Kung kelan matutulog na ko, dun na naman ako nagka-urge mag-blog. Anyway, fast post lang kasi ayokong ma-BV til tomorrow and I still have a lot of work to do.
I hate myself for having this awkward feeling sa taong super dalas ko kasama. Well, he already knows about "it", so since kanina yung 1st time na nagkita kami ngayong pasukan, nagaganap na naman yung peg ko nung November na "walang-pansinan-kasi-wala-naman-akong-sasabihin" or yung "so-ano-naman-kung-andyan-ka?-so-kelangan-may-sasabihin-ako?". Ayan na naman tayo sa pride or pagiging overthinker ko. HAHA, kaya natalo kami sa Advolympics kasi masyado kaming nag-iisip sa isang petty na bagay. Moving on, pinansin ko lang sya dun sa haircut nya (MADAYA!), tapos after nun, puro indirect convo na.
Feeling ko nagiging scripted na galaw ko. Im too conscious of my actions. Hello? may huhuli ba sakin kung tatawa ako ng malakas? Since di ko na rin gusto yung ganap eh kinausap ko na si Don at inaya ko sya sa quad. Isang factor kaya nagiging awkward ako ay dahil sa pang-aasar nung mga kasamahan ko. It's okay na magloko-loko pero wag naman yung andyan yung tao. Tama si Don na kapag over na, kelangan eh kausapin mo na yung taong concerned para matapos na. Im not comfortable anymore. And besides, since he knows about it, baka may maisip sya. Ugh, im overthinking again! Stop it Lhea.
Pwede pang lumala tong awkwardness sa loob ko since I wont be seen in action sa school for almost 5 days. Asa school lang ako every Wed (free day nya) and Thursday (6pm naman labas nya). So wala talaga akong oras to fix this awkwardness. Ayokong mauwi sa impaired friendship to, pero.... Ugh, ang hirap ikwento dito sa blog eh. BASTA!
Friday, January 4, 2013
Monday, December 31, 2012
Page 1 of 365 1/4 days
Lakas mang-inggit nung 2 classmates ko (well both close friends din), eh di sila na sweet. :P
Moving on, di pa ko makatulog sa sobrang busog. Well mabuti na to kesa last year. Last year, may trangkaso ako nung New Year's eve at di man lang ako kumain nung Media Noche. Ang malala, may sore throat pa ko. Watta loser. Andami kong namimiss actually eh, gaya nung pagpe-prepare namin ni nanay ng mga lulutuin pati na yung kukumpletuhin naming 13 fruits. Then pati na yung pagsisimba namin tapos bago yung damit ko, tsaka pag-uwi andaming handa. May mga family friends din kaming bumibisita and nakiki-Media Noche. Pati na rin yung pagtambay namin sa labas ng bahay and manunuod ng fireworks. Hay, nakakamiss lang. ;|
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Tik Tok
It's the last day of 2012 and feeling ko wala akong nagawang productive during the break. Tulog-kain-gala-internet lang ata ginawa ko. Ayun, I'm planning to make a year-end post kaso tinatamad pa ko and I can't organize my thoughts well. Medyo nakalimutan ko na rin yung mga ganap ng 1st half ng 2012.
May mga bagay na di nangyayari gaya ng inaasahan natin. May iba rin nana di mo aakalaing may ganung mangyayari pala. May mga taong darating at aalis din. Kung sakin lang, parang wala namang nangyaring super special ngayong 2012. Maliban na lang siguro dun sa mga near life and death na ganap ko sa buhay (di yung nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan ha!), pero habang nagsusulat ako at iniisa-isa yung mga alaala ko, andami ko rin palang natutunan, at nagawang kabulastugan. Ika nga nila, it's just a part of growing up.
Ang tanda ko na pala. Dati rati, di ko alam kung anong susunod sa 2009 (akala ko 20010, 20011), tapos di ko rin maimagine na college na ko. Feeling ko tuloy di ako nagmamature, isip bata pa rin ata ako. Lalo na kapag kasama ko mga HS classmates ko, feeling ko talaga di ako nag-iisa na na-stuck sa pagkabata.
Last week ko pa iniisip kung pano ko gagawin yung year-end keme ko, pati si JH eh naisipan ding gumawa ng ganun. Seryoso, walang kakwenta-kwenta na naman tong post ko na to. Basta may maipost lang ng December 31. Uhh, miss ko na sina Nanay and Lola. :(
May mga bagay na di nangyayari gaya ng inaasahan natin. May iba rin nana di mo aakalaing may ganung mangyayari pala. May mga taong darating at aalis din. Kung sakin lang, parang wala namang nangyaring super special ngayong 2012. Maliban na lang siguro dun sa mga near life and death na ganap ko sa buhay (di yung nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan ha!), pero habang nagsusulat ako at iniisa-isa yung mga alaala ko, andami ko rin palang natutunan, at nagawang kabulastugan. Ika nga nila, it's just a part of growing up.
