Sorry guys, I'm not that good in expressing my thoughts through writing sometimes. I do better in speaking, but beware, my words are like bullets that would easily fire someone down.
When I hate (or dislike, etc) someone, I try to keep it to myself first, thinking that I might have judged him/her wrong. But when I cant take it anymore, I try to belt it out to someone who doesn't have a minute idea about the person I'm talking about. It's not backstabbing, it's just letting anger to diminish.
Recently, I have this small notebook that doesn't seem to contain all my unsaid thoughts for the past weeks. Yes, I'm a talkative person, and every single person knows what I'm thinking since I usually tell it to them, but now, I'm trying to have my thoughts in private.
Some of my entries are all problems, but some are secrets, sudden realizations, or wild thoughts. Haha, I already gave a hint on what's in it! But anyway, why am I blogging this? Because I want people to know that there's still more beyond the real me. I don't mean that I have a devilish alter ego or what, but I am a type of person who thinks deep and yet blows hard.
And to that certain person, don't pretend to know everything. There's still more that you don't even know. Before doing such powerful actions, try to think deep. Just THINK. Open your eyes and explore the world that you think you already know. I do hate disrespect. Respect begets respect, always remember that. And please, dont act like you're innocent, let's face it. Let your mouth do the talking.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Kinda, umm definitely, or maybe certainly
I was actually reading some articles in a known sports website and came across to an article made by an FEU correspondent. Since his article is about FEU (but of course!), I easily clicked to read it. And after that I was satisfied with the infos that I got, but not its composition.
I really have a keen eye on errors and corrections. It's a natural thing since I'm a writer and I need to check mine and our section's articles too. Tito June Ace was the one who taught me about these things, and up to now, I'm still learning from him.
The moment that I read the article all over again, I got to see some redundances, inconsistencies, missed letters and incomplete thoughts. At some point, he's also text speaking (like making "yung" to "ung"). He also didn't follow some basic rules in writing, like hyphens and commas. I was wondering whether his editor checked his work or not, or maybe they just let it that way, showing what the writer has originally typed.
Honestly, I'm kinda, umm definitely, or maybe certainly not happy. I don't require him to ask help from me or from anyone else, but before doing such write-up in a website like that, you need to make sure that every little thing that you put there must be correct. I hope he read some online articles first before he wrote, atleast he has the idea and the technique. I'm not a perfect writer, I have problems with grammar but I still make it to the point that I always read to enhance my writing and correct my errors.
There's still a room for improvements. This may be his first time to make such an article, umm, not really an article, but a kind of blog entry, so I guess I'll just let this pass. Not everyone can be good in 2 skills, someone might be good in reporting rather than writing or vice versa.
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Oh! Another info, I also tried to be a correspondent for that website. Actually, when I auditioned, we were asked to report and make our own script. Unluckily, I was not chosen. Haha, though I'm fond of talking, well, reporting may not be for me. I think, I belong to public speaking or debating. HAHA. And aside from that, my spiel sounds like an article. The last time I made a script for sports reporting was during our Speech class in my sophomore year. But that was a different thing since my script was just plainly a report, not a play-by-play one. Haha, oh! Don't get me wrong guys. :)
I really have a keen eye on errors and corrections. It's a natural thing since I'm a writer and I need to check mine and our section's articles too. Tito June Ace was the one who taught me about these things, and up to now, I'm still learning from him.
The moment that I read the article all over again, I got to see some redundances, inconsistencies, missed letters and incomplete thoughts. At some point, he's also text speaking (like making "yung" to "ung"). He also didn't follow some basic rules in writing, like hyphens and commas. I was wondering whether his editor checked his work or not, or maybe they just let it that way, showing what the writer has originally typed.
Honestly, I'm kinda, umm definitely, or maybe certainly not happy. I don't require him to ask help from me or from anyone else, but before doing such write-up in a website like that, you need to make sure that every little thing that you put there must be correct. I hope he read some online articles first before he wrote, atleast he has the idea and the technique. I'm not a perfect writer, I have problems with grammar but I still make it to the point that I always read to enhance my writing and correct my errors.
