko
diba? And! Wagas ako mag-english pag tipsy na, pero pag yung Group 33 kasama
ko, tahimik ako. Bat ganun? Tapos meron kaming isinalang (SINALANG talaga? Ano
yun? Kaldero?) sa hot seat bilang sya ang sentro ng tanungan at usapan. Ayun.
Kung ano yung mga tinanong namin, secret na lang yun :P
BTW, may isa pa akong notebook na maliit. Reaction notebook ko
naman yun. Kung may mga sudden reactions ako na di ko masabi, dun ko na lang
sinusulat :)))))
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Dont pretend to know everything
Sorry guys, I'm not that good in expressing my thoughts through writing sometimes. I do better in speaking, but beware, my words are like bullets that would easily fire someone down.
When I hate (or dislike, etc) someone, I try to keep it to myself first, thinking that I might have judged him/her wrong. But when I cant take it anymore, I try to belt it out to someone who doesn't have a minute idea about the person I'm talking about. It's not backstabbing, it's just letting anger to diminish.
Recently, I have this small notebook that doesn't seem to contain all my unsaid thoughts for the past weeks. Yes, I'm a talkative person, and every single person knows what I'm thinking since I usually tell it to them, but now, I'm trying to have my thoughts in private.
Some of my entries are all problems, but some are secrets, sudden realizations, or wild thoughts. Haha, I already gave a hint on what's in it! But anyway, why am I blogging this? Because I want people to know that there's still more beyond the real me. I don't mean that I have a devilish alter ego or what, but I am a type of person who thinks deep and yet blows hard.
And to that certain person, don't pretend to know everything. There's still more that you don't even know. Before doing such powerful actions, try to think deep. Just THINK. Open your eyes and explore the world that you think you already know. I do hate disrespect. Respect begets respect, always remember that. And please, dont act like you're innocent, let's face it. Let your mouth do the talking.
When I hate (or dislike, etc) someone, I try to keep it to myself first, thinking that I might have judged him/her wrong. But when I cant take it anymore, I try to belt it out to someone who doesn't have a minute idea about the person I'm talking about. It's not backstabbing, it's just letting anger to diminish.
Recently, I have this small notebook that doesn't seem to contain all my unsaid thoughts for the past weeks. Yes, I'm a talkative person, and every single person knows what I'm thinking since I usually tell it to them, but now, I'm trying to have my thoughts in private.
Some of my entries are all problems, but some are secrets, sudden realizations, or wild thoughts. Haha, I already gave a hint on what's in it! But anyway, why am I blogging this? Because I want people to know that there's still more beyond the real me. I don't mean that I have a devilish alter ego or what, but I am a type of person who thinks deep and yet blows hard.
And to that certain person, don't pretend to know everything. There's still more that you don't even know. Before doing such powerful actions, try to think deep. Just THINK. Open your eyes and explore the world that you think you already know. I do hate disrespect. Respect begets respect, always remember that. And please, dont act like you're innocent, let's face it. Let your mouth do the talking.
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