Ang tanda ko na pala. Dati rati, di ko alam kung anong susunod sa 2009 (akala ko 20010, 20011), tapos di ko rin maimagine na college na ko. Feeling ko tuloy di ako nagmamature, isip bata pa rin ata ako. Lalo na kapag kasama ko mga HS classmates ko, feeling ko talaga di ako nag-iisa na na-stuck sa pagkabata.
Last week ko pa iniisip kung pano ko gagawin yung year-end keme ko, pati si JH eh naisipan ding gumawa ng ganun. Seryoso, walang kakwenta-kwenta na naman tong post ko na to. Basta may maipost lang ng December 31. Uhh, miss ko na sina Nanay and Lola. :(
Monday, December 24, 2012
Holiday rundown
Since isa akong napakalaking tamad, iso-sort ko nalang yung topics keme dito :))
Acads:
Seryoso, nakakapagod! Partida 1 month and 1/2 pa lang yan? Buti na lang may Christmas break! Sana may Valentines Day break din! :)
Advo Christmas Party:
Seryoso, sa byahe ako super napagod. Papunta and pauwi, grabe yung dinanas ko (exagge yung grabe ha!). Maria Clara-Morayta-Ortigas-Buendia-Pansol. tapos nagtext si Joshua na sa Morayta daw sya. Malas naman, nagkita pa sana kami. Kaso nakakainis, nagpapaload sakin? Wow, ano kami? Magjowa? Ngek! fast forward! Sa byahe, di ako ma-kalma kasi gagabihin na ako then wala pa akong nabibiling food. Good thing eh updated ako sa ganap ni JH kaya sya na lang inutusan ko. Tapos nung di sya makontak ng madla, ako pa tumatawag. Haynako, call center na akez. Super forward! Pagdating sa venue, medyo nahirapan ako mag-blend sa mga tao. Ewan ko ba? Since may nararamdaman ako sa katawan ko, hormonal imbalance to malamang. Buti na lang eh di ako nag-iisa sa pakiramdam na yun at nag-bonding kami ni Pinsan Marione sa rooftop. Pagbaba namin, wala ng food. Kdie. Halos di ako makasingit as videoke, pila-pila eh.
Tapos nung may inuman na, uminom na ko para lang may magawa ako sa buhay ko. Lame. Nung games na, ayun nagkandahilo-hilo ako. Tapos may games din samin na outgoing na super tagal kaya inabot kami ng madaling araw. Tss. So ayun nga, nag-swimming na lang ako after with Cindy and Sports tapos may pare-pare session na naman dun sa gilid pero di na ko sumali. Grabe, para akong biik na hinahatak papunta dun kaso ayoko. Hello? Tinatanong pa ba yun? Ayoko sumali kasi andun si JH. Eh baka sabunin ako. Pag minamalas ka nga nman, ako pa unang challenge. Iki-kiss daw ako ni JH. SERYOSO KAYO? Eh syempre conservative ako kaya ayoko. Eh pano kung na-push yun? Jusko, baka nilunod ko na sarili ko on the spot. Pinuntahan pa nya ako sa kinauupuan ko ha. He knows me very well, syempre bilang andami ko na naikwento sa kanya. Kaya nung sinabi ko na "No, JH. You know me", di na nya tinuloy. Pero seryoso number2, iba yung tono ng pagkakasabi nya ng "game".