There's still a room for improvements. This may be his first time to make such an article, umm, not really an article, but a kind of blog entry, so I guess I'll just let this pass. Not everyone can be good in 2 skills, someone might be good in reporting rather than writing or vice versa.
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Oh! Another info, I also tried to be a correspondent for that website. Actually, when I auditioned, we were asked to report and make our own script. Unluckily, I was not chosen. Haha, though I'm fond of talking, well, reporting may not be for me. I think, I belong to public speaking or debating. HAHA. And aside from that, my spiel sounds like an article. The last time I made a script for sports reporting was during our Speech class in my sophomore year. But that was a different thing since my script was just plainly a report, not a play-by-play one. Haha, oh! Don't get me wrong guys. :)
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Umm, maybe?
I had a dinner last night with two friends whom I missed to bond with. Well actually, we always see each other in school, and almost everyday, haha. We really didn't planned to have a dinner together, but since we're leaving school late already, so we decided to eat in a nearby restaurant.
While waiting for our food, we took a lot pictures since I brought my camera and aside from that, we also reminisced our bondings before. So when our food arrived, friend number 1 served me the food first. And I was like "Aww, thank you! Hey! Pareho kayo ni Tito!", and then he asked why, so I told him that it was Tito who always serves me first. Hahaha. And this friend also did it again when we both asked for another extra rice. Haha.
And then, I remembered what my other girl friends told me, he's just like tito. Umm, well, they maybe a bit different since tito is a "simpatiko" and this friend is a "moody" one (as described by his close friend). Friend number 1 was my teammate last year and I thought I already knew him, but my 2 gf's told me "not that much". Well, they both told me that they had a little crush on friend1, umm, maybe because of how he treats his friends, or how he behaves around a small group of people.
Since I'm a "walang-hiya" kind of person, I immediately asked him if he's the same at home, so he told me "yes" since he's the youngest among the two. His brother usually cooks for them and he's the one who serves for them. And I was like "awww" and shared my own kwento too.
And then again, I came across of overthinking again. I think that Im a kind of person who always take both sides of the story. Haha, that's why Im a journalist, right? Well, to understand a certain thing, you must not hear or see only the side A, you need to consider also side B. I'm not just talking about fairness, its also about understanding for you to interpret certain things accurately. And through this, I think Im already evolving into a Nurse-Psychologist who's really interested on why people react or behave that way. And then I think, nawawala na ako sa topic :)))
Going back, why title Umm, maybe? Well look back, I have a lot of umm maybe parts in this blog. haha :D
While waiting for our food, we took a lot pictures since I brought my camera and aside from that, we also reminisced our bondings before. So when our food arrived, friend number 1 served me the food first. And I was like "Aww, thank you! Hey! Pareho kayo ni Tito!", and then he asked why, so I told him that it was Tito who always serves me first. Hahaha. And this friend also did it again when we both asked for another extra rice. Haha.
And then, I remembered what my other girl friends told me, he's just like tito. Umm, well, they maybe a bit different since tito is a "simpatiko" and this friend is a "moody" one (as described by his close friend). Friend number 1 was my teammate last year and I thought I already knew him, but my 2 gf's told me "not that much". Well, they both told me that they had a little crush on friend1, umm, maybe because of how he treats his friends, or how he behaves around a small group of people.
Since I'm a "walang-hiya" kind of person, I immediately asked him if he's the same at home, so he told me "yes" since he's the youngest among the two. His brother usually cooks for them and he's the one who serves for them. And I was like "awww" and shared my own kwento too.
