Final 1st semester

Sabihin ko man na kalmado, positive and chill ako these past few days, pero tonight, kinakabahan na ako para bukas.

Lemme assess 1st semester

• Busy sa research. Trust me, di kami makaka-1.25 kung di namin pinaghirapan yun. We failed 4 times and yet tumayo kami more than 5 times.
• Skipped NOL sessions. Bagong balita ba yan?
• Skipped NCI-NCA classes. Ang alam ko, once lang ako nawala sa NCA, pero 3 or 4 times ata sa NCI.
• Better grades in NCM concepts 2 and 4. Yes, di na sya palakol o buntis gaya nung 1st sem last year.
• A lot more sensitive because of Elective. Oh yeaah! Yan ang subject na lagi akong pinapaiyak.
• Ngarag sa duty lalo na sa NRMF. Swear, basag bungo ko sa medicine computation.
• Coverage. As usual, pasok na pasok sa sked ko. HAHA. Kaso ngarag ako kasi laging article ko ang nattsambang hinihintay para maiprint na ang dyaryo. After game, pasa agad.
• Lumuluwag na turnilyo sa RLE. HAHAHA. Isa pa yan eh! Nagkaroon ako ng "slump" keme.
• Late na pagdating ni LOVELIFE (edit:CRUSHLIFE!). Ngayong sem lang na to ako nawalan ng lovelife. 1st year 1st sem: Zeke. 2nd year 1st sem: TR. 3rd year 1st sem: Joshua. 4th year 1st sem: ???.. Well, pwede na ring si (deleted 2017) bilang madalas kaming magkasama ulit. HAHAHA. Joke lang. Pero si Joshua talaga eh. Pasulpot-sulpot sya. Pero dumarating sya sa panahong down ako tapos pag nagkausap kami, biglang shoot up ang grades/quizzes/exams ko gaya ng hina-highblood na tao! Yun pala yun eh. Kaso late na talaga sya bumalik ng medyo matagal. Ayun lang.

What went wrong?

• Yung paasa na grade sa Elective. grabe, may CI akong napa-comment bigla ah. Kasi si Mam ambaba magbigay ng grade tapos wala naman kaming inaatupag kundi lecture. mas mabuti pang nagssharing kami lagi.
• Yung NCA and NCI na di ko deserve. SRSLY? mas mataas pa sakin yung di pumapasok?
• NCM. Nakita ko 2 concept grades ko, pasok pa sa 2.25 yun. BAKIT 2.75 lang? parang di ako nag-aral ng matino ah!
• THESIS: masyadong nagfocus? pati ibang obligasyon nawala?
• 14 units. IKAKAMATAY KO TO!

Honestly, naiinggit ako sa mga nakakakuha ng line of 1 na GWA. Pero iba naman kaso ko sa kanila eh. NURSING ako. 14 UNITS ang subject ko. Anlaking difference diba? 

Gaya nga ng sabi ni Ate Chin. THINK POSITIVE! :)

Going up

Covering UAAP Basketball for 2 consecutive season's really amazing. You got to see basketball games a few inches away from you. You see scenes that can't be seen in television, like players talking or tapping their opponent, their facial expressions when they miss a shot or when they fell on the floor like a weak puppet.

I watched FEU's games last year, and honestly, I wasn't expecting that we're going to have our 2nd straight Finals appearance. But FEU pulled that season to an exciting and fantastic one, nailing those cardiac games and proving everyone that they'll definitely make it again, though in a roller-coaster ride to the top. 

That time, I was really scared that the Tamaraws would face Ateneo if they place 4th. Well, that would be suicidal for us. Luckily, UST bowed to NU in their final game and FEU won against DLSU. Before coming to semifinals, I was thinking that since Adamson stopped Ateneo's elims sweep, FEU would lose easily. Adamson also cancelled their classes that afternoon while FEU still carried on. I opted to cut my afternoon class to watch and support the team aside from doing my duty.