Juskupo! Moving on, tinanong ako ni Cindy kung okey lang ako. Well, wala naman akong problema, sanay na ko pag may kalokohan ang barkada kaya napagpapasensyahan. Pero si JH syempre iniisip ko kaya kinausap ko sya. Chill lang naman na usapan, tropa-tropa. Di nga lang napatagal kasi kinorner sya ni Cielo at hanggang nag-inuman na sila hanggang umaga. Samantalang ako, bantay sarado ni Cindy. HAHA. Syempre 19 pa lang ako tapos 21 na sya, halos papasa na syang guardian maliban sa editor ko :))
Nung umaga na, certified bangenge na sya. HAHA. Ume-english na eh tapos iba-iba na facial expressions nya. Nakakatuwa lang. Haha. Naloka ako nung sinabi nya na "Lhea, kakanta pa tayo ng boyband!". naalala pa nya yun? Eh tagal na namin napag-usapan yun ha. Tapos meron pang "Kita mo, kahit lasing na ko nakakanta ko pa yan ng maayos", "Ngayon lang ako nalasing ulit after 1st year", "Aware pa naman ako sa mga ginagawa ko", "Masaya naman. Bawal ba maging masaya?" :)
Nag-split na kami nung maliligo na sya at maliligo na rin ako. After nun, dumiretso ako sa kubo para manuod ng Inuyasha tapos nakatulog ako habang nakasandal si pinsan Marione. Nung nagising ako, andun na si Cindy then lumipat na ko sa girls room with pamangkin Aaron. Paggising ko, exchange gift na! Eh naiwan ko pala yung regalo ko kay Marione! FAIL! :P Binigay ko na rin gift ko kay Cindy and Sports boys. Umakyat kaming lahat sa rooftop then picture na with the whole advo. 30 pala kami eksakto! Nung medyo nagkakagulo ang people, binigay ko na yung gift. Ayun, masaya naman sya. tapos may picture pa kami na parang bigayan lang ng diploma! HAHAHA.
Nung umalis na yung 1st batch, tumambay muna ako sa may billiards (2nd floor) then nag-videoke with Buts and Jerome. Nung huli, magka-duet na kami ni JH plus rap session pa. Moving on, umuwi na yung 2nd batch then gumala pa kami ng calamba. As usual, kami na naman magkasama. then picture picture dun sa bantayog ni Rizal then SM Calamba. Dami na naman naming napag-usapan pati na mga cake. Since matagal ang food sa chowking, pumila kami para sa cake. Tapos nung pauwi, hinatid nya kami sa sakayan ng bus. Then 2 hours byahe namin. Nakatulog na ko ha, tapos nagising ako, Makati na. tapos nag-jeep pa kami ni rogie. KFINE.
Christmas Shopping
Anlaki ng gastos ko SWEAR! Aabot ata sa 5K. Tepok ako neto. Kaya namumuhay ako ng tipid after christmas. HAHA
Christmas Gala.
Ilang beses na rin ako gumala. Una with Ate Reich, Don, Janice then Bro Franz. Di na ko napagod eh no.
Advices.
Puro love lang naman inaadvice sakin eh. Isa raw akong napakalaking bobo. Sabi nga ni Catherine "matalino ka nga sa academics, bobo ka naman sa love". HAHAHA. Thank you friends! :P Since super vinavalue ko ang sinasabi ng ibang tao, parang gusto ko na gumawa ng aklat. HAHA. Syempre iba pa rin pag may advices. Mahirap maging impulsive, dapat pinag-iisipan lahat ng bagay.
Reminiscing Christmas with Lola and Nanay.
Miss ko na sila. Miss ko na yung simpleng Nochue Buena namin. Magsisimba, tapos uuwi ng bahay na may pancit, sinakol, suman and cake. tapos anlamig pa ng simoy ng hangin. Aww. naiiyak ako. Di na mauulit yun kahit kelan. Naiinggit ako sa mga bata na kasama pa nila nanay nila, sana i-treasure nila yung mga moments na magkakasama sila kasi di mo alam kung hanggang kelan kayo magkasama. Partida super tinreasure ko moments namin pero ang hirap pa rin pala.
OC attack.
Since 2 na lang kami ni Ate, malinis na ang bahay. Yuhooo! :D
Katamaran
Di ako pumunta kina Tita Flor. Tinamad ako eh!
----Di man lang pala ako nakapagsimba -_____-
Sunday, December 16, 2012
On decisions, parenting, and trust
I come up of making this blog post because of Cindy's recent column in FEU Advocate. But take note, this aint a hate post to the writer but I'll be tackling a certain topic that was mentioned there. So to understand what Im talking about, kindly read Cindy's column, okey? :)
Her column was about our school's high school superstar who's reported to change his colors from green-and-gold to blue and white. Well, if you're familiar to UAAP, you'll probably get this. The kid actually expressed earlier that he would like to stay with FEU because of "loyalty" then few weeks later, a news erupted that he's set to change his path from Morayta to Loyola. At first (well up to now) I don't believe those reports that he's Katipunan-bound. I was like "Hello? I cant imagine him wearing those colors. And besides, it's just an issue!" The next day, his dad told the media that his son is set to play for his current's school rival for college. Few reports have circulated and then the kid already opened his side and said that he has to make a decision, and beside's he's still in high school.