And then again, I came across of overthinking again. I think that Im a kind of person who always take both sides of the story. Haha, that's why Im a journalist, right? Well, to understand a certain thing, you must not hear or see only the side A, you need to consider also side B. I'm not just talking about fairness, its also about understanding for you to interpret certain things accurately. And through this, I think Im already evolving into a Nurse-Psychologist who's really interested on why people react or behave that way. And then I think, nawawala na ako sa topic :)))
Going back, why title Umm, maybe? Well look back, I have a lot of umm maybe parts in this blog. haha :D
Of disappointments
Last week seemed to be the most disappointing week of my life. Thing didn't go well especially in my academics. Yes, I got zero on my Medical Calculation practical quiz, and got 50 on the other one. I'm afraid that I might have a Revalida before the end of the sem.
What went wrong?
Well actually, I chose to sleep rather than to review. I prioritized my physiological need rather than the other one. I took things too lightly, maybe because I think it's easy. I don't usually fail in our skills lab, which seems to be my forte even before (exclude Health Assessment here). I think, maybe because of the type of practical exam why I failed. Well, I think so. I just need to bounce back next week. I dont wanna be late again or to have a failing grade. I will do my best this time. Swear!
I will also study my lessons on NCA, I will not take it for granted again. I'll prioritize my obligations well.
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Come Friday, everything's changed. I was really enthusiasted in our new concept in NCM which is Communicable Disease. Our professor described herself as a terror teacher, but I dont see her like that. Maybe she just wanted us to do our best and study more in her concept. She did asked a lot of questions during the start of classes, and me being the "best in recitation" kid (hahaha, no doubt!), I always raise my hand and answer her. She gets irritated when everytime she throws new questions, and no one raises their hands, except mine. :)
HAHA. I hope I'll have good grades in her concept :D
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And yes, I missed blogging here!
What went wrong?
Well actually, I chose to sleep rather than to review. I prioritized my physiological need rather than the other one. I took things too lightly, maybe because I think it's easy. I don't usually fail in our skills lab, which seems to be my forte even before (exclude Health Assessment here). I think, maybe because of the type of practical exam why I failed. Well, I think so. I just need to bounce back next week. I dont wanna be late again or to have a failing grade. I will do my best this time. Swear!
I will also study my lessons on NCA, I will not take it for granted again. I'll prioritize my obligations well.
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Come Friday, everything's changed. I was really enthusiasted in our new concept in NCM which is Communicable Disease. Our professor described herself as a terror teacher, but I dont see her like that. Maybe she just wanted us to do our best and study more in her concept. She did asked a lot of questions during the start of classes, and me being the "best in recitation" kid (hahaha, no doubt!), I always raise my hand and answer her. She gets irritated when everytime she throws new questions, and no one raises their hands, except mine. :)
HAHA. I hope I'll have good grades in her concept :D
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And yes, I missed blogging here!
Friday, June 15, 2012
Boys will be BOYS
HAHA. Fine! Usapang boylet to guys :D So 2:40 na sa watch ko at di pa ko natutulog. Napa-blog lang ako kasi gusto kong tumawa. HAHA, wala lang. Deh, gusto ko lang i-document yung mga keme sa buhay ko.
You know me guys, kung ayaw ko sa tao, FRIENDZONED, SIBLINGZONED and worse! STRANGERZONED! So kanina, nagtext sakin yung isang kakilala ko from FEU-FERN na nagco-college ngayon sa Adamson. Bale former Baby Tam sya and teammate nina Mike and Russel before. And another trivia, he also wore jersey #7 before TR. Hahaha. Sa kagustuhan ko mang ilagay dito yung naka-printscreen nyang text, kaso tinatamad na ko. Pinabasa ko na yun kay Ate Reich kanina and tawang-tawa sya.
Nagstart from Hello, Kumusta, hanggang sa paboritong linya ng mga boys na "baka may magalit" and sa punto na "anong gusto mo sa isang lalaki". I just played safe na lang kanina kasi alam ko na yung mga ganung flow ng usapan. HELLO? lahat ng binasted ko nung HS, ganun yung umpisa. Haha. Imma bitch, babe! Tapos nung sinabi ko na NBSB ako, (which is totoo naman), sabi nya sya na lang daw maging boyfriend ko and kemekemekemekeme..... Then may sinabi pa sya na gusto nya ng simple, na kaya mag-sacrifice, na maiintindihan yung pagiging maluho nya, na parang mag-asawa na yung turingan nila and so on.