Some of the kids I met at the venue skipped their classes too just to catch the game that might be our last for that season. Yet, FEU ended it with a 10 point advantage. And the team's luck continued up to their rubber match and booked a round trip ticket again to the championships.

Again, FEU choked in their 2-game finals against their foes, Ateneo. I know it's hard to lose another crown again, but everyone must move on and improve their skills once again.

This year, FEU sparked in their opening game, with RR Garcia doing the magic again. The Tamaraws saw themselves at the top of the standing with 4-0. Not until NU halted it. The green and gold squad remained positive yet lost again to Ateneo at the end of the 1st round elims. The Tams showed everyone that they're really hungry for the gold when they trounced UST with 20 points, and then bowed again to Ateneo.

Their two loses against Ateneo's really a tough one, but their 2nd round match-up against NU was a very big blow to them. And then, DLSU made FEU's way to third spot blurred with Vosotros' baskets.

Come their rematch, Im confident that FEU would notch this, but seeing them play with crappy defense and kinda chaotic plays made me bow down and asked extra help from above. God heard my prayers and gave FEU a run to catch up with NU's score. The game reached overtime and FEU was up by 6 points, not until Parks made those terrific shots that shackled the Morayta-based cagers.

We left Araneta Coliseum with a pierced heart and unexplainable facial expression. We tried to keep the pain but we cant.

I know, rants and rages would not really help our squad right now. It's just disappointing to see that you're on top of the standings and now fighting for dear life at fourth. This doesn't mean that FEU's a weak team, it's just because of certain circumstances that caused them to be at that hanging spot. We almost had it all, but we let it slipped away.

That first match up was undeniably ours, but let's stop all these buzzes, it already happened. "bilog ang bola", right?

So let's just put our whole faith and support to them, I know that they need us. Even though we're going to face a lot of trials along the way, I know we'll definitely get there at the right time. 

IDC about my grammatical errors here, I just wanna voice out what I feel. :)

And I'm so back!

Hello there my dearest blog, ang baul ng aking very brilliant mind. LOL. So ayun nga, I'm so back na. Define pagbabalik. Nakakairita lang kasi puro Joshua-related na naman blog ko, uso mag-move on te!

Time check: 4:20. Wala pa akong tulog at wala pa akong NCP. Lechugas diba? Buti na lang wala kaming duty bukas, Case Pres and Post Quiz :)  Later ko na nga lang gagawin! Define katamaran diba?

Ang aga ko umalis kanina for duty, kasi balak kong tumambay muna sa Starbucks at gumawa ng NCP. Binayo kami ng ulan bandang Commonwealth, but di naman binaha dun sa may Regalado. Phew! Kasabay ko naman sina Chels and Muri nun. Then tumambay kami sa Starbucks hanggang 3pm :)

Rejoice! Di natuloy i-discharge yung patient ko. HIHI. Atleast naalagaan ko pa sya. LOL. :) So nag-VS ako, and sumama si Ana. Aba! Inunahan pa akong kamustahin si AJ! (Patient ko) Tapos eto namang si Aps eh kung anu-anong tinatanong kay AJ at dinadamay pa ko. Kaloka. Parang ike-case pres lang sa dami ng tanong. Chinika ko rin sya about acads. GOSH! May plan sya mag-MED! Parang bet ko rin eh! :)) Para classmates/seatmates kami! Kumusta naman yung surname nya diba? AJ Bago, tapos LJ Bagona naman ako. HAHAHA. Meant to be! On the other hand, tahimik sya at mahiyain pero parang naging comfortable naman din sya sakin after ko kausapin.

Moving on! Ayun, di ko akalain na last day ko na pala sa FEU-NRMF kanina. Since nganga kami after paperworks, todo Twitter naman ako. From Koko, You, Ate Isai, Zee, Ate Bien, andami ko ng naka-chat and natweet. Tapos nanghingi pa si Russel ng number ni Sir Ian. Hahaha.