Bottomline, parent's decision vs son's decision. Based on Cindy's column "It was reported that he had already signed a contract with our University but then again, another deal was made by his father, who actually has the right to do it since his son is not yet 18 years old." If I were JMP (the kid), I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided. Sorry if it sounds rebellious but his father must respect on what JMP wants. Yes, he's just 17 years old and still a minor, but it doesn't mean that he would be taking over his son's decision especially in his career. Even a 6-year-old kid already knows what he wanted to be in the future, why can't he trust his son who will be turning 18 soon? Am I to diagnose them with Impaired Parenting? Just kidding. Sorry for making this a big issue but I can't let this pass. Where's the freedom here? (Im talking about freedom in having what you want in life) If I were JMP, I would stand for what I want. Later on, I might regret for letting the chance to slip away on my hands. Let's face it, JMP will be in a win-win situation. He'll be a part of the country's top university and well known basketball team, then who knows? He might be knows as this generation's superstar. But in his high school alma mater, he'll be remembered as someone who doesn't keep his words and a person who doesn't know what loyalty is.
At an early age, kids must be involved in family's decision making though it's just a petty matter or not. In this case, kids can practice how to man their lives and speak up their mind to their parents, as well as developing their mental maturity. I admit that I was raised as someone like this. At 5, my grandma asked me about the new boarding house that she wants to put up, and I said yes. So after that, I gave her reasons why it is a big yes for me. And as the time goes on, Lola- together with Nanay, Mommy and even my Dad- always ask me about my stand about a certain issue and my reaction on their decisions. Well Im proud that they do consider my point and respect it wholeheartedly. Their trust in me we're immeasurable. Maybe because I turned out to be a young woman who knows what she wants, what she stands and believes in, and someone who'll kick every bad people's butts if they'll plan to mess up with the things I planned. In return to what I did for them, they support me all the way because they know that I know what is right for me. They still do their obligations as parents-- to remind me about the things that I might have forgot and continue to empower me whenever I feel down. I hope that all parents were like them. I might not have the perfect family, but I have the perfect people who raised me as a complete person. Take note, all my life, Mommy and Papa we're not by my side while growing up, but still, they have a large percentage when it comes to parenting. It was Nanay and Lola who mainly supervised me all the way.
Sometimes, we have to be rebellious when our 'rents we're holding our necks too tight. We're not dogs, we're humans, and we have our own will. As children, don't be afraid to speak out your mind, who knows, you have the best-est decision that your parents haven't heard in their whole life. Yes, be positive! Your parents won't eat you alive when you have to utter something. No matter what, it's our parents' obligation to stick with us through good and difficult times then give the proper guidance we need. "Proper guidance." They don't have to declare Martial Law anyway. They will give us the understanding and the support that they need. As their children, we must give back to them, like respecting and loving them, be a good son/daughter, do well in school (and in life too!), and demonstrate to them that we're capable in standing up to our decisions. For me, the greatest tool for a harmonious relationship of parents and children is communication. Okay, you can supply the most appropriate adjective for communication :P I mean, how will the two parties know about each others' wants if they wont talk and communicate? Makes sense right? So going back to my argument in the second paragraph that "I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided," I will still stick to it. But, before my dad do it, we must talk about it hundreds of times, but if we won't agree to what I have decided, I'll do everything to convince him and lay his 1000% support before I let him speak for me.
Sorry again for being such a weird thinker, I just want to express my thoughts here. We're born free and we are the highest form of animals, so why they suppress us? Not a rebellious daughter here, just a free and modern day thinker ;)
Her column was about our school's high school superstar who's reported to change his colors from green-and-gold to blue and white. Well, if you're familiar to UAAP, you'll probably get this. The kid actually expressed earlier that he would like to stay with FEU because of "loyalty" then few weeks later, a news erupted that he's set to change his path from Morayta to Loyola. At first (well up to now) I don't believe those reports that he's Katipunan-bound. I was like "Hello? I cant imagine him wearing those colors. And besides, it's just an issue!" The next day, his dad told the media that his son is set to play for his current's school rival for college. Few reports have circulated and then the kid already opened his side and said that he has to make a decision, and beside's he's still in high school.
Bottomline, parent's decision vs son's decision. Based on Cindy's column "It was reported that he had already signed a contract with our University but then again, another deal was made by his father, who actually has the right to do it since his son is not yet 18 years old." If I were JMP (the kid), I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided. Sorry if it sounds rebellious but his father must respect on what JMP wants. Yes, he's just 17 years old and still a minor, but it doesn't mean that he would be taking over his son's decision especially in his career. Even a 6-year-old kid already knows what he wanted to be in the future, why can't he trust his son who will be turning 18 soon? Am I to diagnose them with Impaired Parenting? Just kidding. Sorry for making this a big issue but I can't let this pass. Where's the freedom here? (Im talking about freedom in having what you want in life) If I were JMP, I would stand for what I want. Later on, I might regret for letting the chance to slip away on my hands. Let's face it, JMP will be in a win-win situation. He'll be a part of the country's top university and well known basketball team, then who knows? He might be knows as this generation's superstar. But in his high school alma mater, he'll be remembered as someone who doesn't keep his words and a person who doesn't know what loyalty is.