Juskupo, AMBILIS DRE! Pero wala eh, basted. Sorry! Andami ko pang inexplain sa kanyang keme, na dapat mag-aral muna sya, kasi 4th year na rin sya and focus lang ako sa sarili ko and sa org/studies. May pahabol pa sya na di raw sya gwapo and so on, tapos haha lang reply ko kasi no comment ako. Pa-humble pa ang potek. Yan ang isa sa ayoko eh. Sinabihan ko rin sya na wala syang mapapala sa pagmamadali sa mga ganung bagay. Dapat pinaghihirapan and dapat ineeffort-an yung bawat liligawan (di ko naman sinasabing ako yun kasi wala syang pag-asa sakin OKEY!). Kaso mas naloka ako sa sinabi nya na EXPERT daw sya dun (sa pagkuha ng babae ng mabilisan), kaya nagreply na lang ako ng "Oww, Yun pala yun". HAHAHA.
Galing ko ring bumasa ng lalaki ano. Uy! Basa ko na moves nyo mga tol. Sabi ko tuloy kanina "Lord, di naman ako kakarmahin sa ginawa kong to diba? Tsaka mas okey na tong single ako, atleast masaya naman ako." Haaayh, kailangan talaga nating magdesisyon sa mga bagay-bagay ng mabilisan minsan para di tayo magsisi sa huli.
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Then nitong gabi naman, nagchat sakin si Joshua. Nagkakagulo na naman sila nung GF nya. Seloso pala ampotek. HAHA. Napapa-tengene nga ako eh. Nagjo-joke pa ko nung una kaso sabi nya seryoso daw sya. So ayun, bilang si very dependable friend and best-est love adviser na walang experience, inilabas ko na lahat ng talino ko sa love problem nya. Actually, napaka-petty lang nung problema nya. Sus!
Kasi raw yung gf nya tsaka yung ex-bf nya nagco-comment-an sa FB. Eh eto namang si former keme todo selos. Then, walang cp ngayon si gf kaya hirap sila magcontact. Katatapos nga lang daw nila mag-away tapos may misunderstanding na naman. Edi nanghingi sya ng advice kung bibigyan daw ba nya ng space si girl o hindi. Eh ang sabi ko HINDI, kasi may chances na umextra si ex-bf at matuloy yung iniisip ni Joshua na baka maakipag-break si girl.
Nung first part, medyo tumatawa ako at napapa-"karma's a bitch!" kaso never pa nagpatulong sakin tong si Joshua before sa mga love life nya. And naloka ako kasi sakin pa sya nagtanong eh alam nyang wala akong naging experience sa lovelife (maliban na lang sa mga "almost there" episodes ng buhay ko). Im happy na rin na he appreciated what I've said. Maybe he realized na Im an indispensable friend. He can always ask help lalo na kung kaya ko naman. Di ako after sa paghihiwalay nila (in case na hindi magiging effective yung advise ko) kasi wala rin akong balak na umepal dahil masaya na ako sa estado ko, its just that gusto ko rin na makahanap sya ng matinong lovelife nya. Im happy na rin with Michael kasi na-beat nya yung distance nilang mag-jowa and whenever we talk, feel kong masaya sya. From a certified chickboy, nagbago na rin si BFF #3 :)
Ewan ko kung naiisip lang ako ni Joshua ngayon dahil may problema sya pero wafakels, okey lang yun. Role ko naman as a friend yun diba? Well, im an effective friend naman eh. May mapipiga ka pa rin sa utak ko kahit wala ka ng maisip at ubos na yung CSF mo :)))
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Bilang boys ang topic nung blog ko, naalala ko yung sinabi ng tita ko sakin. Bale kausap nya yung pinsan ko na 1st year ngayon sa IN (idol daw ako nung pinsan ko and ako raw yung example nila, hihi). Sabi nya kay Joy (pinsan ko) "Tignan mo si Ate Lhea mo, malapit na syang gumraduate, parang kelan lang diba? Gayahin mo sya na focus lang sa studies nya. Alam mo naman na busy din yan sa writing nya pero kaya pa rin nya. May mga crush-crush din yan si Ate mo, and may mga nagkakagusto rin sa kanya o nanliligaw pero di nya iniisip yun, kita mo wala pa rin syang boyfriend ngayon kasi yung pag-aaral lang nya iniisip nya. Edi tuloy walang problema sina Papa, Lola and Mommy nya sa kanya".
