Post-check up depression

I've encountered a lot of health check-ups since I was young. I was sickly then that's why I treated hospitals as my second home (and ships as my third because I always travel going to Puerto or Manila.). But yesterday (and up until now), I was really depressed with the result. I have a health problem that resurfaced after how many years. Since that problems was solved already, we focused our attention in my heart condition (this is serious, not a "heart-broken" kind of condition tho). But now, "that" problem it kinda hinders my plan to undergo training this upcoming March. I thought I was doing and feeling well but I'm not.

Honestly, I still think that my heart problem was worse than this because my cardiac muscles might get tired and eventually stop. I'm not depressed  or sad with the thought I might die because of this resurfaced problem, but it makes me worry on how I will work as a healthy medical practitioner.

But then again, no one beats prayers and faith in God. I've been through a lot of problems like this in the past though I had Nanay to accompany me to the doctor. But now, I have to face this all by myself. I'm too old to be accompanied by a parent or relative (haha, my dad isn't even here, and no relative is available to join me in the hospital). I guess I have to rely on my experiences on how to deal with this. This time, the tables have been turned. I'm the patient now, and I need to do what the doctors would ask me to do. Hay, we really need to take care of our health.

I'm planning to jog every morning whenever I'm not busy. I guess having a healthy lifestyle would really help. And how I wish I had a handsome nurse to take care of me. If there's no one available, then I'll just hire myself to  be my personal nurse. HAHAHAHA :)

Looking back and forth

Another night of reminiscing past memories. :D

Actually, nagsimula lang to nung nahanap ko yung 2011 planner and memo block ko. Tawang-tawa ako sa mga nasulat ko dun. Di ko maimagine yung mga iniisip ko nun. Parang desidido na ko mag-jowa nun ha! (Good thing di ko pinush! Di ko maimagine buhay ko ngayon kung nagka-jowa ako! My goodness!)

After that, nakita ko naman sa drawer ko yung Nokia expressmusic phone ko. The last time na ginamit ko yun eh nung March pa (nung ninakaw yung BB Curve ko). Pero matagal-tagal ko ring ginamit yung Nokia ko nung 4th yr. From July to December ko ginamit yung Nokia phone ko alongside my BB Curve (na Smart yung sim).

Since gumana na yung phone ko, naisipan kong magbasa ng texts. Well, di ko na naisipang basahin yung 2011 texts ko bilang walang kwenta lang naman yung mga naiwang texts dun, puro si Joshua lang :D Nung sa 2012 naman, puro haggard days ko, tapos mga GM ng Mayor namin, plus editors and Sporthos na puro tungkol sa covers. Sa lahat ng texts na nandun, andami kong tawa sa mga chikahan namin ni JH lalo na yung usapang PBA at Chris Tiu. Kainis, kinokontra ako sa pagfa-fangirl ko kay Chris (pati kay Terrence!). Haha. Pero mas madalas pala naming pagkwentuhan nun yung acads. Hoho. Acads forevs! 

Feeling ko tuloy ang petiks nung buhay ko noong fourth year, kasi kahit na stressed ako, parang hindi ako nagre-reklamo. Actually, tuwang-tuwa pa ko nagkkwento about sa duty ko na nagpa-anak ako. HAHAHA. Isipin mo, yung katext ko eh matutulog na, ako eh nagsisimula pa lang araw ko (bilang graveyard duty ako). Tapos sa umaga pag-uwi ko, magkkwento ako about sa duty, yung kausap ko naman papasok na ng school. :D

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Habang nanunuod ako ng TV kanina, sabi nila eh 20,000 words yung average na sinasabi ng mga babae. Kung sa iba eh 20K, kamusta naman kaya sakin? Tapos naging aware tuloy ako sa words na sinasabi ko. Since ilang araw na akong walang kausap sa bahay, ilang words lang kaya nasasabi ko? HAHAHA. Sa araw na to, i dont think kung naka-1000 words ako. :D

MEMA lang

So ayun nga, second night na akong nag-iisa sa bahay and it's now 4:45am in our clock. Since nag-iisa lang ako sa bahay, I have to make sure na vigilant ako lagi. Baka may pumasok bigla at *insert creepy or horrible situation here*. I know that Lola's really worried kasi ngayon lang ako naiwang mag-isa sa apartment lalo na't for 2 weeks.