Nung dinner naman, di ko naubos food ko, di ko kinaya yung Katsudon. Tapos usapang buhay and kalokohan naman kami ni Ate Rej. pagbalik ng duty, VS ulit and kinausap ko na naman si AJ. (READ: Nakita ko number nya sa chart!). GC pala sya! Sigurado matalino to. Actually, GC naman ako, di lang ganun kalakas pagka-GC ko :P

Lahat yata ng girls sa group namin, bet si AJ. Sorry, patient ko syaaa :)

Nung pauwi, nag-resume na naman yung banatan namin ni JA. HAHAHA. Nung pauwi naman ako, mag-isa na lang ako syempre. Naka-chat ko na naman si Mark Espiritu aka Maju kanina. 2 nights na kaming magka-chat at usapang thesis, cartooning at duty kami (buhay 4th yr indeed). Tapos kaloka pa mga hirit nya.

"Lhea, pa-share naman yung picture (fashion show) sabi ni (James) Soteco"
"Lhea, gawan mo raw si Soteco ng medical certificate"

Haha, napakabuting kaibigan indeed. Haha, at may pagsambit sa pangalan ni Soteco. (Note: Crush ko kasi yung barkada nilang si James Soteco, though akala ng mga taga-Advo eh si Mark ang crush ko. HAHAHA Example ng maling akala: Armen)

Shinare ko naman yung photo, tsaka mas nauna akong nagshare kesa dun sa message ni mark. then yung sa medCert naman, sabi ko "sana sinabi mo agad! may RX pad sana kanina eh! :P). Since di naman ako pwedeng mag falsify, inendorse ko na lang yung Recto. HAHAHA.

Nakakainis, galing akong duty sa Oct 3. Di bale, uuwi ako't maliligo ulit  para di ako bad hair day na manunuod. Malay natin andun si James! :P Pero pupunta talaga ako dun para sa mga friends ko (Pat, Yon, Rits, Mark, Anjo). tsaka di rin ako nakapanuod last year kaya babawi ako ngayon!

It's all about..

IDK if you're still checking on my blog or not. These past few days made me realize a lot of things, especially your so-called worth in my life.

One time, I found myself reading some thick nursing books. Super hopeless na ako to get a passing score in NCM-ABC concept kaya binasa ko na lahat ng libro na meron ako. Andami ko ng ginawa para mainspire lalo sa pag-aaral kasi halos sumuko na ako. And then I checked my facebook profile and I saw you. I browsed thru your photos and found a picture of you with that mala-toothpaste commercial smile .

No pun intended, you really have that wonderful smile that only few people would recognize. I mean, your smile can brighten anyone's day. So, I continued reading my book with your photo facing my direction. Parang yung dati lang, while reviewing, kausap kita and mino-motivate mo ko to study harder. Kung alam mo lang na isa sa mga nicknames mo sakin eh "Motivation". :)

You really did a great job to encourage me to study more. Di naman sa hindi ko inspirasyon sina Papa and Lola sa studies ko, parang may bagong force kasi na andyan sa likod ko para alalayan ako. Kahit nagka-keme ako ng sandali, it really didnt have a bad effect in my studies. Dapat nga maging thankful tayo kasi dahil sa happiness and heartbreak ko eh 2.2 ang GWA ko (lechugas na NCM lang, paniraaa!)

The next day, we took up that "shotgut exam" and I got a passing grade! Wow! May mga lumabas sa mga inaral ko! thank you lord. Even before, I know that Joshua can do wonders pagdating sa acads ko. Nung down ako sa RLE, after we talked the night before, halos perfect ako sa quiz and mataas nakuha ko sa bandaging. Kitams? :)

Come Saturday, I told Ate Chin what I really feel. This <3 of mine still belongs to him. Yes, I do have a lot of crushes, pero sya pa rin eh. Kahit na andami ng nangyari, di pa rin sya mawala sa trono nya.

Seeing a picture of him and his girl pierced what's between my 4th and 5th ICS. Yes, it really did hurt. Nakakabitter kasi eh. Aminin natin yan. I didn't had a chance to have a picture with him while watching last year's basketball finals. I thought magkikita pa kami kaso last na pala yun.