halos pumalakpak yung tenga ko sa mga narinig ko kay Tita eh. Sinabi ko naman na NBSB ako and may mga kina-career din ako kaso di sya umaabot sa punto na pati studies ko apektado. Never pa naman nangyari na bumaba grades ko pag may keme ako, TUMATAAS pa nga eh. Kaso pag heartbroken ako, LAGOT ka, parang blood pressure na shumu-SHOOT UP yung grades ko. HAHA. Kahit paano, maganda naman yung epekto sakin. Ever since High school. HAHA. Pero mas effective pa rin pag walang jowa, atleast walang problema.
Iniisip ko, mabenta ata ako pag 1st sem. CHAROT! Or pag final year ko. Ewan ko nga kung bakit eh. hahaha. Di pwedeng wala akong keme. Pero meron naman, crush lang naman eh, INSPIRASYON :)
O sya, matutulog na ko. May sports meeting pa kami mamaya tapos hahagilapin pa namin yung thesis adviser namin.
GOOD NEWS! Baka wala na kaming lecture keme sa thesis! YEAHBAAAH! :)
You know me guys, kung ayaw ko sa tao, FRIENDZONED, SIBLINGZONED and worse! STRANGERZONED! So kanina, nagtext sakin yung isang kakilala ko from FEU-FERN na nagco-college ngayon sa Adamson. Bale former Baby Tam sya and teammate nina Mike and Russel before. And another trivia, he also wore jersey #7 before TR. Hahaha. Sa kagustuhan ko mang ilagay dito yung naka-printscreen nyang text, kaso tinatamad na ko. Pinabasa ko na yun kay Ate Reich kanina and tawang-tawa sya.
Nagstart from Hello, Kumusta, hanggang sa paboritong linya ng mga boys na "baka may magalit" and sa punto na "anong gusto mo sa isang lalaki". I just played safe na lang kanina kasi alam ko na yung mga ganung flow ng usapan. HELLO? lahat ng binasted ko nung HS, ganun yung umpisa. Haha. Imma bitch, babe! Tapos nung sinabi ko na NBSB ako, (which is totoo naman), sabi nya sya na lang daw maging boyfriend ko and kemekemekemekeme..... Then may sinabi pa sya na gusto nya ng simple, na kaya mag-sacrifice, na maiintindihan yung pagiging maluho nya, na parang mag-asawa na yung turingan nila and so on.
Juskupo, AMBILIS DRE! Pero wala eh, basted. Sorry! Andami ko pang inexplain sa kanyang keme, na dapat mag-aral muna sya, kasi 4th year na rin sya and focus lang ako sa sarili ko and sa org/studies. May pahabol pa sya na di raw sya gwapo and so on, tapos haha lang reply ko kasi no comment ako. Pa-humble pa ang potek. Yan ang isa sa ayoko eh. Sinabihan ko rin sya na wala syang mapapala sa pagmamadali sa mga ganung bagay. Dapat pinaghihirapan and dapat ineeffort-an yung bawat liligawan (di ko naman sinasabing ako yun kasi wala syang pag-asa sakin OKEY!). Kaso mas naloka ako sa sinabi nya na EXPERT daw sya dun (sa pagkuha ng babae ng mabilisan), kaya nagreply na lang ako ng "Oww, Yun pala yun". HAHAHA.