And to keep me awake, nagbo-browse na lang ako ng old pics sa Facebook ko and nakikipagdaldalan na rin sa Twitter. And for tonight, si Kuya Mosh O. yung kakwentuhan at kakulitan ko. HIHI, crush ko yun eh, di lang pahalata, kunwari kumu-Kuya :)) He's really mabait, makulit and a man with a substance. Pwede ko na bang sabihin na kagaya ni Kuya Mosh ang ideal man ko? LOL again. :))) And while tweeting, nakikinig naman ako sa favorite late night-slash-early morning radio show ko, The Morning After sa RX 93.1. Cool sya kasi they're playing cool songs and halos lahat eh bago. So medyo updated na rin ako sa mga new songs ko. Last week, nakinig din ako dito and fun sya. DJ Alven is the man! Kanina, twice nabasa yung post ko, yung sa Facebook and sa Twitter. Binati pa yung Advo (ewan ko lang kung may taga-Advo pa na gising nun) :) Last week, binasa rin yung post ko. hihi. Nakakatuwa lang yung pagkakabasa ng name ko kanina, kung last week eh Lheajane Socrateees (slang syempre), kanina eh Lheajane Socrates (Soh-khreeyhts) :)))) COOL! Tapos kaloka pa yung @tweetnirizal, ni-like ko lang yung isang tweet nya na nakita ko lang sa news feed tapos nagtweet ssakin ng quote ni Socrates. HAHA. Define my night: COOL. :D

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Kahapon, napaka-pasaway ko lang. Pinapapunta ako ni Cindy ng 2pm, nagreply ako, then nakatulog ulit and dumating ng FEU ng 5:30 pm. HAHA. Ako na late diba? tapos nung pauwi, nagke-crave ako sa SISIG. :)))) Naglilihi teh?


Any, ilang araw pa akong magtitiis ng ganito. Later, pupunta ako kina Tita para bumisita :) KGOPUSH!

There's much in goodbye

Eh nagda-drama? 


HAHA, sorry naman ah. Pansin ko kasi, unti-unti ng nawawala yung mga crush ko. Kung hindi nagpapakita, umaalis na, o di kaya mabalitaan ko na lang may jowa na. And yes, my "kuya" was right when he told me that my JH seems to be inlove recently, and confirmed, he's now in a relationship.

Kanina naman, I saw my crush (another crush, the cosplayer) with my batchmate and former colleague. I told my friend that I rarely see him in our place, and he replied that my crush quitted already.

Bakit ganun? Lahat na lang eh nawawala. Pati si Ricky, di ko na rin madalas makita though nakasama ko rin sila nina HZL and 5 sa ibat-ibang assignments. Am I really destined to be FOREVER ALONE?

I was all alone last Sunday in Gateway Cubao. To kill my boredom, I played basketball and took pictures of me in a photobooth. Yan ang SINGLE< independent! Wait, ikamamatay ko ba kung di ko na makikita yung mga crush ko? Hey! I survived 4 months na di ko nakikita si TR ah! HAHA. And I will really miss my bud since he's always with me whenever I was assigned to cover games. Iba pa rin ang single sa may kempet na.


Affected ba talaga ako o atat lang sa buhay. I dont see myself in a relationship for the next 2 years. I also consider to take NMAT next year and if God permits, enter a Med school and pursue my dream to be a pediatric-cardiologist. Mahirap magka-jowa sa med school ah! :DD


Im happy for my partner-in-cover's new life, we'll maybe I should look for something that will tickle my mind (tama ba?). For now, I should do well in our NCA and Nursing Research. I fear that I will get failing grades and yet fell short in 2.5 GWA. And as Ate Chin reminds me always, THINK POSITIVE. You'll attract the positive vibes and might pass subjects because of my optimistic character and mind :)


--back to my T&F bebe article :D

Let's PUSH this! :)

Stressful day. Parang namatayan ata ako ng neurons nitong hapon, but anyway another learning experience for me. I admit na matagal ako magsulat, pero kapag na-time pressure ako just like what happened last sem na torn ako between articles and nursing-related paperworks plus pressuring groupmates and their rants, napapabilis ko yung ginagawa ko, yet not sure sa quality ng ginawa ko, pero binuhos ko naman yung makakaya ko dun.