I tweeted "Sayang at di man lang tayo nagkaroon ng picture ng magkasama, wala tuloy nagpapaalala sakin kung gaano ako kasaya nung panahong yun na kasama kita". Totoo naman yun eh. Nakakabitter.

Then kaninang umaga, nag-chat pa kami. Parang wala lang, parang acquaintances lang. So ganun na lang ba yun? Mas nalungkot lang ako actually eh. Masaya naman ako kahit na di nya ako kinakamusta, pero yung totoo eh miss ko na sya. Kaya ko na syang tiisin pag malayo sya, pero pag andyan na sya, sige Lhea, gora ka na, minsan lang yan.

Nakakahiya man pero finriendzone nya ako. Naguguluhan ako sa totoong rason eh, pero ang sinabi nya sakin " Ayokong matulad ka sa mga ex ko na nawala na lang. Alam kong dito tayo magtatagal". He also tagged me as his "best friend" and "ate".

Fine, I now accept the fact that we're just bound to be friends, maybe in our entire life. Pero ayoko lang maging kaibigan nya kapag may problema lang sya, pero pag masaya sya, nakakalimutan lang. Ano ako, CALAMITY FUND na laging andyan pag binabagyo ka? Friend mo naman ako sa lahat ng oras eh, pero hindi naman ako laging andito para saluhin ka sa kalungkutan mo.

Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako nasasaktan kapag nalalaman kong di ka naaappreciate nung gf mo. masakit sakin yun kasi bakit di nya kayang makita yung mga bagay na nakita ko sayo? tsaka sana wag mo akong babalikan kapag nagkakalabuan kayo ng gf mo at humihingi ka ng tulong sakin, kasi pati ako nahihirapan din. Remember, di ako tagasalo mo.

And lastly, siguro hanggang picture mo na lang ako. Yung tititigan ang picture mo na nakasalamin ka at nakangiti. Minsan, naimagine ko dati na aayusan kita ng buhok mo, yung ako yung pipili ng bibilhin mong damit (bilang dream kong maging stylist), at rarampa tayo! :P Imagination na lang siguro yun, di na magkakatotoo. Sa ngayon, kakausapin ko na lang picture mo lalo na kapag naiinis ako. Pero wag kang mag-alala, babalikan ko pa rin ang picture mo kapag gusto ko ng kukumpleto sa araw ko.

Dear Diary

Wonder why I'm not posting that often? It's because I turned back to the 'forever-reliable secret keeper' diary'. Well, you can’t blame me guys since gusto ko lang ng ibang avenue to voice out my rants in a silent way, na hindi mababasa ng kahit sino.

Actually, isa na ang diary ko sa pinaka-iingatan kong gamit, and kasama na rin ang lappy and phones ko syempre. My diary has a lot of stories to tell, not just my stories, but also my friends'. Minsan, dun ko na rin nilalagay yung mga reactions ko and realizations aside from my experiences. It really feels good to write since you're also enhancing your skills aside from telling stories through written form.

Sa diary, wala kang mao-offend na tao, since di naman nya mababasa eh, unless nabasa nya yun by accident, which is 0.1/100%. Super liit ng chances diba? I remember what Joshua told me when I shared that I have a diary "Diary ka na naman dyan, tapos mababasa ko din naman". Well, for everyone's info, Joshua's the perfect example of a person who  accidentally read what I wrote about him. Umm, a hate post actually. HAHA. And it was because of him that's why I shifted to writing in a journal. HAHA, you'll never read my diary again, unless you'll steal it. But I'll never let you live after touching my precious journal. HAHAHAHA. Creepy!

Im currently writing about what my friend and I talked about last Saturday. Super kelangan kong isulat yun kasi 1st time nyang magkwento sakin ng medyo seryoso. Seryoso naman sya kausap, pero mas seryoso yung topic. And medyo na-guilty ako ng konti coz I made him cry. Umm, cry in a different reason. Hehehe. Palusot.Com naman ako eh no.