Galing ko ring bumasa ng lalaki ano. Uy! Basa ko na moves nyo mga tol. Sabi ko tuloy kanina "Lord, di naman ako kakarmahin sa ginawa kong to diba? Tsaka mas okey na tong single ako, atleast masaya naman ako." Haaayh, kailangan talaga nating magdesisyon sa mga bagay-bagay ng mabilisan minsan para di tayo magsisi sa huli.
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Then nitong gabi naman, nagchat sakin si Joshua. Nagkakagulo na naman sila nung GF nya. Seloso pala ampotek. HAHA. Napapa-tengene nga ako eh. Nagjo-joke pa ko nung una kaso sabi nya seryoso daw sya. So ayun, bilang si very dependable friend and best-est love adviser na walang experience, inilabas ko na lahat ng talino ko sa love problem nya. Actually, napaka-petty lang nung problema nya. Sus!
Kasi raw yung gf nya tsaka yung ex-bf nya nagco-comment-an sa FB. Eh eto namang si former keme todo selos. Then, walang cp ngayon si gf kaya hirap sila magcontact. Katatapos nga lang daw nila mag-away tapos may misunderstanding na naman. Edi nanghingi sya ng advice kung bibigyan daw ba nya ng space si girl o hindi. Eh ang sabi ko HINDI, kasi may chances na umextra si ex-bf at matuloy yung iniisip ni Joshua na baka maakipag-break si girl.
Nung first part, medyo tumatawa ako at napapa-"karma's a bitch!" kaso never pa nagpatulong sakin tong si Joshua before sa mga love life nya. And naloka ako kasi sakin pa sya nagtanong eh alam nyang wala akong naging experience sa lovelife (maliban na lang sa mga "almost there" episodes ng buhay ko). Im happy na rin na he appreciated what I've said. Maybe he realized na Im an indispensable friend. He can always ask help lalo na kung kaya ko naman. Di ako after sa paghihiwalay nila (in case na hindi magiging effective yung advise ko) kasi wala rin akong balak na umepal dahil masaya na ako sa estado ko, its just that gusto ko rin na makahanap sya ng matinong lovelife nya. Im happy na rin with Michael kasi na-beat nya yung distance nilang mag-jowa and whenever we talk, feel kong masaya sya. From a certified chickboy, nagbago na rin si BFF #3 :)
Ewan ko kung naiisip lang ako ni Joshua ngayon dahil may problema sya pero wafakels, okey lang yun. Role ko naman as a friend yun diba? Well, im an effective friend naman eh. May mapipiga ka pa rin sa utak ko kahit wala ka ng maisip at ubos na yung CSF mo :)))
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Bilang boys ang topic nung blog ko, naalala ko yung sinabi ng tita ko sakin. Bale kausap nya yung pinsan ko na 1st year ngayon sa IN (idol daw ako nung pinsan ko and ako raw yung example nila, hihi). Sabi nya kay Joy (pinsan ko) "Tignan mo si Ate Lhea mo, malapit na syang gumraduate, parang kelan lang diba? Gayahin mo sya na focus lang sa studies nya. Alam mo naman na busy din yan sa writing nya pero kaya pa rin nya. May mga crush-crush din yan si Ate mo, and may mga nagkakagusto rin sa kanya o nanliligaw pero di nya iniisip yun, kita mo wala pa rin syang boyfriend ngayon kasi yung pag-aaral lang nya iniisip nya. Edi tuloy walang problema sina Papa, Lola and Mommy nya sa kanya".
halos pumalakpak yung tenga ko sa mga narinig ko kay Tita eh. Sinabi ko naman na NBSB ako and may mga kina-career din ako kaso di sya umaabot sa punto na pati studies ko apektado. Never pa naman nangyari na bumaba grades ko pag may keme ako, TUMATAAS pa nga eh. Kaso pag heartbroken ako, LAGOT ka, parang blood pressure na shumu-SHOOT UP yung grades ko. HAHA. Kahit paano, maganda naman yung epekto sakin. Ever since High school. HAHA. Pero mas effective pa rin pag walang jowa, atleast walang problema.