Kaming tatlo nina Ace and Cindy yung medyo pagod yung braaaaains but still we remained calm and pakanta-kanta pa. I think, that's what I love Sports, kalmado despite of some things. We can adapt to stress and divert problems/pressure to other things. Sa kaka-edit, inabot kami ng 9pm sa school. Kami-kami na lang magkakasama nina Juju, Janice, Rits, Don and Ace. Pagdating ng kanto ng Morayta, nag-aya si Don na mag-Starbucks samantalang umuwi na si Juju. Eventually, tumuloy kami ng P. Noval pero nag-withdraw na muna dahil sa mapapagastos kami for sure. Habang naglalakad, iniisip ko yung stickers ko for planner na balak kong ibigay sa best friend Faye ko and i-libre na rin si June Ace na na-stress ko masyado at medyo sinisinat pa.

As we arrived sa Starbucks-P. Noval, pumila na rin ako para bumili. At dahil sa di ako nagsasawa sa chocolate chip cream plus cinnamon swirl na super favorite ko, yun na yung binili ko and dinner na rin, plus yung caramel macchiato ni Tito Juneys. Nung bumili naman si Don, pinagamit ko sa kanya yung planner ko. Buti na lang at mabait yung cashier at nilagay niya sa featured beverage side yung sticker and pati na rin yung kay Rits. Yehey! I'm 4 stickers away for another planner!

Nga pala, nandun din yung SC family ni Pareng Cee ni Dairen including a former Advo staffer and some familiar faces. Di naman naging awkward na andun kami (well, if you know what happened last August, and sa opinions nung Aug ish din, eh mage-gets mo na), pero parang feeling ko lang eh may 2 different forces na andun malapit sa kuta ng mga tigre :))) Any, nung kumpleto na kami, na-HOT SEAT ako bigla bilang pauso ni June Ace. Akala ko naman eh love-life related yung magiging topic (alam naman nating so bad ako sa area na yun). Org-related actually yung usapan and tanungan and kung ano yung nafo-foresee sa mga susunod na months. Medyo chill lang ako sumagot and come what may na lang ---kung ano yung darating eh yun na lang (tinagalog ko lang eh no). Tapos may mga chikahan din kami and tawanan. Parang bitin nga yung pagse-stay namin. Sana napaaga kami ng punta para napahaba yung kwentuhan namin. Though napagastos ako dahil sa katakawan ko sa Starbucks, eh okey lang naman. Nabusog naman ako and masaya kaming nandun. Looking forward for more bonding moments kahit saan man yan. :">

Sabay kami pauwi ni Janice, 1st time lang daw niya umuwi ng ganung oras. Pagdating namin sa kanto ng P. Noval and Dapitan, nakita ko sa may Mamang Taho si Kuya Gryann (maisingit lang) then sumakay na kami ng jeep. Mga 11 na rin ako nakauwi sa bahay :) Pagdating ko, napansin ko na nawawala yung coin purse ko. Sayang yung 80 pesos ko dun ah :| Pero kung kailangan talaga ng tao yung pera, sana binalik na lang niya yung wallet ko, matagal ko ng kasama sa buhay yun eh :( Parang pareho lang din kami ng drama ni JH bilang nakuha ata yung ID niya pero binalik naman. Parang gusto lang ata malaman nung tao yung name ni JH eh. HAHA. :D para-paraan din para malaman yung name eh no, dinadaaan sa pagnanakaw ng ID. Eh sorry naman daw, hopeless. LOL :D Imba pa reply sa message ko na, di na raw siya magpapakulay ng hair, kung magpapakulay man sya, it would be black (plus smiley). HAHA. (okey, ambabaw ko).

So magka-Tweet kami nina Dairen and Cindy. Then binasa ko na rin yung blog nilang dalawa.

Hear my Heart Beat: Ano ba naman yan, parang nauulit lang sayo yung ginagawa ko kay nanay dati na kunwari chill lang ako and everythign will be fine pero yung totoo eh nag-aalala ako. Wag ka munang umalis pwede? Pwedeng sabay na tayo sa April 2013? Mahirap pa sa mga panahong 'to. Alam mo naman na tatatlo na lang tayong gumagalaw and di pa natin maaasahan masyado yung mga pinsan natin. 2 months na lang and makakalasap na rin tayo ng bakasyon (maliban sakin na buong summer na magdu-duty). Hold on, kaya natin to :)

Make Believe/Mixed Signals: Kung san ka masaya, dun din ako :) IDK kung what team ako eh. :P And sa acads and other problems mo, kaya mo yan. Keep smiling and feeling ko naman, napapasaya ka ni Polar Bear at nakakalimutan mo yung problems mo. Push lang ng push! :)))


Time check: 3:23am! Pupunta pa ako ng Novaliches later! :))) Bayie!