At an early age, kids must be involved in family's decision making though it's just a petty matter or not. In this case, kids can practice how to man their lives and speak up their mind to their parents, as well as developing their mental maturity. I admit that I was raised as someone like this. At 5, my grandma asked me about the new boarding house that she wants to put up, and I said yes. So after that, I gave her reasons why it is a big yes for me. And as the time goes on, Lola- together with Nanay, Mommy and even my Dad- always ask me about my stand about a certain issue and my reaction on their decisions. Well Im proud that they do consider my point and respect it wholeheartedly. Their trust in me we're immeasurable. Maybe because I turned out to be a young woman who knows what she wants, what she stands and believes in, and someone who'll kick every bad people's butts if they'll plan to mess up with the things I planned. In return to what I did for them, they support me all the way because they know that I know what is right for me. They still do their obligations as parents-- to remind me about the things that I might have forgot and continue to empower me whenever I feel down. I hope that all parents were like them. I might not have the perfect family, but I have the perfect people who raised me as a complete person. Take note, all my life, Mommy and Papa we're not by my side while growing up, but still, they have a large percentage when it comes to parenting. It was Nanay and Lola who mainly supervised me all the way.
Sometimes, we have to be rebellious when our 'rents we're holding our necks too tight. We're not dogs, we're humans, and we have our own will. As children, don't be afraid to speak out your mind, who knows, you have the best-est decision that your parents haven't heard in their whole life. Yes, be positive! Your parents won't eat you alive when you have to utter something. No matter what, it's our parents' obligation to stick with us through good and difficult times then give the proper guidance we need. "Proper guidance." They don't have to declare Martial Law anyway. They will give us the understanding and the support that they need. As their children, we must give back to them, like respecting and loving them, be a good son/daughter, do well in school (and in life too!), and demonstrate to them that we're capable in standing up to our decisions. For me, the greatest tool for a harmonious relationship of parents and children is communication. Okay, you can supply the most appropriate adjective for communication :P I mean, how will the two parties know about each others' wants if they wont talk and communicate? Makes sense right? So going back to my argument in the second paragraph that "I wouldn't let my dad speak in my behalf it would be different on what I have said or earlier decided," I will still stick to it. But, before my dad do it, we must talk about it hundreds of times, but if we won't agree to what I have decided, I'll do everything to convince him and lay his 1000% support before I let him speak for me.
Sorry again for being such a weird thinker, I just want to express my thoughts here. We're born free and we are the highest form of animals, so why they suppress us? Not a rebellious daughter here, just a free and modern day thinker ;)
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Go for it
"Go for it" na siguro ang pinaka-overused na sinasabi sakin ng mga friends ko. Well, pagdating sa lovelife ang kaso.
So this blog knows everything when it comes to my love-este-crush life. Yeah, I actually like someone from my org, and you guys already know who he is. We're actually close buds and we share each others' secrets and other stuffs.
Recently, he posted a status in his Facebook "chemical engineering board exam results <3". So, without any malice, I immediately liked it (though he posted it 9 mins ago before I cliked the "like" button, and no one has yet liked it). Then after few minutes, he deleted it. And by that action, I pondered why he erased it. The next day, yun na lang ang iniisip ko. Andami kong naisip, super dami like.... ah basta, akin na lang yun. I even asked my groupmates about his action and they gave me a lot of scenarios. HAY.
Nung hapon, I was shocked na magccover din pala sya ng Track and Field (na iccover ko rin!). Pagdating dun, I had a chance to ask him about that, pero pa-joke naman. Ang hirap kasi ikwento dito. Pero ayun, he just laughed na parang wala lang. Well, gaya nga ng sabi ni Chelsea, "baka dahil sa may pinagsamahan sila". May ugali kasi ako na pag may sasabihin ako, pinapahulaan ko pa sa kanya. Ang gulo diba? Example: May sasabihin ako sayo. Hulaan mo :) Parang ganun. Kasi kilala naman din nya ako eh. Nung mga nakaraan nga eh, halos wala na akong ikkwento kasi alam na nya. Haha, galing!