Iniisip ko, mabenta ata ako pag 1st sem. CHAROT! Or pag final year ko. Ewan ko nga kung bakit eh. hahaha. Di pwedeng wala akong keme. Pero meron naman, crush lang naman eh, INSPIRASYON :)
O sya, matutulog na ko. May sports meeting pa kami mamaya tapos hahagilapin pa namin yung thesis adviser namin.
GOOD NEWS! Baka wala na kaming lecture keme sa thesis! YEAHBAAAH! :)
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Mema 2
So everyday, talagang tinitignan ko yung stats ng blog ko. HAHA, paboritong basahin yung FYI post ko. Creepy ulit, sana walang magsabi kay Mark nung blog ko. HUHU. Pero mostly eh Joshua-related naman yung mga posts ko (syempre yung dati), pero okey lang na mabasa nya, para informed naman sya sa mga pinagdaanan ko dati. Charot.
Yun lang :) Mema lang :))))
Yun lang :) Mema lang :))))
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Use the word SANA in a sentence
These past few days, puro guys ang mga nakakasama ko, either sa school or sa bahay. Since nasa apartment sina Tito, Kuya Jay and Kuya Jade (Kuya Jay's classmate), sila ang nakakausap ko ng madalas.
Any, lagi naming napagkkwentuhan nina Kuya yung mga tipo namin. And honestly, parehong gusto nila ang mga mahihinhin, sweet at yung ka-opposite ko. HAHA. Sad but true. Tinatanong ko sila kung bakit ganun ang gusto nila (well, mahihiya pa ba ako sa kanila?), kahit sila di nila maexplain.
Yes, di ako malambing, sweet, tahimik, simple, and kung ano pa man. Feeling ko tuloy, "friend" material lang talaga ako. The forever friend, sister, adviser, ate, etc. Naisip ko, "hey! wala ba talagang nagkakagusto sakin kahit minsan?". Sorry, naiisip ko talaga yan. Do I sound desperada na ba? Di naman sa ganun. Di naman ako nagmamadali eh. The thought of being unattractive yung pumapasok sa utak ko. Parang ganun, yet I dont feel insecured sa ibang tao dahil naniniwala akong may kanya-kanya kaming ugali.
I have this friend na ka-age ko lang na laging nag-gGM. And nabanggit niya sa GM niya kanina na "Wala ng babaeng sweet, mabait, at paggising sa umaga ako agad ang itetext". Napagtanto ko na, eksaktong hindi talaga ako yun, di ko ugali yun. Kahit nung mga kapanahunan ni Joshua, super bihira ko syang tinetext ng good morning, at di rin ako sweet, minsan bini-bitch ko rin sya. Di pala talaga ako isang ideal girl material indeed.
May mga rants din akong naririnig mula sa mga guys pag pinag-uusapan nila ang mga babae. Sabi nung friend ko na I consider as a younger brother, parang di raw naapreciate ng mga babae yung mga efforts nila. Kahit ako di ko maeexplain yun. HAHA, speechless na ako dun.
So parang... ewan, basta ang gulo! Sabi nga nila, dapat daw eh maging sweet na raw ako mula ngayon. Ek? Di bagay sakin maging sweet! I have this tough girl-slash-jologs-kenkoy-sophisticated-strict looks and attitude. So it really doesn't match. Di rin ako mahinhin, kasi di bagay sa isang nurse maging mahinhin. HELLO! Emergency case, MAHINHIN pa ako? Eh sa buong nursing life ko puro TOXIC pasyente ko and I dont have time to practice those mahinhin walks and practices, chos. At ang pinaka, DI AKO TAHIMIK. Pinanganak akong madaldal and no one could ever change me to be tahimik.