Tapos last night, sinulat ko naman yung biglaang drinking sessions namin. As long as naaalala ko pa, sinulat ko na. Mahirap na't makalimutan ko diba? And! Wagas ako mag-english pag tipsy na, pero pag yung Group 33 kasama ko, tahimik ako. Bat ganun? Tapos meron kaming isinalang (SINALANG talaga? Ano yun? Kaldero?) sa hot seat bilang sya ang sentro ng tanungan at usapan. Ayun. Kung ano yung mga tinanong namin, secret na lang yun :P

BTW, may isa pa akong notebook na maliit. Reaction notebook ko naman yun. Kung may mga sudden reactions ako na di ko masabi, dun ko na lang sinusulat :)))))

--Dapat nung September 12 pa to eh :D

Absences

Yes, I'm very particular with my absences for this year. Actually, nung 3rd year-1st sem, once lang ako umabsent (Ethics, Humanities, Rizal, all in one day) dahil sa FEU-Adamson Semis Game 1. Ako kasi yung nag-volunteer na magcover nun bilang puro majors ang klase nina Tito Ace and Cindy. Pero, super dami naman ang absences ko sa NOL. HAHAHA. Diba sabi ko nga kanina eh "very particular" ako, eto tuloy, nililista ko mga absences ko.

NCM
1st day of classes pa lang eh wala na ko dito kasi tinamad ako bumangon. HAHA. Gandang rason diba? So natulog na lang talaga ako nun. :)

Elective
Same din with NCM. Dalawa lang kasi subject ko nung 1st day eh :)

NCI
Umabsent ako dito dahil sa FEU vs Adamson game last week. Eh kasi naman, di talaga ako manunuod. Eh kaso pagdating ko ng office, nag-aya si Armen, ayun absent na tuloy. Hirap talaga umayaw sa barkada :))

NCA
Absent ako nung Thursday! Almost 1:30 na kasi natapos yung media prep  namin for research, tapos nag-lunch pa kami ni Ate Reich kaya ayun, di na ko nakapasok.

Research
Sa lahat ng di ko papasukan, eto pa? Actually, sarap ng tulog ko kaya napabayaan ko to. Super kaba ko kasi may quiz yata kami. IM DEAD! Tapos di pa nagrereply yung Co-Leader ko, kaya feeling ko galit sila sakin. Waaaaah.

NOL
Kailangan pa bang isama to? Ayun, as usual eh lagi akong wala dito. Pero sorry na lang, 3 lang absent ko dito, out of 6 :))))


--Sorry na, napakatamad ko yatang bata. Di na ko papasobra ng absent dyan. SWEAR! :)

Dont pretend to know everything

Sorry guys, I'm not that good in expressing my thoughts through writing sometimes. I do better in speaking, but beware, my words are like bullets that would easily fire someone down.

When I hate (or dislike, etc) someone, I try to keep it to myself first, thinking that I might have judged him/her wrong. But when I cant take it anymore, I try to belt it out to someone who  doesn't have a minute idea about the person I'm talking about. It's not backstabbing, it's just letting anger to diminish.

Recently, I have this small notebook that doesn't seem to contain all my unsaid thoughts for the past weeks. Yes, I'm a talkative person, and every single person knows what I'm thinking since I usually tell it to them, but now, I'm trying to have my thoughts in private.

Some of my entries are all problems, but some are secrets, sudden realizations, or wild thoughts. Haha, I already gave a hint on what's in it! But anyway, why am I blogging this? Because I want people to know that there's still more beyond the real me. I don't mean that I have a devilish alter ego or what, but I am a type of person who thinks deep and yet blows hard.

And to that certain person, don't pretend to know everything. There's still more that you don't even know. Before doing such powerful actions, try to think deep. Just THINK. Open your eyes and explore the world that you think you already know. I do hate disrespect.  Respect begets respect, always remember that. And please, dont act like you're innocent, let's face it. Let your mouth do the talking.