Seriously, selosa po ako. HAHAHAHA. Di halata. Kung pwede nga lang bakuran sya, gagawin ko na. Lol. Ang hirap pala pag friend mo yung gusto mo. Oh well, mas nauna ko sya maging crush kesa maging friend. Kaso after team building, mas nanaig yung friendship. Ngayon kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. Pag nagka-gf sya, pwede na mag Dec.21 anytime, handa na ako! LOL.
I know na focus muna sya sa studies nya, and Im happy to hear that. Haha, may sinabi pa sya kaso di pwede i-share. Char. Sorry for acting this way, ganito lang siguro yung feeling ng ga-graduate na tapos wala pang ganap sa lovelife mula pumasok ng FEU. Feeling ko parang end of the world na, NBSB pa rin ako. Pressure ba? LOL.
Lately, nagiging conscious na ako sa mga galaw ko, though gusto kong maging natural lang kasi awkward din yun sa parte ko. Una, isa akong napaka-annoying na tao, madaldal na, maingay pa, tapos magulo at makulit din. Sinong hindi maiinis at maiirita sakin. Minsan kasi ayoko ng taong naka-simangot at tahimik. Feeling ko mahahawa ako sa pagiging lowbat nilang tao. Like yesterday, dumating ako sa venue na tahimik sya tapos nakatingin lang sa kawalan. So ayun, kinukulit ko sya. Ganun lang.
Tsaka ramdam ko, there's something wrong with me. Yung mga galaw ko kasi, lakas makapang-friendzone. yung friendzone na ako yung nangfi-friendzone at ako yung nafi-friendzone kasi very tropa ako gumalaw. parang ganun. Di rin kasi ako malambing eh. Kay Nanay at Lola lang ako ganun. Sa iba, hindi na. :D Siguro, yung masasabi kong lambing eh yung akbay, sandal ulo, tsaka pag-aayos ng bangs nya. HAHAHA. ganun lang. Di rin kasi ako cuddly na tao. Di ako mahilig mang-hug tapos di rin ako malambing magsalita, uhh, minsan malambing din. Depende sa sitwasyon. :)
Ang hirap kasi kumempet sa taong di marunong magreciprocate sayo. Sabi ng mga groupmates ko, kemehin (landiin) ko raw. Eh pasensya kayo day, di ako marunong gumanun. HAHA. Well, poor me ba? Lol. Di kaya. Babaeng torpe po ako gaya ng sinasabi ni Donabels (Don Carlo). HAHAHAHA. Eh ito namang lolo nyo, di ata marunong kumempet! Aba, nagsama na kami. Buti pa malalandi, nakakakahanap ng kasing lalandi nila o naaattract sa malalandi. Eh ako naman ayoko sa mga malalandi eh. :D Moving on, di ko alam kung manhid ba sya o hindi. Well, baka yung friendship namin yung mga-hold back sa kanya. Eh tropa nga kasi kami eh.
Yung iba kong friends, iba naman din advice nila, like "I-feel mo lang muna ang mga moment nyo na ganyan", "Di pa nya alam kung ano gusto nya", "baka di nyo pa time ngayon", "Darating din kayo dyan, hintayin mo lang". Ang tanong, kelan pa? pag gumraduate na ako? Wow, do I sound like desperada sa lovelife? Di naman uy! grabe kayo ha. Ganito lang kasi yung feeling ng magkakahiwalay na kayo ng tao, ilang months na lang eh. Mamimiss ko yung mga times na nagccover kami ng magkasama, magdi-dinner ng magkasabay, chismisan sa byahe, magkasamang naglalakad, magme-merienda sa hepalane or tayuman, magpapasama sa bookstore o sa pag-iikot ng campus. hay, ramdam ko na yung feeling ni Dairen dati.
Basta! Come what may. bahala na si batman! :D
So this blog knows everything when it comes to my love-este-crush life. Yeah, I actually like someone from my org, and you guys already know who he is. We're actually close buds and we share each others' secrets and other stuffs.
Recently, he posted a status in his Facebook "chemical engineering board exam results <3". So, without any malice, I immediately liked it (though he posted it 9 mins ago before I cliked the "like" button, and no one has yet liked it). Then after few minutes, he deleted it. And by that action, I pondered why he erased it. The next day, yun na lang ang iniisip ko. Andami kong naisip, super dami like.... ah basta, akin na lang yun. I even asked my groupmates about his action and they gave me a lot of scenarios. HAY.