In short, wala talaga, I dont really suit to a normal guy. Pero sana naman eh may kumaya sa personality ko. May nakapagsabi sakin dati (i forgot already) na "You have that strong personality na mismong mga lalaki eh maiintimidate sayo. They see you as an established person already. They cant beat or even match you kasi para ka ng great wall of china sa pagiging matatag". In a serious tone, am I that INTIMIDATING? Accomodating naman ako ah. I have few guy friends ngayong college and most of them are from Advo. Sa klase naman, yung mga groupmates ko lang but be weren't that close that I even tell them the whole story, yung mga bagay lang which concerns within the group or in our course lang.
--Narecover ko lang to sa drafts ko. Nung april pa ata to eh :D
Any, lagi naming napagkkwentuhan nina Kuya yung mga tipo namin. And honestly, parehong gusto nila ang mga mahihinhin, sweet at yung ka-opposite ko. HAHA. Sad but true. Tinatanong ko sila kung bakit ganun ang gusto nila (well, mahihiya pa ba ako sa kanila?), kahit sila di nila maexplain.
Yes, di ako malambing, sweet, tahimik, simple, and kung ano pa man. Feeling ko tuloy, "friend" material lang talaga ako. The forever friend, sister, adviser, ate, etc. Naisip ko, "hey! wala ba talagang nagkakagusto sakin kahit minsan?". Sorry, naiisip ko talaga yan. Do I sound desperada na ba? Di naman sa ganun. Di naman ako nagmamadali eh. The thought of being unattractive yung pumapasok sa utak ko. Parang ganun, yet I dont feel insecured sa ibang tao dahil naniniwala akong may kanya-kanya kaming ugali.
I have this friend na ka-age ko lang na laging nag-gGM. And nabanggit niya sa GM niya kanina na "Wala ng babaeng sweet, mabait, at paggising sa umaga ako agad ang itetext". Napagtanto ko na, eksaktong hindi talaga ako yun, di ko ugali yun. Kahit nung mga kapanahunan ni Joshua, super bihira ko syang tinetext ng good morning, at di rin ako sweet, minsan bini-bitch ko rin sya. Di pala talaga ako isang ideal girl material indeed.
May mga rants din akong naririnig mula sa mga guys pag pinag-uusapan nila ang mga babae. Sabi nung friend ko na I consider as a younger brother, parang di raw naapreciate ng mga babae yung mga efforts nila. Kahit ako di ko maeexplain yun. HAHA, speechless na ako dun.
So parang... ewan, basta ang gulo! Sabi nga nila, dapat daw eh maging sweet na raw ako mula ngayon. Ek? Di bagay sakin maging sweet! I have this tough girl-slash-jologs-kenkoy-sophisticated-strict looks and attitude. So it really doesn't match. Di rin ako mahinhin, kasi di bagay sa isang nurse maging mahinhin. HELLO! Emergency case, MAHINHIN pa ako? Eh sa buong nursing life ko puro TOXIC pasyente ko and I dont have time to practice those mahinhin walks and practices, chos. At ang pinaka, DI AKO TAHIMIK. Pinanganak akong madaldal and no one could ever change me to be tahimik.
In short, wala talaga, I dont really suit to a normal guy. Pero sana naman eh may kumaya sa personality ko. May nakapagsabi sakin dati (i forgot already) na "You have that strong personality na mismong mga lalaki eh maiintimidate sayo. They see you as an established person already. They cant beat or even match you kasi para ka ng great wall of china sa pagiging matatag". In a serious tone, am I that INTIMIDATING? Accomodating naman ako ah. I have few guy friends ngayong college and most of them are from Advo. Sa klase naman, yung mga groupmates ko lang but be weren't that close that I even tell them the whole story, yung mga bagay lang which concerns within the group or in our course lang.
--Narecover ko lang to sa drafts ko. Nung april pa ata to eh :D
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