Nung hapon, I was shocked na magccover din pala sya ng Track and Field (na iccover ko rin!). Pagdating dun, I had a chance to ask him about that, pero pa-joke naman. Ang hirap kasi ikwento dito. Pero ayun, he just laughed na parang wala lang. Well, gaya nga ng sabi ni Chelsea, "baka dahil sa may pinagsamahan sila". May ugali kasi ako na pag may sasabihin ako, pinapahulaan ko pa sa kanya. Ang gulo diba? Example: May sasabihin ako sayo. Hulaan mo :) Parang ganun. Kasi kilala naman din nya ako eh. Nung mga nakaraan nga eh, halos wala na akong ikkwento kasi alam na nya. Haha, galing!
Seriously, selosa po ako. HAHAHAHA. Di halata. Kung pwede nga lang bakuran sya, gagawin ko na. Lol. Ang hirap pala pag friend mo yung gusto mo. Oh well, mas nauna ko sya maging crush kesa maging friend. Kaso after team building, mas nanaig yung friendship. Ngayon kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. Pag nagka-gf sya, pwede na mag Dec.21 anytime, handa na ako! LOL.
I know na focus muna sya sa studies nya, and Im happy to hear that. Haha, may sinabi pa sya kaso di pwede i-share. Char. Sorry for acting this way, ganito lang siguro yung feeling ng ga-graduate na tapos wala pang ganap sa lovelife mula pumasok ng FEU. Feeling ko parang end of the world na, NBSB pa rin ako. Pressure ba? LOL.
Lately, nagiging conscious na ako sa mga galaw ko, though gusto kong maging natural lang kasi awkward din yun sa parte ko. Una, isa akong napaka-annoying na tao, madaldal na, maingay pa, tapos magulo at makulit din. Sinong hindi maiinis at maiirita sakin. Minsan kasi ayoko ng taong naka-simangot at tahimik. Feeling ko mahahawa ako sa pagiging lowbat nilang tao. Like yesterday, dumating ako sa venue na tahimik sya tapos nakatingin lang sa kawalan. So ayun, kinukulit ko sya. Ganun lang.
Tsaka ramdam ko, there's something wrong with me. Yung mga galaw ko kasi, lakas makapang-friendzone. yung friendzone na ako yung nangfi-friendzone at ako yung nafi-friendzone kasi very tropa ako gumalaw. parang ganun. Di rin kasi ako malambing eh. Kay Nanay at Lola lang ako ganun. Sa iba, hindi na. :D Siguro, yung masasabi kong lambing eh yung akbay, sandal ulo, tsaka pag-aayos ng bangs nya. HAHAHA. ganun lang. Di rin kasi ako cuddly na tao. Di ako mahilig mang-hug tapos di rin ako malambing magsalita, uhh, minsan malambing din. Depende sa sitwasyon. :)
Ang hirap kasi kumempet sa taong di marunong magreciprocate sayo. Sabi ng mga groupmates ko, kemehin (landiin) ko raw. Eh pasensya kayo day, di ako marunong gumanun. HAHA. Well, poor me ba? Lol. Di kaya. Babaeng torpe po ako gaya ng sinasabi ni Donabels (Don Carlo). HAHAHAHA. Eh ito namang lolo nyo, di ata marunong kumempet! Aba, nagsama na kami. Buti pa malalandi, nakakakahanap ng kasing lalandi nila o naaattract sa malalandi. Eh ako naman ayoko sa mga malalandi eh. :D Moving on, di ko alam kung manhid ba sya o hindi. Well, baka yung friendship namin yung mga-hold back sa kanya. Eh tropa nga kasi kami eh.
Yung iba kong friends, iba naman din advice nila, like "I-feel mo lang muna ang mga moment nyo na ganyan", "Di pa nya alam kung ano gusto nya", "baka di nyo pa time ngayon", "Darating din kayo dyan, hintayin mo lang". Ang tanong, kelan pa? pag gumraduate na ako? Wow, do I sound like desperada sa lovelife? Di naman uy! grabe kayo ha. Ganito lang kasi yung feeling ng magkakahiwalay na kayo ng tao, ilang months na lang eh. Mamimiss ko yung mga times na nagccover kami ng magkasama, magdi-dinner ng magkasabay, chismisan sa byahe, magkasamang naglalakad, magme-merienda sa hepalane or tayuman, magpapasama sa bookstore o sa pag-iikot ng campus. hay, ramdam ko na yung feeling ni Dairen dati.
Basta! Come what may. bahala na si batman! :D
Saturday, December 1, 2012
NBSB talks :)
Last night, I was with Dairen, Beatty and Don. Yeah, the so-called NBSB bonding. I really enjoy the company of my fellow NBSB since they usually share their not-so-good experiences with their keme. And as the one who's next in line (ahem, soon to be alum), they also see themselves in me. HAHA. Mega relate?
When it comes to Beatty and Dairen, they have a contrasting personalities. Beatty: fierce artist. Dairen: soft-spoken writer. Beatty always tell me to do like this and like that. Something different. Nuff said. While Dairen will just give you some advices that is different from Beatty. Basta, ganun yun!
Since I got to bond with Beatty once every week, last night was the time to share some of my "keme stories" with Dairen. She knows who's the person concerned. Ayun, I learned a lot from her past experiences. Of course relate ako kasi nga NBSB kami. But Im happy that I got to listen from their stories. Sabi nga ni Dairen "I dont want you to learn the hard way". :3
Tapos ako naman, andami kong kwento kay Sib Dairen about kay JH. Well, iba naman din kasi talaga kami nina Sib and her keme. Tropang-tropa lang talaga kami ni Ji Hoo. Kaya may malisya kasi gusto ko sya, and madalas kami magkasama (pero pag kami ni Don magkasama, super waley! HAHA). Sabi nga ni Sib "kaya kayo laging magkasama or nagkkwento sya kasi comfortable na sya sayo" (which I think is soo true). Yes, we talk about our past kemes and related stuffs, pero kwentuhang just for fun and entertainment lang. Ako lang kasi talaga may hanash magkwento haluan mo pa ng nursing brutality and jargons ko :)
JH: Hoping ka pa ba?
Me; Noooo. Paki-stab to death nga yung bwisit na yun sa Tuesday!
Another quotable quote from Dairen. "Sabi ko kay June Ace, ieeenjoy ko na lang to kasi graduating na ako. kaso ayun..."
HAHAHA. Since malapit na ako sa finish line, i was thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay JH na bet ko sya o hindi? Well, sabi nung ibang friends ko, alam na raw nya (feel lang nila). Eh baka kasi mas tumagilid pa pag nagsalita ako. I'll just let destiny do its magic. tsaka ayoko paka-stress, ineenjoy ko na lang tong last sem ko :) Gusto kong gawing memorable to :)
@Sib: Thanks sa pagpapatuloy sakin. Sorry di kita pinatulog sa sobrang daldal mo. Feeling ko talaga eh mababawasan na ang circle natin, marami ng nagmamahal. HAHAHA. Last man standing kaya ako sating lahat? Wag naman! :))
When it comes to Beatty and Dairen, they have a contrasting personalities. Beatty: fierce artist. Dairen: soft-spoken writer. Beatty always tell me to do like this and like that. Something different. Nuff said. While Dairen will just give you some advices that is different from Beatty. Basta, ganun yun!
Since I got to bond with Beatty once every week, last night was the time to share some of my "keme stories" with Dairen. She knows who's the person concerned. Ayun, I learned a lot from her past experiences. Of course relate ako kasi nga NBSB kami. But Im happy that I got to listen from their stories. Sabi nga ni Dairen "I dont want you to learn the hard way". :3
Tapos ako naman, andami kong kwento kay Sib Dairen about kay JH. Well, iba naman din kasi talaga kami nina Sib and her keme. Tropang-tropa lang talaga kami ni Ji Hoo. Kaya may malisya kasi gusto ko sya, and madalas kami magkasama (pero pag kami ni Don magkasama, super waley! HAHA). Sabi nga ni Sib "kaya kayo laging magkasama or nagkkwento sya kasi comfortable na sya sayo" (which I think is soo true). Yes, we talk about our past kemes and related stuffs, pero kwentuhang just for fun and entertainment lang. Ako lang kasi talaga may hanash magkwento haluan mo pa ng nursing brutality and jargons ko :)
JH: Hoping ka pa ba?
Me; Noooo. Paki-stab to death nga yung bwisit na yun sa Tuesday!
Another quotable quote from Dairen. "Sabi ko kay June Ace, ieeenjoy ko na lang to kasi graduating na ako. kaso ayun..."
HAHAHA. Since malapit na ako sa finish line, i was thinking kung sasabihin ko ba kay JH na bet ko sya o hindi? Well, sabi nung ibang friends ko, alam na raw nya (feel lang nila). Eh baka kasi mas tumagilid pa pag nagsalita ako. I'll just let destiny do its magic. tsaka ayoko paka-stress, ineenjoy ko na lang tong last sem ko :) Gusto kong gawing memorable to :)
@Sib: Thanks sa pagpapatuloy sakin. Sorry di kita pinatulog sa sobrang daldal mo. Feeling ko talaga eh mababawasan na ang circle natin, marami ng nagmamahal. HAHAHA. Last man standing kaya ako sating lahat? Wag naman! :))
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